Reflecting and Scribbling away....

It truly makes u think deeper of life...

Psalm 52:8 says, "But I am like a green olive tree in the house of GOD: I trust in the mercy of GOD for ever and ever."

Tuesday 25 November 2008

Peek-a-boo...

Just peeking in between.. hehehe.. I know, I know.. I scribbled earlier that I won't be scribbling for a couple of days.. but hands itchy ah....... hehehe..... Think I prefer free flowing writing to structured academic writing.. but then, who doesn't? Well, attempting to write some sensible academic writing and at the same time, doing more reading of articles and books. I am multitasking in the midst of all.. How do I strike a balance? How do I be confident in my writing? Hmm.. the more I write, and think, the more questions I have.. Ooh.. wonder tat is good or bad? Hmm. does it matter? I have no idea!.

Anyway, it is great to take this peek.. It helps to re-focus my line of thoughts as I scribble.. else it would get all congested up in my tiny brain.. nah.. not that bad, ya.. I have other outlets to express and release my thoughts.. ie.. my personal diary and sometimes, I draw diagrams.. if I know how to draw pictures, I would!.. hehehe.. but I do love to draw clouds.. it is great way of expressing myself.. hehehe.. that is just one of the ways..

And this wee hour of the morning brought home a thought.. an aspect of being a woman after God's heart.. and the illustration of a trusting child towards parents.. Lets think about that abit.. and look at our lives.. Are we swarm away by many stuff that our time with Him just being stuffed into a corner of our lives? Ooh.. Hmm.. God loves me.. God loves you.. He loves everyone! and He will always do! that is the amazing thing.. but where are our hearts? I shall leave that thought lingering..

(once again, scribbler going back to zzzz....... this one crazy thing she does.. haha)

Monday 24 November 2008

Viv on Vacation from Scribbling...

Yup.. decided to take a vacation from scribbling, not because of anything.. but because I got to finish my courseworks and dissertation proposal by December 2008.. So, if anyone reading my little bloggie, please remember me in prayers.. that'd simply make my day, ya.. hehehe..

I would be back on the 15th December 2008... hehehehe....... Pray for me, ya.. :D

God does it again!. Amazing...

Yup.. it was just fabulous to see God at work.. and He works in ways that always amaze me.. and most time, caught me off-guarded.. Anyway, ya.. I am still learning to be more sensitive to His leading..

Hmm.. Just want to write a short scribble to give Thanks to Our Sweet Heavenly Father who loves me so very much.. and I know He loves everyone lots and lots too!.. So cool, ya.. :D hehehehe.... He is ever willing to teach me.. whispering voice, guiding me patiently, lovingly.. Oh.. how I long to hear His voice clearly.. to be able to always come to that place of worship unto Him with all that I have and am.. Just want to praise His Name! and Praise Him!..

Come and join me.... Lets join our hearts together to praise Him.. *smile contently*

Thursday 20 November 2008

Catching Moments...

I very much realise the need to catch the moments especially spending time with family and friends.. Loved ones... even new friends.. If we don't catch it, it will just be blown away in the wind in this tuck and tussle of life that is so ever busy...

And it is the same with God as well... Spending time with Him, listening to what He has to say.. Hearing Him and not start bustling away after saying a prayer.. which we so ever often do.. I am guilty of that crime!.. oops...

Enjoying life, this very life, this very one life that God has given... How to? by not being caught up in the past, by not being anxious about the future BUT by being in the PRESENT.. live the present, what we could see.. the people we are in contact with, and the many things we could do.. using the gifts that the good Lord has given us to do the will that He has for us at this very hour, this very day! with all that we have..

Received a quote today that says.. "Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly...."

Wednesday 19 November 2008

Family

Just missing family and home today at this very moment... Don't know what got into me but am in such state.. Well... Shows that I love them very much lar! hehehe...... And, just upload some photos of them in FB...

A Typical Grocery Day....

Hehehe.. decided to snap photos and photos when I go grocery shopping... hehehe..
here it is, enjoy!

