Seven months passed by in a wheeezz...

Yup.. Year 2008, it is more than half a year done.. or over.. What is my feeling of it? Mm.. kinda mix feelings, I suppose.. *smile sweetly*

Anyway, just wanna scribble a sentence or two to mark the end of July 2008.. Today is the last day.. and in a few hours time, it would be August 2008.. and soon, I would be released from my work responsibilities as well.. and going into the mode of preparing myself for my new adventure.. also, bidding my goodbyes to friends and loved ones.. Hehe.. it is like I am going away for a long long time.. well, it is 10 months being away and I guess, many things could take place in 10 months time.. Make the best out of the time I have now with the friends and loved ones... That is my hope and prayer.. That is what I aim to do at this hour.. well, changes will come, most definitely..

Hehe.. i scribbled more than just a sentence or two... signing off now... till I scribble again.. well, it would be in August 2008 then.... *smile*

A tiny sense of loss and yet much release...

Well, that was what I felt during CG last night.. when CG members surrounded me in prayers.. their prayers, in their each unique ways have released me from cell leadership as last night marked the last meeting of me being a CGL... Interestingly, I do feel the sense of loss... what they called in cantonese.. "hm-sei-tak".. and yet looking forward for what is ahead of me.. new adventure and new season of life.. another chapter to be written..

I wonder what Jesus would say to me with regards to this length of time being a CGL.. have I done well? Mmm.. I recognise that there are many rooms for improvements... after all, that was the very first time being a cell leader.. it is like, I am a new rookie!.. hehehe.. My deepest desire has always been that, at least one life has been touched, stirred.. moved towards the heart of God and will continue this such exciting journey in God.. of course, more is better.. but at least one.. and I know God has so graciously allowed me to see more than one even at this hour.. and I believe there are more to come.. Just like trees, it takes time to see the fruits.. *smiling in anticipation*... the joy of sowing!.. hmm.. maybe I should pick up the art of gardening!.. hahahaha.. mmm.....

Mm.. looking forward now to Li Ping & Chun Yew's wedding this coming 08-08-08... It would be a fun time, I believe.. with all the cell members.. Lets see what we are going to do...

Approval....???

Is approval that important? Mm.. I have this question that was thrown back to me as I was just doing work and also receiving emails yesterday.. What is "approval"? Let me check online dictionary for its definition.. Hehe.. there I go again with my "analytical" sense.. and then I shall scribble on about this "word"... Kinda fun, ya.. to scribble about a word.. and to see where I am going to end at the end of a scribbling-post.. That is what they call, creativity.. hehehe.. *ahem*...

One of the definitions of "approval"... according to Free Online Dictionary is "acceptance as satisfactory".. Mmm.. basically, it is acceptance.. and we are all made to want to be accepted.. Mm.. is that true? or is it just me thinking that it is true? Mm.. Did bible talk about this? or.. the other word to put it, is "in favor"... I remember something now.. about, eh.. er.. yes.. Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men. (Luke 2:52) .. How did that took place? What are the processes behind? coz I am thinking, you can't just be in favor with God and men just like that.. right? Lets ponder further.. Mmm.. questions, questions...

How to be like Jesus? How do we grow in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men? Mm.. the one phrase that I have is to walk in obedience to the Lord God Almighty.. To break that down into little parts of understanding.. what are the very first things that we could do in walking in obedience to Him..? hehe.. the very one thing that I could think of is to spend time with Him, to read His Word, to pray.. ya.. the very normal stuff of christian living.. and yet, alot of times, I took it for granted.. Today is a good reminder to me, to go back to the basic again and again.. How we all need this!

Yup.. lets all go back to the basic!... and be faithful in them... and then, the approval will come.. favor will come... the law of sowing and reaping.. *grinning*..

Pocket time...

Just somehow felt led to scribble about this phrase "Pocket-Time".. What is this pocket-time? hehe.. this is my version of explaining what this pocket-time means to me as I think further and deeper.. This phrase is related to "Spending Time". After so many years, it just dawned unto me the importance of spending time, especially with loved ones, close ones.. and even strangers that God divinely brings cross my path... And I also realise that it doesn't necessary mean spending long hours but just those important "pocket" of time and opportunity... So, in that sense, it is really not about the quantity but the effort and the condition of heart, my response.. the initiation of heart.. Mmm.. how true that is.. Indeed! Coz people could pick it up quite instantly..

Truly thankful to God for opening my eyes to see this golden truth of life.. out the many more to come.. He has so much installed for us to learn.. and that is why people say, it is a lifelong learning and learning... We never stop learning..

Well, am looking forward to yet another pocket-time with my dad in August.. when he comes back for a few days.. I pray and hope that the best would be made out of the time that we are going to have. Even true with mom.. yup.. this coming Saturday would be an interesting one, I believe and pray and hope.. *closing eyes....* *wink*...

