Time...

I found the above pic from the net... time is valuable.. it means... and it is true.. and we need to treasure time.. Time with loved ones and friends.. I guess as I am going to leave real soon for a long period of time, this just speaks more to me.. coz I won't be seeing my loved ones and friends for a long time.. minimum of 10 months and many things could actually take place in the 10 months.. Just for example, in a few months time, my niece would be walking and my nephew would be talking even more.

Yup... Time... is precious and valuable... O Lord, please grant me wisdom to know how to make full use of time.. and to make the best out of it.. to have fun and memorable moments with everyone who are important to me.. *grinning*

Authentic Drink..

hehehe.. I drank an interesting drink yesterday for lunch.. it is called alcohol coconut drink.. mm.. never drank it before and it was an interesting drink indeed.. This is the picture of it too!.. looks like coconut drink.. just that this one is with alcohol in it, to give it a different flavour and well, a touch of sweetness n fragrance feel.

Hold on a minute!.. mind you that it is not those type that could make you feel tipsy.. I didn't feel at all tipsy so, guess it is a rather mild trickle of alcohol then..

Awesome Moment....

This is the type of experience that little Josh is going through almost everyday.. and the latest would be to cycle in the neighbourhood.. and he enjoys it so much... I find these moments so precious.. and it is so precious to little Josh.. and once he grows up, he would appreciate it even more.. *smile*...

Photo of grandma and little Josh...

Isn't he smart looking in his vehicle!.. and he cycles very well too... check out the two videos below too.. I have videoed a few that day.. coz I wanna capture moments like these...

Awesome experience in a normal settings of life!.. and this is what I call simplicity too... so, I call this awesome moment!.. and this add to my "Moments" collection.. *grinning*...

Photos after photos....

Taken many photos last Sunday but only gonna post the highlights, so to speak.. hehehhe.. anyway, the rest of the shots are posted on FB..

Me with Fiona... :D

Me with Maggie... She was holding a guitar, ya.. :D

Me with Faith... :D

Me with the girls.. so many of them.. so privilege to be having lunchie with them coz they are all busy gals.. (Thanks gals.. if you are reading this.. hehehe...)

Last but definitely not the least.. me with my spiritual parents.. They have been with me through the thicks and thins.. bad and good.. I thank God for them!..

And you know what, I am truly thankful to God for friends.. friendships.. the many friendships that He has blessed me with.. the many interesting and unique relationships that He has blessed me with.. Truly awesome!.. I couldn't have asked for more.. and I know He is blessing me with even more in the days ahead.. I am praying.. *wink*

He is my Awesome God! Truly... and sweetly true...

Clock ticking...

Got this from the net.. hehehe.. just wanna post this today... clock is ticking and... look at its excitement!.. *wink*

So Exciting!

Today is 22nd August 2008... and I am like so excited about lots of stuff.. Hehehe.. still have some stuff to do, like my final lap of packing before I head home on Monday.. and just love to take photos.. more photos.. hehehe..

Well.. time for my dinner!.. Shall scribble again soon...

Photos taken in church last Sunday....

Here you are again.. some more photos... *yak yak*...

Usher Team Three.. not everyone but lots of them!.. hehehe...

That's me... hehehe.. obviously.. in the Auditorium...

So timely... Aunty Eng Lih walked in.. and we took a shot together..

Well, more and more photos to come.. Gonna take more this coming Sunday.. hehehehe.. with a group of girl friends..

Reapfield's Accounts Department...

Finally.. able to get a great shot of the accounts people today.. hehehe.. lovely photo.. don't you agree with me? everyone smiling... so cool... and we had a great lunch too!.. Yum Yum!..

The CG... but not everyone were there..

Just taken some snap shots at the recent CG meet... unfortunately, not everyone were there but it was ok.. at least some were.. :D

Where is me? hehehe.. I was the photographer...

Here I am.. and well, lets move to the next shot...

Here you are.. a close-up too... and everyone were smiling more too!..

The Diongs....

Had tea with the Diongs recently.. Attended their Chinese CG for couple of months in 2006 and; was and is truly blessed by their friendships.. their encouragements and prayers... *smile*

I feel at home eh...

All ladies... hehehe... hey, kinda nice match of color coordination.. cool...

More photos taken on last Sunday...

Yup... more photos taken.. with different friends..

Breakie with Guat Seng...

Pr Marg!.. one of my fav'rite pastors.. and a very dear friend... Told her that I would be putting this on the blog.. hehehe..

Cell girls.. hehehe.. gonna miss u gals!..

In fact, I am going to miss everyone...... (my my.. so emotional now..)

Trying to take photos here and there but sometimes, forgotten to take them, wor.. apologies to friends whom I didn't snap a pic or two with...... well, I would remember all in my heart.. treasure them in my heart.. with and without pics.. coz at the end of it all, it is the friendships and many fellowships that stay deep...

Hehehe.. another sets of photos coming up.. but later.. now, need to go out..... ta..

Some photos taken during farewell dinner given by Ushers....

Yup.. I gotten the photos from Nicholas Y.. last Sunday.. and I just thought wanna post them on the blog today.. the group photo... and also a favorite shot of myself!.. hehehe..

The Group photo... but not all ushers were there that night..

I really like this card.. so in line with my blog theme too.. hehehe.. think whoever chose this knows.. *wink*.. "thanks!"...

A fav'rite shot of me!.. with the effect.. definitely cool.. :D

More photos to come.. on the way.. heheheh.. I just love this bit!.. hehehe...

The Day is getting nearer...