Monday 17 November 2008

the CORE...

This really hits to the CORE... I think it truly is.. Lets listen to this song...

"Stained Glass Masquerade"; Casting Crowns

Do we hide? Are we truly honest among loved ones, family, friends and people? Do we dare to be honest about our state? Would we dare? Would people run away after seeing the true self? I wonder.. and I wonder do anyone else wonder about that too? Hmmm..... something to think about, ya..... ha.. maybe I should seriously consider taking up psychology... nah.. I just take it as a hobby to scribble.. to write of what runs in my thoughts.. not all but just bits and pieces here and there..

"Somewhere in the middle"

Another song to reflect upon.... this song is about the struggle of mankind, I would say it is.. the question to ask is "Are we caught in the middle?"... And I thought this song just sang off what is in my heart, the struggle within at times.. if I am really honest about it, ya..

"Somewhere in the middle"; Casting Crowns

"Praise You in this storm"....

Just felt right to put this song up at this very moment... maybe someone needs to listen to this song.. I do not know.. Hmm... Anyway, even as I listened to this song, I just felt lifted up and know deep down even more assuredly that Praising God in all circumstances is the key!.. Wonder how many people out there truly grasp this truth... I pray that this truth would just sink in wonderfully in the hearts of many especially those that I love and treasure..

"Praise You in this storm"; Casting Crowns..

Yummy.......

Just couldn't resist but to put this picture on bloggie...... I will come back to this restaurant just for more of this Tom-Yam Prawn soup in the days to come.. It wasn't spicy though but I like it coz it just suit my taste!.. and the prawns were fabulous!.. yum......

Photo Albums early mid Nov'2008...

Hehe.. more and more photos posted on Facebook..... :D



Enjoy them as I enjoyed the actual moments.... :D Amazing stuff..

Safe in God's Hand...

"Lord, Lord, this is where I want to be...
to be in Your Hand...
to be in Your presence every moment..."

One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.
- Psalm 27:4 -

Sunday 9 November 2008

Pass it on!....

I particularly like/love this phrase... "Pass it on..." and there is much truth and much lessons to learn from just these three simple words...... Yesterday at church, these three simple words were spoken of and it reminded me of some things I heard long time ago.... and it was nice to remember them... :)

What do I have to be passed on? Plenty.. all those good stuff that the GOod Lord has deposited within me.. hehe.. and there are more than what I could imagine.. Only the Lord knows how much more.. and that is the exciting part.. as I avail myself to Him, surrendering daily to Him (sometimes, failed but will try again), He is showing me stuff and bringing me to another level to see things I never actually thought of but there they are... Why? because He is the Giver and He loves to give good gifts..

And just another phrase that was spoken of during the church service by a young girl... "What I have is nothing much but I want to give it anyway"... what an attitude to have!.. It is like saying.. in my weaknesses, I still want to help.. Or.. with the little that I have, I still want to give it out anyway... I am praying that I would be able to do that because at the end of it all, it is not about me.. it is really about the building of the Kingdom of God!

I Know Who Holds Tomorrow...

This is the song that was shared by a dear "old" friend.. She shared with me the phrase of the song and as usual, I went to YouTube to search for the song and it was just wonderfully touching.. God has used this song to touch another part of my heart this morning.. It is like.. my little heart looks glittering "pretty" with so many touches of the Lord... I can visualise it in my little brainy.. hehe.. Just want to give all Thanks to Him who knows... who loves... Amen!


and..... I know Who Holds my hand.... hehe.. I really do know...
Do you?
It is truly a journey of searching and seeking...

Photo Albums late Oct'08 to early Nov'08

hehe.. Photo Albums that I have created in facebook..... click on them and enjoy!..
Think my next photo album would be when I am inspired to take or it would be my next trip to a Europe country!.. hehehe.. Yippee..........

Oops.. here I go again..

... another wrong thought just came through.. Hmm.. is it a wrong thought? in my definition, it is. I think it is... But what is the Lord saying? *thinking*...

