I do wonder is it normal to have "cold feet" even way before the wedding? Questions like "Whether are we really meant for one another?"; "Are we making each other happy?"; "Can we make each other happy?"; etc etc... pop out... Wow, it can be pretty overwhelming sometimes..
I really do wonder what goes through the minds of each bride and bridegroom.. each bride who walks down the aisle.. and each bridegroom who sees from far his bride walking towards him, nearing him... What is it really like to be married?
I am still learning how to love someone dear to my heart... and I begin to realise even more that the model that I have would be God Himself. His Love for us is how we are to love. Yet, it is not easy to love in such ways. How to? especially during times when feel hurt by words and actions. Yet, God loves with no conditions. Could I ever do that? I would be happy if I could manage to do 5% of that. Well, it is a constant learning. Learning to love unconditionally. Learning to love even sometimes when just don't feel like loving. Learning to love especially when it hurts. I am comforted that I have Lord Jesus to teach me how to love. Loving someone as imperfect as I am is an art. Loving God is easy because He never fails me. But loving someone who may fail me is truly a challenge. Am I willing to go through this journey of love till the end? Will I have the strength? Only with God's strength. Only God knows how much I could face. He knows my innermost being.
Dear Lord, thank You for assuring me once again... Thank You for loving me even when I disobey You.. Thank You for not letting me go and for not giving up on me. In Jesus' Most Precious Name I pray, Amen.