I have been like super busy.. well, busy being outside and not being home, in front of the laptop.. So, didn't scribble as much as I would want to. Anyway, I had a great feast of durians last Saturday night.. Yummy!.. Cell members said I was "high" on durians.. *grinning*.. just love it!..

Mm.. don't know what to scribble today except to say that the Day is getting nearer.. ya.. excited.. and yet, wondering have I done all that I need to do? Seen the people I need to see? hehehe.. Cool, girl.. One step at a time.. *wink*.. I am talking to myself..

Amazing how time flies by.. and well, many things have changed.. These days, even as I go to different, various places, I somehow take notice of differences.. and my goodness, so many have changed even in the span of weeks.. Mm.. So, guess by the time when I come back next year, definitely, there will be much changes.. Good changes, I hope.. Well, I am praying that good changes would take place too in my life and my family too!.. and also for my friends and loved ones!.. Looking forward to hearing news like... so n so is growing deep in the Lord, so n so has accepted Lord Jesus as their Lord and Savior, so n so getting a new opportunity and move, so n so getting married, so n so is having their first baby.. etc etc...

Well.... yup.. Looking forward.. and yet at the same time, treasuring what I have before me.. spending time with significant people in my life.. and even making significant phone calls to some whom I couldn't meet up.. Writing notes and notes..

Hehe.. time for me to get ready to go out for the day.. so discipline, huh? hehehe.. well, going out to have fellowship!.. fellowship time is great and wonderful!.. relaxing and fun.. cherrio...

Scribbling Craze....

Hehehe.. I am having the scribbling craze! Just wanna scribble scribble scribble.. wonder it makes sense or not.. well, you know, like writer or artist... when the thoughts come, they just wanna write or draw.. the connection is there! and it feels so easy to just write and write.. or draw and draw.. Just like what I am feeling now, so easy and flow-y to scribble and scribble..

Maybe also because I have time.. and my mind is kinda "free".. not entirely but more space for scribblings.. I thought I was tired.. Mm.. but now, it is like the energy is back to scribble.. but actually hor, I got couple of books in hand to finish reading before I go off.. coz I can't bring them over.. My luggage weight couldn't take them.. so sad.. but what to do.. So, gonna finish reading them soonest possible! hehehe..

Anyway, the one before me at this moment is titled "The Sensitivity of the Spirit" by R.T. Kendall... I like his writings.. clear and easy to read and to reflect upon.. Anyway, coming back to the many books to be read, that is just me, to have many unfinished books to read.. but there are books which I finish pretty fast.. It is sort of like, I can drink in the writer's flow of thoughts naturally.. and hence, the quickness of finishing the book.. hehehe.. ever had that before?

Mm... lets get back to the book I mentioned above.. it is all about learning to stay in the flow of God's direction.. How do we do that? well, have to read the book and find out.. I know I need to find out and to learn from the author.. even to catch a glimpse and hopefully more than just a glimpse of what it means to being sensitive to the Holy Spirit..

Hehe.. My scribbling craze has gone everywhere now.. but it feels so good to be able to just scribble of my thoughts.. to reflect.. to digest and to see different sides of even a simple thing..

Halt!... wait a minute... I am having this crave for chocolates out of the blue.. hehehe.. so, gonna scribble off now.. to pop in one of those lovely chocolate that my wonderful dad bought... ta...

Some Reapfield photos..

hehehe.. managed to take some photos with colleagues at Reapfield.. hope to take some more on 22nd August 2008.. when I go back for a couple of hours.. Well, for now, here you are....

Jen, Gracie, Melia, Me (of course) and Tim...

Same same.. except addition.. Wilson..

Me and the Reapfield Tech guys.. (Choong, Jef and Adie)

The lady behind the phones.. faithfully answering calls.. Ros..

More photos to come, I hope... I did a boo-boo on last day of work.. Brought my Cam but forgot to charge it.. geez.. oh well.... there will be another chance soon.. hehehe..

The meaning of....

"Relinquish"... according to the freedictionary.com is

1. To retire from; give up or abandon.
2. To put aside or desist from (something practiced, professed, or intended).
3. To let go; surrender.
4. To cease holding physically; release

Why am I scribbling about this word? Well, seems like quite a few people using this word to me recently and I was rather curious to find out what is the difference between this word and the word, "Cease"... which means as follows:

1. To come to an end;
2. To stop performing an activity or action;

Sounds like the same meaning, relatively.. but relinquish sounds like a nicer word to use.. hehehe.. Well, this is a flash time for "English lesson"... how interesting.. bleh.. hehhe... It is more for me to understand, actually...

(Scribbler feeling hungry... gonna get food.... )

Zip Zap Boom...

"doink"... "doink".... goodness me.. that was exactly what I felt today.. for a tinkle moment.. heheh..

People say when you are not working, you would be very free... How come it is otherwise for me? Oooh.. coz I am leaving the country and therefore need to do many things! *wink* Frankly speaking, it is rather tiring.. perhaps I have packed almost everything into a few days... and ran around so much.. Anyway, today is the second day... I am almost there with the things that I need to do and settle.. I am ticking off my to-do-list.. and I also have my people-to-meet-list too.. Hope I didn't miss out anyone.. If I do, my apologies....

Well, am feeling tired at this very moment.. gonna go out for a simple meal with bro and then back to my cozy corner of reading.. and then dreamland.. tomorrow will be an early day too for me! Got breakie appointment.. dinner appointment as well... In between, will probably do some more shopping of stuff and then packing of stuff.. yup.. that is the rough plan for tomorrow.. subject to change, of course..

Hope I don't fall as I zip-zap around... Must watch my steps.. *grinning*

08.08.08 wedding shots... hehehe...

Bridegroom and bride at the far right.... just in case you are wondering....