(Scribbler waiting silently to hear....)

Saturday 8 November 2008

Waiting..

I just wanna to share of what I have read in Our Daily Bread devotion yesterday..... talking about waiting... and I think I have briefly scribbled about my situation, the waiting.. think I am always at this waiting season.. could it be for life? in different areas of life..... hehehe.. perhaps, that is some sense to that.. what do you think?

Anyway, I am going to do the cut and paste from Our Daily Bread... but if you wanna to listen to the audio version, click on the word "waiting" in blue in the above and it will bring you to the page of devotion.. click on the audio "Listen Now".. it is really good, to me it is.. hee..

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Waiting

Make haste to help me, O Lord!” the psalmist David prayed (Ps. 70:1). Like him, we don’t like to wait. We dislike the long lines at super-market checkout counters, and the traffic jams downtown and around shopping malls. We hate to wait at the bank or at a restaurant.

And then there are the harder waits: a childless couple waiting for a child; a single person waiting for marriage; an addict waiting for deliverance; a spouse waiting for a kind and gentle word; a worried patient waiting for a diagnosis from a doctor.

What we wait for, however, is far less important than what God is doing while we wait. In such times He works in us to develop those hard-to-achieve spiritual virtues of meekness, kindness, and patience with others. But more important, we learn to lean on God alone and to “rejoice and be glad” in Him (v.4).

F. B. Meyer said, “What a chapter might be written of God’s delays! It is the mystery of the art of educating human spirits to the finest temper of which they are capable. What searchings of heart, what analyzings of motives, what testings of the Word of God, what upliftings of soul. . . . All these are associated with those weary days of waiting, which are, nevertheless, big with spiritual destiny.” —
David H. Roper

Be still, My child, and know that I am God!
Wait thou patiently—I know the path you trod.
So falter not, nor fear, nor think to run and hide,
For I, thy hope and strength, am waiting by thy side.
—Hein

God stretches our patience to enlarge our soul.
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I always like it when my deepest part of soul is being stirred when I read something or when I hear certain words or phrases... There are those sounds of clicking when that happens.. Just amazing how God always does that, particularly when the timing is just right!

Today, I just thought that ya.. think the truth is there will always be pocket of time of waiting in life.. In fact, there will be overlapping of pocket of time of waiting.. and it is good for our soul, my soul in particular because I recognise it for myself. He desires to enlarge our soul and our faith in Him.. To have faith is be able to wait in Him.. Hebrews 11:1 says "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." and there is the "waiting" bit somewhere inside there though not directly mentioned.. if we think abit further into the verse...

Hmmm.. Perhaps, I should even consider writing a book on "waiting" since I have gone through many stretches of waiting and am currently in one stretch? hehehe.. that is one of my dreams.. Dreams keep me alive! tee-hee-hee..

So.. what is God doing while I wait? and what am I doing while I wait? There are two folds to this.. and it is fun to discover.. to try things.. to do stuff... to meet people that I never dream of meeting.... Not because I am in UK but because there are more reflection moments in God to think about why I am doing what I am doing.. A new change of environment possibly grant me more inspiration to do that more deliberately especially being away so far... Having said that, this reflection moments is something which I hope to do even more in the days to come.. especially so when I am "really" busy.. I am reminded of again how Jesus always does it.. where in Mark 1:35 says "Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed." Those are what I call reflection moments.. going to God.. talking to Him and listening to Him..

Talking about that, I realise that I can talk to God alot but do I listen to Him? Interesting perspective but it is there.. and in the Vine that I have read talked about that bit... where there is a phrase that says "Now, since God designed the plan for your life, don't you think it's wise to get quiet before Him so that He can tell you about it?" hehe.. very true, isn't it? that blowed me away when I read it yesterday... Click here for this devotion reading in the Vine.... I am sure anyone who read it would be encouraged as much as I have or even more......

