How?..

This thought came to me this morning.. as I reflect about stuff, the usual thing that I would be doing.. How what? well.. how to share with others about the many truths of life that God has revealed to me? How to share them effectively? In what measures am I to share that others would comprehend them? Conclusion is that I am an instrument that God uses.. I speak.. and God will speak to their hearts.. God would do the touching bit. I just be where He wants me to be and speak the very things that I am to share and speak.. whether it could be understood, with all the limitations and weaknesses I have, God will take care of that. It is not for me to worry or be concerned of. God is more interested about these truths being received in the lives of many than me because He loves them lots!.. So, it is really not about "how".. God will take care of the "how".. It is really about "am I willing to be used?"... "am I heeding God's guidance?"

Hmm... this really makes sense.. and I am glad that I have scribbled that today, at this hour..

And you know what, there are many stuff that I want to share and share.. but whether they are to be said or not, I have to consult God.. He would guide my steps.. He would guide my words.. God knows the right timing to share about these things.. So, what am I to do with them at the time being? I thought of just one thing and that is to continue to pray.. to keep these things in my heart and to pray, to intercede.. This comes to the heart of humility, to wait upon God for the timing and the people to share.. I feel it is the test of humility at the core of it.. coz, when I think I know certain things, I have to share it so that others would know how much I know.. what is the intention at the back of it? It is something which is subtle and yet, if not careful, pride would come.. humility would be thrown out of the window..

A constant check of the heart is very important.. that is my view of it...... coz we never know where it has gone to.. Do not be puffed up with knowledge.. think that was said in the bible somewhere... hmm.... Ya, think that is the message today... *wink*.....

It just dawned...

Hmm.. wonder this is a good thing or not.. After going for dinner last night with a group of new people, not sure why but somehow it just dawned to me that "oh gosh.. I am surrounded by real young people, age wise"... What a time to be feeling this? So strange feeling I suddenly felt at the spur moment. It was like.. "hmm.. am I in the right time zone...?"; "Am I in twilight?".. I also realised that these days, people at the age of 22 are already doing masters degree.. gosh.. why the rush? or is it part of the culture these days? Hmm..

Looks like the thinking cap is on as I think about these stuff.. fascinating stuff and it just amazes me to observe these.. Hmm.. I wonder what is the stir of the heart? What is God saying here as I think about these thoughts? What is He telling me? What am I to response?

Being profoundly young in the heart is a wonderful thing indeed.. All things happen in the Lord's timing.. It is exciting to see how God turns things around.. How things are being viewed from outside.. I also feel that my life is being turned upside down.. I am like, living life in the opposite direction... Never thought of it that way but know what? think that is the right phrase to call it....

Living a full life...... Am I living that at this current moment? What is a full life? I have been asking the question and I have sort of concluded that, life means people.. people's lives.. Whose lives am I touching, blessing and encouraging? what is full? Not empty.. means actively filling up.. What about career? what about future prospects? What about successes in the eyes of the world? God says to seek first His Kingdom & His righteousness and these things will be added to you....... (Mt 6:33)..

Know what? trusting the Lord is the best thing that ever happens in my life.. Not only trusting God as a head knowledge but to be able to trust Him in my heart, the deepest sense of my heart.. I am not there yet but the journey has begun or at least I am more and more aware of it.. I don't think I would ever comprehend the full measure of it. It is a life long journey as He teaches me, guides me; lovingly and patiently.. That is the awesomeness of our God Almighty.. I have many more years ahead..... O Lord, use me.. use all of me, whatever that is there, for the extension of Your Kingdom.. that others may see You.. that others may see Your Glory..

yes.. think this scribbling has its purpose.. May it encourages and blesses anyone who read it...... I like fairy tales and I am a dreamer who dreams on.... *wink*

Jesus, All For Jesus...

Sang this song in church yesterday and I thought.. I just want to bless everyone with it.. as we take time to reflect.. are our lives lived out all for Jesus? Something to think about.. :D Lyrics as follows as we meditate on the words..