Nicole (sitting next to me) is our new friend that night... *smile*.. the gal I mentioned in my earlier scribbling...

I thoroughly enjoyed myself that night.. initially, have the privilege to be at work!.. hehe.. the usual ushering and reception thingy... then, once all that are settled, it was time to relax and enjoy the food!.. Food was great that night.. Wine was excellent too!.. hehehe... Had a great company too.. and I think I look great too... eh.. where did that come from?? hehe.. *laughing*... "self praise is such a disgrace" the saying goes but nah... not applicable here in muah's scribblings.. *winking cheekily*

Mm.. the couple is still on their honeymoon.... Such lovely couple those two!.. Truly my privilege of knowing them... A toast to them!! *smile*

Dentist Visit, anyone?

I am going.... Anyone wanna join me? hehehe... Glad that my dentist visit tomorrow would not be a scary one.. hehehe.. just doing 3 small fillings.. so, not that bad.. I hope.. hehe.. *whistling away*

Last Day of Work...

Couldn't believe my eyes but it is true.. today marks the last day of work for me in Reapfield.. Mm.. feeling kinda sad for leaving actually. However, the adventure ahead in a foreign land is something I am looking forward to. One is the comfort zone and one is not... Well, that is the risk that I am taking.. for the first time ever, I guess.. in that sense.. Mm... Would anyone be able to fathom what I am trying to scribble here at this hour? I know someone would.. *wink*

Mm.. there were many chats, many handshakes, many hugs taken place today.. I never really know how to say good goodbyes.. Is there such a thing as a good goodbye? Does anyone know? oops.. for a moment, think some perfectionism came into play... hehehe.. Well, one important thing is that I felt good today.. *grin*.. sad to leave, yes... because will be missing the colleagues.. the many lunchies we enjoy.. laughters.. stories... well, the friendships continue on, I hope.. and pray...

Now, new phase of life ahead of me... and it will start tomorrow with many errands to run... one by one, surely, they will be tackled and accomplished... Dentist-blue tomorrow morning.. hehehe.. a new phrase I have created.. hehehe.. oh yes, need to get a book for a friend too.. and possibly go to Inland Revenue, if time permits..

This Song... "My Prayers"..

Somehow, I felt that this is Jesus' prayer for me... I got this lyric from this CD titled "Amazing Freedom" given by a few of my fellow ushers girls.. I particularly drawn to this song.. I have been searching to see if I could link the actual song but still not successful at this moment of time though.. Anyway, the following is the lyrics...

***

My Prayers

May the sun wake you every day

With sounds of life and words of thanks

That love is here to stay

Enjoy each moment as it comes

Always remember where you come from

And never be ashamed

And may you learn to just let go

When it's out of your hands

And find peace down every road

Chorus:

I know, I know, I know

That you wonder what your tomorrows hold

I know, I know, I know

Down whatever road you may go

My love is there

These are My Prayers

That you'd find friends who you can trust

And don't be afraid to fall in love

Cause love is the one thing

That's sure as the stars are gonna shine

Don't ever leave your dreams behind

Stand up for what you believe

And take the time to see the good

It's everywhere

And find your passion, live your truth

Every night I pray

Every step you take

Brings you closer to

All I've hoped and all I've prayed for you

(written by Cindy Morgan, Jeremy Bose and Joe Beck)
***

God has spoken through this song.. to my spirit.. deep to my spirit.. and there is that leap from within again!.. Lovely... most definitely.. *grinning*...

New Aspiration to Scribble...

Don't know why but somehow there is this new aspiration to scribble more today.. It is like the "touch" is there.. the flow is there.. Mmm.. and the excitement is there too.. Wonderful, eh? I would think so..

By the way, I met an interesting gal during the recent wedding I attended on 08.08.08... Lovely character she has. *smile*.. Hope we will be in touch in the days to come.. Just love to meet new friends and it is exciting that God always bring friends that somehow you know could click.. where we could just chat along.. I love it!

Oh yes.. tomorrow would be my last day at work.. The time has come for me to say "goodbye" to colleagues of 3 years.. Mm.. what would I say, I wonder.. I know I will be missing them.. the culture of the office too.. But, I have learnt some important lessons in this company.. Real valuable lessons about work and marketplace.. And, there is that shift in my thoughts too.. God has given me a new hope from my experience in this company.. *smile*.. This thought came just recently and it just dawned on me for many days now.. And, I somehow know deep down that this is the direction where I would be heading.. And God has given me some gold nuggets or even more to bring to the next level.. He has been showing.. but I am slowly beginning to see and understand a little.. Pieces of the puzzle are put together and becomes a bigger piece.. waiting to be put together with another piece..

Well.. here is my aspiration.. blooming away.. from a bud to full blown in the days to come...

(Scribbler is dreaming away as she scribbles away... amazed by the very thing she scribbles...)

Sheep Postcard-like....

I think this is the postcard-like that I meant to put on many months back.. Finally, I am able to do it.. hehehe.. Anyway, the past scribbling is this... Click on this link... hehehe..

With God All Things Are Possible...

How very true.. all things are possible with God the Almighty.. Anything can be possible with Him because He knows exactly what is going on and what will take place.. He is the Creator.. He is the Source of everything..

Having scribble about that.. Think this has been spoken about lots and written about lots too.. and yet, how many of us actually truly believe it is true? is it 100% truth in our hearts? mm.. Do we ever doubt? I know I had and will continue to especially in certain areas of my life.. and yet the amazing thing is the breakthrough I am having just by acknowledging that I doubt.. and to show that I am just as human as I can be.. and only He knows the deepest belief of our hearts, souls.. and He will correct me.. correct us..