Well.. I am waiting in the Lord (more willingly this time but there were many times of unwillingness in the past and that again showed proof that I am a needy gal who has got much to learn! hehehe).. and praying that I would be more deliberate in listening to what He is saying.. And, this is my prayer for everyone too... *wink*

Friday 7 November 2008

Kinda cool...

what is kinda cool? well, being non leader at this juncture of life.. just enjoying being a member of the group.. Currently, am in a Uni students cell group with three cell leaders.. I am enjoying it.. tee-hee-hee..

Having said that, I am being appointed to be one of the student representatives.. haha.. still have some role of leadership nevertheless.. I am cool with that.

Great time of observing and learning from other leaders, especially in church context.. different leaders have their own preference of doing things.. I wonder, would I be in such capacity again later on? Only the Lord knows and He would guide and open door and responsibilities..

So.. yup.. cool time for me now.. learning from different perspective at this point of time.. yo-hoo...

Thursday 6 November 2008

Losing count of Days... BUT...

ya.. that's my feeling at this very moment.. Time flies by so quickly that before I know it, another day has gone or rather another week has gone by.. gosh... and what have I been doing? It is great to be able to come to such realisation and making full use of the time that I have here in Birmingham.. not sure I would be here for long.. but admittedly, I do like what is going on and want to get the best out of it.. especially stuff going on in church and even with my studies.. Wonder could I study longer?

Anyway, I have 8 months ahead of me now.. and the past 2 months have been wonderful!.. of course, there were down moments but like I scribbled before, the UPs outweighted the downs.. Am greatful to God for such precious opportunity!.. :D

Hearing about the change of visa in the days to come makes me wonder and worried sometimes.. and the question that I ask myself would be.. "Do I really trust God for my future?" "Really really what is in your deepest thoughts and heart?" You know, alot of times, we say we do trust Him.. or rather I say I do but when comes to things like this, I behave as if I don't trust Him.. "aiks!"... "No way!.. " but, honestly looking at it.. Actions and thoughts speak louder than the words we profess. That is human tendency, I guess.. and this is a journey of learning and of faith.. and even as I ponder, I am asking Him to teach me to Trust Him in all things!.. and asking Him to check my heart and my thoughts.. Anytime when I am down the wrong road of thoughts, I need to quickly pause and ask valid questions.. God has been so wonderful.. He prompts me gently.. and I am glad that I am not in denial but willing to face what is within me.. hehehe..

As Matthew 6:34 says.. "Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." and seek First the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you... (Mtt 6:33).. A timely reminder given about this last night.. Just loving it!..

God knows the best and in Him, we have rest and peace.... and that is where I want to be for the rest of my life.... I find myself running, with eyes fixed on the One and only.. Beloved Jesus.

Saturday 1 November 2008

The Rain has finally fully arrived...

think so.. coz it hasn't been raining that much since I arrived to Birmingham.. well, only the past few days it has been raining and even tonight, the very hour I am scribbling, the rain and wind splashing on the window of my room.. so freezing cold, I believe.. But I am in my cozy room with the heating on..

The weather has been cold... and I am still juggling with my clothes selection.. hehehe.. and the latest challenge that I have is my shoes!.. gosh.. my current shoes really do not go well with the current wet and cold weather.. poor old feet.. Have no fear.. I am on shoes hunt tomorrow afternoon.. wouldn't want my poor feet to be freezing and eventually my whole body would be freezing too.. oooh... that simply would not do, ya.. hehehe..

I really pray that tomorrow's weather would be good so that I could go out with dry weather and get my pair of shoes.. hehehe... Anyway, today has been an interesting day for me.. The Lord has surprised me with nice little things just when He knows I would be lifted up with them.. and I just want to Praise Him even more because He is so ever wonderful and fun!.. Being here in Birmingham, away from home, definitely has opened my life to things I never dream of and yes, they are in front of me now.. and I am so thankful that I am picking up good stuff along the way.. Just wonderfully fun and exciting! and more importantly, it is the new friendships that God has blessed me with, in the flat, in Uni, in churches.. and the list goes on and on.. hehehe.. coool....

Well.. I am off to bed now..... good night.... *smile*