Jesus, all for Jesus

All I am and have

And ever hope to be

Jesus, all for Jesus

All I am and have

And ever hope to be

All of my

Ambitions, hopes, and plans

I surrender these

Into your hands

All of my

Ambitions, hopes, and plans

I surrender these

Into your hands

For it's only in

Your will that I am free

For it's only in

Your will that I am free

Written by:
Jennifer Atkinson & Robin Mark

© 1991 Word's Spirit of Praise Music

BLeSsEd CHinEse NEw YeAr EvERyOne...

Just wanna take this time to pray for everyone to be showered with many blessings from our Awesome King!!!...... CNY in UK is definitely different from back home... I celebrated and continue to celebrate it with different groups of Chinese friends here but it is just not the same.. Different experience....... Nevertheless, there is one thing remains the same. God's faithfulness! I am thankful to God for loved ones and friends....... *wink* *plenty of hugs*

Celebrations during cell life.......

Experiencing many wonderful experiences of cell life in UK...... recently, celebrated birthday for one of the leaders in the cell I am regularly attending.... Great fun and laughter!.. and great bonding... wonderfully encouraged and blessed! with lots of hugs and fun!.... the list goes on never-endingly... hehe.....

here are some photos I have uploaded to facebook....... three albums altogether... click on each of them.. :D

• One of SEEDs CL's Bday Pt 1 - 24.01.09
• One of SEEDs CL's Bday Pt 2 - 24.01.09
• One of SEEDs CL's Bday Pt 3 - 24.01.09

"Help Me to Stand"...

Think this is a lovely "poem" from a book that I am currently reading.. "God on Mute" by Pete Greig. I just want to share this with everyone.. It is a prayer unto the Lord. :)

***

Lord,

help me to stand today.

Temptations and trials abound.

When life hurts,

I get confused, dishonest, suspicious and critical.

I put on the belt of truth.

When life hurts,

my relationships suffer - especially my relationship with You.

I put on the breastplate of righteousness.

When life hurts,

I either get really lazy or I make myself really busy.

I put on the shoes of the gospel.

When life hurts,

I let down my guard and leave myself exposed.

I take up the shield of faith.

When life hurts,

my thinking gets negative and I question everything.

I put on the helmet of salvation.

When life hurts,

I'm a coward.

I take hold of the sword of the Word.

Lord, it doesn't feel very "finished" down here.

I don't feel very "finished".

See me kneeling.

Help me stand.

***

Hmm.. isn't that beautiful? Isn't that the state of us sometimes? I identified with it.. Hmm..... that is why I just love reading.. Books are truly precious and gift from God.. to be able to tap into wisdom of men that God has given and imparted into their lives.. Well, that is one of my dreams... *wink*..

Oooh.. Ice cream shot..

I just couldn't resist putting this here.. my favorite yummy food.. :D and it was specially made by a friend.. She is really good at this... I never had such a tall tall ice cream.. tee-hee-hee.. lovely!.. This is just one of the moments of joy for me as I enjoy slurpping ice cream.. Simple thing and yet it just brings much joy to my heart! Kinda easy to please? haha.. wrong..

Anyway, had a wonderful time on Saturday... visited a baby who is less than a month old.. such a dear.. then, followed by afternoon tea and dinner..... and ended with karaoke.. what a full day I had.. It was fun and fun.. eventhough, personally, I was feeling a little tired.. And I bunked in one of the girl's place.. They are such sweeties.. truly they are..... made me laugh so much!..

Of course, not forgetting.. here are the links to the remaining of photos that I have taken and uploaded to my facebook.. hehehe... Enjoy!...