I only have this to say that is, may God have mercy upon me, and His Grace is sufficient for me and teach me to grow deeper and deeper in Him.. Only He knows what is best for me, for you and for everyone.. I very much realise that there are many times, we don't even know what is best for ourselves.. We thought we knew and then? well, we didn't... Over and over again, the message is this.. "He is our Source... Lets go to Him for everything.." I don't know about other people but for me, this is where I hope to be heading.. This would be what I would want to be holding on to.. and continue to trust that God will carry me through all.. When I am tired and clueless, the best person is still Him.. He gives me Peace.. He gives me Joy... He gives me Love... He gives me assurance.. He gives me answers..

Mm.. wonder why I scribble about this today? Mm.. not sure but somehow, just felt right to do so.. I hope and pray that every one who reads this would be touched in their spirit.. whether knowingly or unknowingly, it doesn't matter anymore.. what matter most is that there is the stirring of the heart and spirit towards Our Lord Jesus... Even as I scribble on, I could feel the stirring of my heart and spirit within.. there is this sense of move.. this sense of "leap".. this sense of anticipation.... mm.. what is it? mm.. May the Lord speaks specifically to each of us as we seek His Face.. because...

"With God All things Are Possible!"

Memorable time of fellowship....

Yup.. Just wanna scribble about the wonderful time I had with this group of friends last night that the good Lord has blessed me with... We went through much together, whether knowingly or unknowingly... and I felt so loved all over last night, to be in their midst.. Will definitely miss them!

I always forget this part.. i.e. to take photos of the food on the table... oh well...... Let me describe them then... the main highlight for me, that is!.. hehe.. We had so much food... and in the midst of them all is "Durians"... hehehe.. Thanks to all the contributors of food.. especially aunty Moi Ngok who cooked for all of us...

Hey guys.. actually last night, you hit a "bull-eye" in the midst of our conversations... in terms of a dream that I have all this while.. Mm.. maybe it is time to see it to fruition... Mm... I know, it would be in the Lord's Timing and Plans... *grinning*... anyway, will share about this one day when the right time is here... now, it is just a glimpse.. (a-ha.. me and my mystery again.. hehehe... )

Oh yes.. before I forget, the remaining photos are in my Facebook... click on this link then.. hehehehe...

That's me with Joshua...

Little Joshua was trying to do something... I don't know what though... *smile*...

Isn't she adorable??

awwwww.... this is my little niece, Tiffany...

"Potato in the mouth"...

What is that, you may ask? mmm.. It is something I think I'd remember for life!.. I laughed and laughed when i first heard it.. but I can't spill the beans here of what it is... hehehehe.. want to know? Ask me personally then... hehehehe..

Anyway, I will be eating potatoes soon.. lots of them in the days to come.. and of course, need to be careful to keep the figure in place.. else, would be coming back as potato.. and that simply wouldn't do.. most definitely not. *smile*..

Kay then.. i need to get ready for this evening.. Meeting up some friends over dinner.. but before that, I just wanna get some nice cheerful flowers for all the ladies... All ladies love flowers.. and I think this would be a nice little surprise.. a gesture from my heart. *wink*... Off I go then.. I need to run along... tudeeda... (whatever that means....) means.. cherios in the language of??... dreamland.. I am making this up!.. couldn't you see?

(scribbler is in the mood of cheekiness at this very moment... )

Popping of Flowers...

The above phrase stuck in my head eversince I heard it.. and the picture was vividly visible in my little mind.. so, I search for a picture as above for further illustration. hehehe..

Today, at Elijah House.. during one of the video teachings, there was this snippet about asking the Lord to give "popping of flowers" in the midst of bringing sinful habit structures to death on the cross. Popping of flowers symbolizes the resurrection side of healing.. calling forth life.. How we all need this, whether we realise it or not is another issue all together.. And you know what? I have this sweet sense of peace even as I scribble tonight.. Though I am tired but yet I am energized in His strength.. One "Pop of flower" happened this very night.. hehehe..

"Thank You O Lord... Your Grace is truly sufficient for me..."

So moving and touching... *sob*.. *sob*...

ya.. had a moment of emotions tonight but the tears only arrived while I was driving back home from the farewell dinner given by fellow usher team members tonight.. hehehe.. perhaps, earlier on, abit shy shy lar, to cry.. They are so sweet and I was tremendously encouraged and blessed by their gestures and words, especially words and affirmations.. It is definitely a moment to remember for life.. *wink*..

The good Lord has been really good to us all.. to knit our hearts together as a team.. Well, ushers, if you are reading this, continue to press on for our dear Lord in service unto Him.. I know that He is smiling over us from Heavens above..

And you know what, I got an interesting surprise.. remember my scribbling before this?? the picture? hehehe.. my latest craving?? heheheh.... I got part of my craving fulfilled tonight... I have a box of them which I will indulge myself into tomorrow or Monday.. Well, tomorrow will be a long day for me, with church as well as another dinner tomorrow night. Thanks Emily & Chow for fulfilling part of my craving.. *hugs*...

And Bridget, Maggie, Doris, Florence, the girls.. thanks for the CD, card & heart candle.. I love it!.. Am listening to it now even as I am scribbling away.. Particularly love this one song entitled "My Prayers"... and oh ya, I could have licked the heart candle if I didn't know it is a candle.. so sweet...

Thomas, Sonny & Elaine, Nicholas, Fiona, Emily & Chow, Kelly, Kimmy and many others (??).. thanks for the pen and the leather card holder... telling me to be a good accountant?? with the right pen to sign eh? and putting many name cards into the namecard holder in UK?? hehehehe.... Oh yes... Just absolutely love the card, the wordings just melt my heart to the core.. and "YES! It has been a wonderful season when our paths crossed..." And the picture of the "path".. that is really my kind of visual... hehehe.. really! thank you..

