Speak up and out....

From the recent experience, I hope to blog and write of the lessons I learnt.. Of one that is really vital is to be surrounded by prayers, intercessors praying. I had Nine of them who I could sms any time any day, to intercede and pray... You know who you are, thank you for your time and support.. and the many hugs.. :)

For this particular post, I just felt that I want to write about two lessons I learnt that really is needful for anyone who is going through emotional roller coaster rides.. be it due to relationships, financial, physical health etc.. Firstly, is the ability of being able to speak up and out.. not to every Tom, Dick or Harry.. what I mean is to be able to go to someone (it could be one or more) and to confide comfortably and be real to them, trusting God that they are able to handle the information that you are about to share and to intercede for you.

Seek the Lord's guidance to find these selected friends whom you can share freely and comfortably. I am truly blessed that God has sent so many to me and from there, I went to nine of them. In their own special ways, they have each blessed me differently at different times throughout the period of working through feelings and emotions.

For every feelings that came about, I chose to sms it out to these friends, to seek them to pray.. to be accountable of my feelings so that it would not cause me to spiral down too deeply into sadness and depression. Alot of times, it is when we think too much or dwelling too much in "not so good" thoughts that caused much confusions to mind and deception of the evil one would just be able to penetrate through and attack. When able to talk it out to selected people, it truly helps alot.. to cry, or to even be angry (the right anger meaning not sin while being angry)..... I also realised that crying is truly good as form of release of the hurts and pains.. It is when you cry, God is able to slowly heal those wounds.. Heart is soft and tender where God's touch would soothe the pain..

Also, talking to someone reliable helps to prevent the hurting heart from hardening.. It is a big "NO-NO" to harden the heart but sometimes, it is so so painful (no words are able to describe such pain) that it felt that it is a quicker way to just harden the heart and do not feel. I have learnt in my personal experience that it is ok to let the heart be painful and just cry and cry. Somehow, as I cried and cried, I could feel that strange release deep within.. Deep groaning and mourning just further stirred the heart of God to come and be by my side to heal the wound.. Now, looking back, it is just an amazing process but of course, I wouldn't choose to go through it again. Yet, since I have gone through it and still in process of more healing of the heart, I want to share it so that others would be blessed.

Two important lessons for now:

1. Be surrounded by close and reliable supporters who would pray and intercede..
2. Be willing to talk about what is going on, to reliable and trustworthy people and be accountable and be ministered to.

But of course, don't go and overwhelm yourself with the details... What had happened, you can't change it but one thing you can do is to learn from it to the maximum capacity and move on.. as an overcomer. The Lord has called all of us to be overcomers, to see beyond ourselves and see our dear Lord Jesus Christ. Tough, yes but once you trust Jesus to take that first step, it becomes way much easier after that.. Believe me.. Why? coz I am definitely speaking out of experience. *wink*....

Well... I better be off now..... Hope to write soon...... :)