• Baby Joshua Ting.. 17.01.09
• Farewell for Bok.. 17.01.09

*wink* *wink*

5:19am

What in the world is scribbler doin at this early hour of the day? tee-hee-hee.. she has too much sleep and she is wide awake now!.. *muach*.. and also, she needs to start her day early with lots of tasks to do.. hope she would accomplish them by the end of the day.. task oriented person she is.. *laughing at one corner*

Think she has gone a little way off herself today.. could it be the wee early morning? could it be the water she drank? could it be the tinkling coldness she is feeling? It could be anything..... hehehe.. oops.. think this would be a "rubbish rumble" scribbling... just the scribbler yakking on and on.. about? stuff that are so random in her brain..

By the way, I just learn to use this word.. "Random".. hehehe.. apparently, people are using it rather alot here.. we would be chatting away.. and then.. "oooh.. you are so random!"... hehehehe....... different places, people use different expressions of words..... hmm.. cool, huh? I like!... Me like!.. now, I am classified as "random funny".. *LOL*

Well.. I better scribble off here else, more rumble tumble would flow.. and wonder when it would end...... maybe I would read a book or something...... oh no.. I am running out of books to read...... no fear, I am sure there is something I could read..... *wink*

Am I??

hmm.. what? hehe.. I am still searching.. and looking to Him for direction.. for guidance.. and I truly want to trust in all heart-sense that He has the best for me. A lot of times, I may say I trust.. but again, my actions may show otherwise. Isn't that typical of me or us? I am quite conscious of this.. even as I listen to others.. I wonder.. how much do people really mean what they say? Do they know what they are saying? Only God knows the answer.. He knows the condition of the heart.

And these days, I am conscious about these things.. and yet at the same time, looking to Christ for security, instead of men.. Walking close with Him is far more important than anything else. And at the same time, enjoy many moments that He has given me to enjoy in life as I journey this road of life with Jesus.

Looking at Jesus, trying to correct my behavior and attitudes to please Him.. and it can be difficult at times especially when I am so comfortable with them. oops.. Truly, it is by God's grace that I could break free from bad behavior and attitudes..

As I scribble today, there is some sense of.. hmm.. how to put these thoughts in words.. ? sense of amazement at what God is doing in life.. Not sure I am hearing correctly or not but just trying to wait in patience for the next move of God.. At the same time, I need to obey His words which I realise that I didn't today.. God, have mercy upon me and please forgive me for not being obedient in this very area. Thank You Lord for being God of second chance and always loving me, no matter what I have done or said..

Awww...... time for me to retire to bed... to continue dreaming and at the same time, being on alert of His coming.. of His revelations.. of His voice... Thank You Lord... *wink* to all readers.....

Lord, thank You that You...

• forgive all my sins
• heal all my diseases
• redeem my life from destruction
• crown me with loving, kindness and tender mercies
• satisfy my mouth with good things so that my youth is renewed like the eagle's
• execute righteousness and judgement for me against oppression. You set me free
• make known Your ways to me
• give me Your grace and mercy in times of need

Lord, please stir my faith in You.. Thank You, O Lord..

Just wanna share the above that I have written down from a devotion I have received recently.. which I find it to be such great reminder for me.. and now, hope it would be true for all my scribblings' readers too.. hehe.. being thankful to God for who He is to us.. being thankful to Him for every thing, be it small or big..

Connections.. Links..

I am amazed at how we are all connected.. linked.. either through people.. or company.. or country... or hometown.. or many other ways.. And thanks to facebook, I am finding more and more connections and links with people.. and lo and behold discover that this friend I know is a sister to someone I know.. and I never knew it.. wow.. amazing stuff, I would think..

Another huge connection would be the family of God.. Just loving that.. to know friends' friends.. and vice versa.. and everywhere I go, bound to meet of someone who know someone I know... The connections that God has brought together is how He desires us to love one another, to encourage one another in good timing of His.

God is the arranger of all this.. :D He is truly an Awesome God!.. *grin*..

Say "NO" to procrastination!