Life is really made of many seasons... and you guys (ushers!.. of the present as well of the past.. you know who you are lar) have blessed me so much that so enrich my life in ways that words could not express. And, more to come, I believe... God will also bring our paths together yet for another season of life in the days to come.. for some of us, if not all... That is the beauty of being in this big family of God!.. We are all connected!

Hehehe.. looks like this scribbling is definitely dedicated to ushers of Team Three.. Yup.. *wink*

My Current Craving!!!!

Yes!... need to have more before I fly... *grinning*...

1st Post of the month..

You know.. leaving the country actually is not an easy task.. there are so much to do.. mm.. I am experiencing it now as I am making the necessary arrangements.. So busy, eh.. and soon, will be meeting up with friends, saying goodbyes.. writing my final notes of goodbyes.. hehehe.. I haven't even started.. Think I should start now..

Well, my last day at work is now officially on 12th August 2008.. and thereafter, I have to see the dentist.. cancel credit cards that I don't intend to keep... close bank accounts that I don't intend to maintain.. redeem stuff from my credit card points... renew my driving license.. getting international driving license (just in case)... meeting friends.... meeting insurance agent... going to income tax department... getting a new hairdo... the list goes on and on.. endless.. (I am exaggerating here lar.. it is not endless...) *wink*..

Wow... I say "wow" to myself... one step at a time.. and one task at a time then... hehehe.. and I just remembered, I still haven't scribbled about my Singapore trip.. it is such a long overdued scribbling.. apologies.. oops..

Mmm.. as I reflect, I realised that when i get busy, I find myself "busy".. mm.. so, need to intentionally pause and take stock of what I have done and what I need to do.. mmm... *phew*... here I go again...... catch you later...

Seven months passed by in a wheeezz...

Yup.. Year 2008, it is more than half a year done.. or over.. What is my feeling of it? Mm.. kinda mix feelings, I suppose.. *smile sweetly*

Anyway, just wanna scribble a sentence or two to mark the end of July 2008.. Today is the last day.. and in a few hours time, it would be August 2008.. and soon, I would be released from my work responsibilities as well.. and going into the mode of preparing myself for my new adventure.. also, bidding my goodbyes to friends and loved ones.. Hehe.. it is like I am going away for a long long time.. well, it is 10 months being away and I guess, many things could take place in 10 months time.. Make the best out of the time I have now with the friends and loved ones... That is my hope and prayer.. That is what I aim to do at this hour.. well, changes will come, most definitely..

Hehe.. i scribbled more than just a sentence or two... signing off now... till I scribble again.. well, it would be in August 2008 then.... *smile*

A tiny sense of loss and yet much release...

Well, that was what I felt during CG last night.. when CG members surrounded me in prayers.. their prayers, in their each unique ways have released me from cell leadership as last night marked the last meeting of me being a CGL... Interestingly, I do feel the sense of loss... what they called in cantonese.. "hm-sei-tak".. and yet looking forward for what is ahead of me.. new adventure and new season of life.. another chapter to be written..

I wonder what Jesus would say to me with regards to this length of time being a CGL.. have I done well? Mmm.. I recognise that there are many rooms for improvements... after all, that was the very first time being a cell leader.. it is like, I am a new rookie!.. hehehe.. My deepest desire has always been that, at least one life has been touched, stirred.. moved towards the heart of God and will continue this such exciting journey in God.. of course, more is better.. but at least one.. and I know God has so graciously allowed me to see more than one even at this hour.. and I believe there are more to come.. Just like trees, it takes time to see the fruits.. *smiling in anticipation*... the joy of sowing!.. hmm.. maybe I should pick up the art of gardening!.. hahahaha.. mmm.....

Mm.. looking forward now to Li Ping & Chun Yew's wedding this coming 08-08-08... It would be a fun time, I believe.. with all the cell members.. Lets see what we are going to do...

Approval....???

Is approval that important? Mm.. I have this question that was thrown back to me as I was just doing work and also receiving emails yesterday.. What is "approval"? Let me check online dictionary for its definition.. Hehe.. there I go again with my "analytical" sense.. and then I shall scribble on about this "word"... Kinda fun, ya.. to scribble about a word.. and to see where I am going to end at the end of a scribbling-post.. That is what they call, creativity.. hehehe.. *ahem*...

One of the definitions of "approval"... according to Free Online Dictionary is "acceptance as satisfactory".. Mmm.. basically, it is acceptance.. and we are all made to want to be accepted.. Mm.. is that true? or is it just me thinking that it is true? Mm.. Did bible talk about this? or.. the other word to put it, is "in favor"... I remember something now.. about, eh.. er.. yes.. Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men. (Luke 2:52) .. How did that took place? What are the processes behind? coz I am thinking, you can't just be in favor with God and men just like that.. right? Lets ponder further.. Mmm.. questions, questions...

How to be like Jesus? How do we grow in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men? Mm.. the one phrase that I have is to walk in obedience to the Lord God Almighty.. To break that down into little parts of understanding.. what are the very first things that we could do in walking in obedience to Him..? hehe.. the very one thing that I could think of is to spend time with Him, to read His Word, to pray.. ya.. the very normal stuff of christian living.. and yet, alot of times, I took it for granted.. Today is a good reminder to me, to go back to the basic again and again.. How we all need this!

Yup.. lets all go back to the basic!... and be faithful in them... and then, the approval will come.. favor will come... the law of sowing and reaping.. *grinning*..