Yes.. that is my aim for this coming three months....... especially when coming to writing my dissertation....... God has mercy on me!.. coz I am procrastination prone.... oops.. so, this is my challenge!.. :D

Everyday must remind myself not to procrastinate and to press on writing!.. tee-hee-hee.. Pray for me ya....... as I take up this challenge!.. and do my best!.. Must break this bad habit that has been there for years... Not a good habit to have and yet it is there.. hmmm....... By the grace of God, it shall be broken, in the Name of Jesus. :)

Kay then....... attempting to finish off my coursework!.. yes....... *wink*...

Gloomy day.... but!... hehe..

the weather today in Birmingham is gloomy.. raining.. dark... lifeless... you name it, they have it!.. but guess what, it is not gloomy for me! tee-hee-hee... woke up so early this morning and managed to chat with couple of friends.. quite quite funny... and managed to tidy up my dissertation proposal and sent it to my supervisor before meeting him tomorrow afternoon..

Of course, there are few more tasks on hand to accomplish and complete.. can't wait to finish them and then I am off to do more stuff.. and I have my new friend to accompanying me all the way till March... Let me introduce you to "BETA"... My new friend!.. hope we are going to be best of friends at the end of March.. *wink* and who knows, maybe a lifelong friend... hahaha..... that would be interesting.....

Today, God has given me much energy.. and I realise that it is especially so when I am spending more time with Him, reading His Word.. just enjoying being in His presence.. So unfortunately that we sometimes or rather always tend to throw this out of the window when we are "busy".. quote and unquote... when will we ever learn? or rather.. when will I ever learn? hehe.. human tendency? hmm.. God has mercy on me!.. :)

ooh.. I have half more day to go......... I think I will tackle a graph first!.. hehehe........ lets hope creativity would rise up and something "smart" would be produced!.. *wink* ta........

LOL... funny..

Wonder anyone realised that I actually put up the same picture of myself twice in my scribblings.. hehehehe........ Ya.. must be rather blurr when I was being so excited about all the photos that I have taken.. :D

Well.......... funny things do happen.... and it is fun!.. *wink*......

And, also want to scribble here.. to give thanks to God for such wonderful weekend that has gone past..... it started with confusion initially but later turned into much clarity and confirmation.. and it got better on Sunday!.. The good Lord is good!.. all the Time!.. :D Amazing stuff He is reminding me about.. and it is so timely!.. I am so awed by His timeliness...

Another thought is this... hmm.. wonder how life would be like if I work in UK? would I be happy and as crazy as now? Hmm.. seriously, I am clueless about that coz I have not tried it.. Maybe I should? Still praying about it.. but think everyone already guess what my next action would be!.. hehehe....... Oh well, journey of life is meant to be explored and travelled... and explore & travel to the fullest, I shall!.. within God's will and boundary... :) Already had some bumps along the way and I suppose more bumps on the way.. that's what journey is all about.. learning.. making mistakes.. enjoying moments... and learning.. making mistakes.. enjoying moments... by the way, bumps = mistakes.. *wink*

well.. the beginning of new week.. and time flies when I am having fun!.. oops.. must get back to my assignments/ courseworks... handing them in by Friday the 16th January 2009..... and I would be half free!.. coz still have dissertation to tackle... tough cookie.. but think it would be an interesting cookie to bite!.. *wink*...

Birthday Celebrations for others... so cool..

Just enjoying celebrating birthdays for others.. to see their excitements..

and to be able to share this joy and laughter!.. :D

Jefvlyn and William... all other pictures in this link "William and Jefv's birthdays celebrations!.. 08.01.09... "

Then Shao Ting's birthday... Shao Ting is my first friend who went exploring Birmingham with me... More pictures at this link "Bday celebration for ShaoTing 10.01.09"

And I realised that as we are away from home..... birthday becomes something so so special.. well, maybe it is just me.. or perhaps it is true.. coz all of us want to be appreciated.. all of us want to be celebrated!.. whether we admit or not, that is an entire different story!.. well... and I think for me, it is not just being away from home.. it is an every year thing! hahaha.... so pampered huh? well... that is yours truly, Vivien Keu!.. hehehehe...... *muach!*

List of Birthday Gifts photos... 2009..