Pocket time...

Just somehow felt led to scribble about this phrase "Pocket-Time".. What is this pocket-time? hehe.. this is my version of explaining what this pocket-time means to me as I think further and deeper.. This phrase is related to "Spending Time". After so many years, it just dawned unto me the importance of spending time, especially with loved ones, close ones.. and even strangers that God divinely brings cross my path... And I also realise that it doesn't necessary mean spending long hours but just those important "pocket" of time and opportunity... So, in that sense, it is really not about the quantity but the effort and the condition of heart, my response.. the initiation of heart.. Mmm.. how true that is.. Indeed! Coz people could pick it up quite instantly..

Truly thankful to God for opening my eyes to see this golden truth of life.. out the many more to come.. He has so much installed for us to learn.. and that is why people say, it is a lifelong learning and learning... We never stop learning..

Well, am looking forward to yet another pocket-time with my dad in August.. when he comes back for a few days.. I pray and hope that the best would be made out of the time that we are going to have. Even true with mom.. yup.. this coming Saturday would be an interesting one, I believe and pray and hope.. *closing eyes....* *wink*...

In fact, now.. looking forward to be home to spend some great pocket-time with my little nephew and niece... (Scribbler scribbles her last line for the day as she shuts her pc.. )

"Studies" Adventure...

hehehe.. this thought came to me when I was busy sending out smses to friends about the change of my handphone number.. I like the topic above... for it is truly going to be an adventure to go to a new place and do a new thing!.. Yes, an adventure indeed!... aha.. this will stick with me for a while.. *grinning*

Wonder how things would really be like in the United Kingdom? How would it be like to be a university student? Mm.. Is it the same as college student? Mmm.. what would I be doing? Where would I be going? Who would I be meeting? My my.. so many things that I am wondering... well, that is why it is called "adventure"... with challenges ahead.. Mmm.. with the Lord's guidance, I know I am in good hands.. *smiling*

Obedience.. walking in obedience to the Lord's ways and that is what I desire to do and pray to do.. It won't be easy and yet I know deep down Heavenly Father is watching out for me... as I take on this new adventure.. probably be knocking myself with some bruises.. but they are fun bruises of trying new things.. hehehehe... I suddenly feel the liberty.. well.. it is like, the world is before me.. and I could do many things, try out things that I have never dared to try before.. the Lord's ways is my limit.. and as I choose to walk in His ways, I know I would hear His voice just like the sheep hears the shepherd's voice..

Blossoming.. Blooming... mmmm..... how interesting.... *grinning*...

(Scribbler just loves to scribble away her thoughts and aspirations....)

Does it matter anymore?

Mm.. strange enough.. this phrase stood out among the many thoughts that I have.. What is the "it"? *chuckle*.. I am clueless.. and yet, there is the sense of knowing.. mm.. you know, there are just those times where you would rather not know the details.. I am kinda like that, I guess, at times..

Well, if it doesn't matter anymore, I'd rather not know then.. Not to say that I choose to live in denial.. but if the knowledge of knowing something do not really benefit anyone, why talk about it then? so, does it matter? Mm..

(Scribbler suddenly lost the feel of what to scribble on.. hehe.. maybe it is time for her to end this scribbling as it is then.....)

Turning Moments...

Somehow, today, felt led to scribble about turning moments.. what are turning moments? It could be from a very small turn to huge turn in life.. what are small turns? and what are huge turns? Actually, this rather subjective to define.. so, I would say that it is subject to individual..

For me, small turns are decisions that I have to decide daily.. example, which road to take to go home, what time to leave home, who I am to meet, etc etc... Huge turns would be for example, where I am going to work, who I am going for courtship with, which state/country I will be in for season of time, etc etc... Actually, ha.. as I scribble, I wonder am I scribbling in line with the topic? hehehe.. Guess, so as long it makes sense to me, the scribbler, it should be fine... but hopefully, it does bring some light to scribbler's readers..

Well.. I am feeling that I am at this juncture of my life where a huge turn has begun and is taking place the very minute I am scribbling. Somehow, the feeling that I have is that it makes me feel kinda twiggy.. and kinda ecstatic.. and deeply down my soul, I know there is no turning back.. mmm.... *grinning*.. that's me, just love to be mysterious about it.. giving it this touch of thrill. Why so? Mm.. Perhaps that is how I am wired by God from the beginning.. I am just touching base with the gifts that God has given me..

I can even visualise it as I scribble on.. visualise myself turning literally so to speak (whether it is my heart or soul, I have no idea... maybe both?) and know what? I really pray and hope that this turning is in line with God's given direction and enables me to excel in His ways and purpose for this one life He has given me.. I guess, I would only know after I journey for a while and pondering a little.. Whatever it may be.. God is Almighty and He knows the very heart of ours.. of mine.. coz He created us.. He created me just as who I am.. *aweeeed*...

Much to do.. and yet...

Now with my travel documents secured and in hand, it just dawned to me that there are much to do.. things to settle.. Mm.. honestly, it can be kinda overwhelming but the good Lord reminded me to take one step at a time.. to attempt each task as it comes about.. Good way of releasing the overwhelming feeling.. "Thank You Lord for Your timely reminder. I needed that."

New move in life always coupled with uncertainties ahead.. and uncertainties are just the thing that well, uncertain... and I guess it is how I choose to see it.. whether as something to be excited about or something to fear.. The feelings are real and the choice to decide which is it is also in my hands as I want to be obedient to the Lord. The tendancy to sway to the not so good is there and yet there is hope! Jesus is my hope!.. And I can take risks in life because I have Jesus in my life.. as I choose to obey His prompting and guiding.. Do I really know? Know what? Know which risks to take? mmm... The Lord's timing of revelation is in His hands and not in mine.. So, why do I need to bother with things that are not mine to take care of? that would be overloading myself.. God has given me sufficient things to take care of in life and I shall just faithfully do those He has entrusted me and trust that He would handle the bigger stuff for me..

Even as I scribble on about this, I could feel the invisible n yet heavy burden released from my shoulders.. how ignorant we can all be, thinking that we are to carry so many things where in fact, we are only to carry this tiny little bundle.. and the rest has been taken care of by Our Lord Jesus Christ.. Like one of my friends say, "doink!"... hehehe..

All of us need reminders about truths in life.. because we tend to forget them too quickly at times or at most times.. Isn't that strange? but yet it is very true.. well, at least I find it true for myself..

"O Lord, have mercy upon me for being so ignorant.... Please forgive me for my distrust and unbelief and help me with them... I acknowledge that they are so real and only You can help me to get rid of them. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen"

(scribbler got to end scribblings to get ready for the day of work ahead of her....)

This is my near future destination....

by the Grace of God....

Take a guess of which country this is........ hehehehe........ Today, I just got my awaited visa to spend some good months in this new destination.. new place with new experiences... What is installed for me in the days to come? mm.. well.. only the Lord knows and for Him to reveal to me in His time.... I am taking baby steps.. as I trod in this exciting journey of life..

That is why-lar.. Scribbler hasn't been scribbling for the past days.. was in the waiting mode.. waiting in anticipation and the day has arrived for me to start scribbling once again.... *grinning*

Serenity Prayer...

I found this on YouTube... and it truly ministered to me as I read and listen to the music... So, just wanna share this with everyone... :D

The Serenity Prayer - Enya (May it Be)

Haven't had the time to scribble more the past few days..... Got some urgent stuff need to tackle.. Hope to scribble more about my recent trip soon.. with photos and all.. Perhaps this weekend, I will do it as I rest in God's presence.. Hehe.. looking forward to quiet moments with Sweet Jesus every moment I can.. How precious these moments are...

Enjoy the video as I have enjoyed it so much personally.....

(Scribbler just love to share things that touched her heart....)

A broken spirit......

*****
A broken spirit

And a contrite heart

You will not despise
You will not despise
You desire truth
In the inward parts
A broken spirit
And a contrite heart.

Lord, my heart
is prone to wander
Prone to leave
the God I love
Here's my heart
Lord, take and
seal it
Seal it for
Your courts above.

*****

Somehow, this morning as I was reflecting while reading the daily devotion.. the phrase broken spirit, contrite heart just lingered in my little mind.. and the above song just came so naturally to my lips.. Truly true.. the title of the devotion was "broken to be mended".. and it talks about humility to the core of it all...... mmm..... lets ponder as we listen to the song....

Blessed n Touched...

The title described my feelings of my stay in Singapore.. God showed me overflowing love, kindness, joy, peace and so much more during my stay in Singapore through friends that He has blessed me with.. *Scribbler grinning from left to right..*

It has been a trip that is out of this world.. and because of that, I knew deep down that the Lord is with me, encouraging me.. loving me, blessing me.. Not that I needed these to tell me of God's Love for me.. I know of His Love for me.. but this trip further re-affirms His Love for me.. Just amazingly true and awesome..

Well... more to come as I scribble on.. and photos to come as I do the adding of pictures.. in my next scribbling... hehehe.... Now, it is back to work, with a sense of satisfaction and gladness after a wonderful and awesome time of four days... "God is definitely Good! and He loves me!"

"Oh yes!"....

Apples and Wine....

What is this apples and wine?? hehehe.. received an email from Lina today and I really like the way how it was worded.. so decided to just have a post about it.. with pictures and a little scribbling on my end.. *smile*

Apples on trees as well as on the ground.....

Lovely apple.... :D

Grapes that turns to wine..... what is this?? read on...

I really like this write-up.. We, women are like apples on trees.. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree...

And Men... Men are like fine wine.. They begin as grapes, and...... how does grapes turn to wine?? hehehehe..... take a wild guess... *grinning*...

A Twist of the matter.. good twist.. *wink*

Mm.. I am actually reflecting as I scribble the above title.. Many things have taken place the past week, especially with the Nights of Fire in church... I was tremendously blessed and lifted up the past three days.. In many ways, God answered my prayers which I cried out to Him during the lowest tide of my life..

Even as I was preparing to go to Singapore, I thank God for the three wonderful nights.. Though I would miss the remaining nights, I know those first three nights were really special especially the third night.... With little sleep and yet I feel refreshed and lifted.. The feeling of encountering God is just something which words could not expressed.. Just have to experience it yourself.. The touch and the embrace of His..

God has deposited so much more and confirmed something real deep in my heart.. and I know I can step out in faith to take the next step.. I pray that I would not run ahead of Him but to run with Jesus and with Jesus being my yoke mate.. He is taking the lead... O.. How awesome this truth is.. and yet, how easily we could forget it.. God is reminding me again about this!.. Holy Spirit is my organiser and reminders.. *grinning*.. Isn't it nice to have a personal organiser and reminder...? I love it!

Mm.. for the coming few days, I know I am going to enjoy myself, spending time with friends as well as having some solitude time on my own.. This would be a trip to be remembered.. hehe.. with my camera ready.. with my eagerness as well as excitement to see things from a different perspective..

So, what is the twist? hehe... that is for me to know and for you to ponder about..... *wink*

My Countdown...

Days... yippee....