So blessed with so many gifts as well as all the texts and messages from loved ones and friends.. Thank God for His faithfulness in giving me birthday cake every year without fail.. He just knows the very thing that I desire deep down.. How awesome He is! :D

And here are photos.. hehehee....... Gifts which I could snap photo... hehehe..... I went crazy over photo taking and here are the results.. hehehe........ *wink*

• 1st Bday Prezzie... 2009
• 2nd Bday Prezzie.. 2009
• 3rd and 4th Bday Prezzie... 2009
• 5th Bday Prezzie... 2009
• 6th Bday Prezzie... 2009

Truly loving life... and giving thanks for little things in life!.. *wink*..

Exam over... but assignments to submit..

and of course, the last challenge would be writing the dissertation.... hehehe..... Gonna see my supervisor on this, next Tuesday....... I pray for smooth discussion and good communication. :D Do remember me in prayers.. Hope to do my best.. and trust that God will handle the rest.. *wink*

Snow snow snow... on 05.01.09...

Just wanna put some snow pictures here.. to share... :D

• Nite and Early Morning Shots of Snow outside Viv's window..
• More Snow pictures 05.06.09
• Do u see the snow falling???

Amazing stuff... God's creation of snow..... hmmm....... :D

God answered one of her prayers!.. :D

hehee... so happy.... so delighted.. so loved... God answered one of my prayers.. that is, it would snow here in Birmingham!.. hehehe...... tat I would witness it with my own eyes.. :D as it was midnight when it happened, I didn't go out but witnessed it from my room window and felt it from my room window.. God is the amazing creator of all ages!.. :P

Hehe.. looking forward to seeing God answering my other prayers.......... yea...... *wink*

Vivien wants to be....

"etad a rof deksa"... hahaha.. secret codes... She is just having her exam blues.. or reds... whoever can unravel her secret code first, she will belanja makan!.. hehehe.... *wink*....

Psalm 27:14 says...

Wait on the LORD;

Be of good courage,

And He shall strengthen your heart;

Wait, I say, on the LORD!

The verse for me in this beginning of the New Year.. Hmm.. Waiting again.. oooh.. Doubt it would ever be easy to wait.. and yet it is necessary, in the Lord's eyes.. Frankly, this has always been my struggle. Wonder anyone share the same challenge.. However, this time, God says that He will strengthen my heart.. I like that. :) Thank You O Lord, for knowing the condition of my heart.. For anyone out there who are in the waiting season as well, be of good courage and He shall strengthen your heart!.. Lets all wait together gather.. *wink*

Prayer request: Exam and Coursework!

Hihi.. appreciate your prayers as I work towards my one and only exam on the 8th January.. and two submissions of coursework on 9th January......

Over and out coz scribbler got to start her engine and zooooooooooom in her progress of work.... *wink*

Special Day it is... :D

A surprise cake!.. so cool... :D

Truly amazing day I had... and it all started with the eve... hehehe..... that's why year end is always so special to me.... and it will always be.. *wink*.. love the attention given.. love the love poured.. love every moment of it!.. and this marks the first day of 2009.. and marks the first scribbling for year 2009..

and of course, followed by links of my photos uploaded in facebook.. heheheh.. think this is my trademark!..

• New Year Eve with SEEDs 31.12.08
• Birthday pictures with SEEDs.. 01.01.09
• New Year Party 01.01.09

Again.. it is about thankfulness.. about His faithfulness.. about His love.. and I am thankful for my parents.. without them, I won't be here!.. haha.. I am thankful for family... I am thankful for friends.. all their wishes, encouragements and blessings.. Just amazing!.. And most of all, thankful to God for loving me, guiding me and being so gracious with me...... *wink*

Girl.. you are a year older.. and yet, I feel that I am even younger than before.. hahaha.. so strange but that is what I feel at this very moment...... real cool eh? haha.. wonder what is the formulae? hmm.. Jesus holding my hands!.. *wink*..