Mm.. haven't been scribbling lots the past few days.. well, in a limbo state with mix emotions, both excitement as well as concerns... Also, been feeling very sleepy every night when I came home from work.. why such exhaustion? I also wondering to myself and yet & still, life moves on, regardless.. "time waits for no one"... as the saying goes.. Am I truly making life count? Doing the littliest I could possible do.. Is that what I am to do? Mm.. *scribbler scratching her head as her little mind starts to roll and roll..*

Just recently watched Kungfu Panda with mom with the tickets blessed by one of my CG members.. so sweet of her. Enjoyed the movie lots as it was pretty entertaining and also believed that God has timely used the movie to speak about yesterday, tomorrow and today.......

“Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.”

Somehow, this stayed and lingered in my mind for two days now.. mm.... Guess this is how God sometimes speaks to me.. guiding me to reflect further and to discover the deeper truth He desires me to grasp and apply in life..

Why scribble about these things when my header is titled "Countdown"...? I am clueless and yet, I am definitely doing the countdown..

With this, I bid all good night as I definitely need to have my beauty sleep.. *wink*

Fruitful Sunday with stacking of boxes...

hehe... and it felt good to clean up and to organise stuff to order.. And I just thought it would be excellently cool if I could search for some nice stack up-ed boxes images from the net to enhance imagination.. Thanks to the people who allow me to use their images... :D

This ones are the colorful ones.. making life very interesting too..

These are the normal type of boxes.... and my goodness, just imagine room filled with boxes, ready to be filled.. Lets go abit further, imagining boxes that are alive.. and being so excited to be filled with stuff, good stuff... like books, christian materials, toys, bags, etc.. etc... I think if I am a box, I would be happy especially being used for a greater use..

Mm.. Even as I scribble on, an idea is cooking.. and isn't it interesting to know that our life is such too.. that we are like boxes and God is filling us in with stuff.. good stuff... Mm.. I like that! and I wonder what is God putting into me next.. It is exciting to know that He has a greater plan for me and for you too.. *wink*

Well... that was my last Sunday spent... truly a fruitful and satisfying time, being home and organizing stuff in the room.. I have a little more to go and I am done.. So proud of myself... hehehe..... and on top of that, able to bless Jumbo Station with stuff that I no longer need... So cool...... *scribbler imagining that she is skipping round the room..*

My next destination.... Yippee...

Hehe.. yup.. here I come.. countdown.. 10 days....... Night safari, here I come.. *grinning*

Excellent Food.....

Last night, had an excellent food time with Lina.. at Euro Deli in Damansara Kim.. hehehe.. for the fact that she was there so much earlier than me showed that she is really excited about eating there *wink*.. hehe.. but, honestly, the food is really great! Too bad we didn't snap any pictures though.. No camera..

"Aiya, Lina, we should have, eh? the next round, we should do that, ya?.. before I leave......"

And, just too bad that Ms Ti and Mr Lee (some common friends of ours) weren't able to join us.. but we really so called "dig in".. and personally, I was feeling real satisfied with the food.. maybe more of the Potato Roesti (half plate not enough for me) and that would have been perfect!

"Lina, the next round, I want whole plate of Potato Roesti to myself... hahahaha.. and we share the soup, main dish, and dessert...." *gluttony look*

And I just found out seconds ago that they have a website.. here you are.. http://www.eurodeli.com.my/home.html Check it out.... most definitely must try kind!.. maybe I am biased coz I just love this sort of food..... hehehe....

So contented that when I reached home, I took a nap.. a long one before the actual sleeping.. this is called crazyness but kinda cool thing to do once in a while, I guess... *cheeky wink*

Excitement Looming all over... *beaming*

Why? O why? Well, looking forward with anticipation of my up and coming overseas trip.. yup, over the sea.. guess where I am going.. I am sure it could be easily guessed.. Singapore!

Why Singapore? especially now with the high exchange rate, it is just plain expensive to go there and yet I am going and coming. Simple reason, got friends there and would want to spend some valuable time with them. And, also with the hope of doing some worthwhile shopping there since it is mega sale time. I just can't wait to go and snap many photos of many things.. and see many other stuff.. Can't wait for this new experience in Singapore with different set of friends.

I always kinda like Singapore for its proper structure and efficient way of doing things.. They say working there is kinda madness due to the "kiasu-ness" spirit.. mm.. but then again, the more important element is where God wants me and you to be... if that is where He wants me and you to be, environment that may seem and appear to be difficult would be made smooth and there will be favor.. I really do believe that as I see it happened in my own life too.. Doing the Father's Will in my life.. and last night, in CG, we spoke about "serious obedience".. tough thing to do and yet it is for our own good. I love how Pr Mike put it, "if have intimate relationship with Jesus, then, we would want to imitate Him and do the Father's Will.... and obedience would come naturally as well.."

Now, how come I ended up scribbling about this.. hehe.. suppose to be scribbling of my excitement.. well, I think I tend to like to sidetrack a little to scribble a little of truth of life.. and that itself brings excitement too..

Glimpses from afar of the near future..

The title suits my current feelings and yet it doesn't explain everything.. that is a mystery touch of it, I guess. Why mystery? Mm.. it gives me some excitement to be able to scribble in this way.. hehehe.. so, please entertainment me just this time..

The past few days were just amazing, so amazing and so "crazy" that I didn't blog.. too many things to handle and to juggle with, I guess. But it was a rather interesting process that I am going through and a rather intriguing discovery that I observe and think about.

Wow.. today, I am full of mystery.. hehehe... well, soon, it will be revealed but not yet.. In the meantime, well, I am in the midst of pondering upon another moment.. to add to my "moments" collection.. Life is full of moments after moments.. all sorts of moments.. and that makes life interesting and fun.. Oh yes!..