In fact, now.. looking forward to be home to spend some great pocket-time with my little nephew and niece... (Scribbler scribbles her last line for the day as she shuts her pc.. )

"Studies" Adventure...

hehehe.. this thought came to me when I was busy sending out smses to friends about the change of my handphone number.. I like the topic above... for it is truly going to be an adventure to go to a new place and do a new thing!.. Yes, an adventure indeed!... aha.. this will stick with me for a while.. *grinning*

Wonder how things would really be like in the United Kingdom? How would it be like to be a university student? Mm.. Is it the same as college student? Mmm.. what would I be doing? Where would I be going? Who would I be meeting? My my.. so many things that I am wondering... well, that is why it is called "adventure"... with challenges ahead.. Mmm.. with the Lord's guidance, I know I am in good hands.. *smiling*

Obedience.. walking in obedience to the Lord's ways and that is what I desire to do and pray to do.. It won't be easy and yet I know deep down Heavenly Father is watching out for me... as I take on this new adventure.. probably be knocking myself with some bruises.. but they are fun bruises of trying new things.. hehehehe... I suddenly feel the liberty.. well.. it is like, the world is before me.. and I could do many things, try out things that I have never dared to try before.. the Lord's ways is my limit.. and as I choose to walk in His ways, I know I would hear His voice just like the sheep hears the shepherd's voice..

Blossoming.. Blooming... mmmm..... how interesting.... *grinning*...

(Scribbler just loves to scribble away her thoughts and aspirations....)

Does it matter anymore?

Mm.. strange enough.. this phrase stood out among the many thoughts that I have.. What is the "it"? *chuckle*.. I am clueless.. and yet, there is the sense of knowing.. mm.. you know, there are just those times where you would rather not know the details.. I am kinda like that, I guess, at times..

Well, if it doesn't matter anymore, I'd rather not know then.. Not to say that I choose to live in denial.. but if the knowledge of knowing something do not really benefit anyone, why talk about it then? so, does it matter? Mm..

(Scribbler suddenly lost the feel of what to scribble on.. hehe.. maybe it is time for her to end this scribbling as it is then.....)

Turning Moments...

Somehow, today, felt led to scribble about turning moments.. what are turning moments? It could be from a very small turn to huge turn in life.. what are small turns? and what are huge turns? Actually, this rather subjective to define.. so, I would say that it is subject to individual..

For me, small turns are decisions that I have to decide daily.. example, which road to take to go home, what time to leave home, who I am to meet, etc etc... Huge turns would be for example, where I am going to work, who I am going for courtship with, which state/country I will be in for season of time, etc etc... Actually, ha.. as I scribble, I wonder am I scribbling in line with the topic? hehehe.. Guess, so as long it makes sense to me, the scribbler, it should be fine... but hopefully, it does bring some light to scribbler's readers..

Well.. I am feeling that I am at this juncture of my life where a huge turn has begun and is taking place the very minute I am scribbling. Somehow, the feeling that I have is that it makes me feel kinda twiggy.. and kinda ecstatic.. and deeply down my soul, I know there is no turning back.. mmm.... *grinning*.. that's me, just love to be mysterious about it.. giving it this touch of thrill. Why so? Mm.. Perhaps that is how I am wired by God from the beginning.. I am just touching base with the gifts that God has given me..

I can even visualise it as I scribble on.. visualise myself turning literally so to speak (whether it is my heart or soul, I have no idea... maybe both?) and know what? I really pray and hope that this turning is in line with God's given direction and enables me to excel in His ways and purpose for this one life He has given me.. I guess, I would only know after I journey for a while and pondering a little.. Whatever it may be.. God is Almighty and He knows the very heart of ours.. of mine.. coz He created us.. He created me just as who I am.. *aweeeed*...

Much to do.. and yet...

Now with my travel documents secured and in hand, it just dawned to me that there are much to do.. things to settle.. Mm.. honestly, it can be kinda overwhelming but the good Lord reminded me to take one step at a time.. to attempt each task as it comes about.. Good way of releasing the overwhelming feeling.. "Thank You Lord for Your timely reminder. I needed that."

New move in life always coupled with uncertainties ahead.. and uncertainties are just the thing that well, uncertain... and I guess it is how I choose to see it.. whether as something to be excited about or something to fear.. The feelings are real and the choice to decide which is it is also in my hands as I want to be obedient to the Lord. The tendancy to sway to the not so good is there and yet there is hope! Jesus is my hope!.. And I can take risks in life because I have Jesus in my life.. as I choose to obey His prompting and guiding.. Do I really know? Know what? Know which risks to take? mmm... The Lord's timing of revelation is in His hands and not in mine.. So, why do I need to bother with things that are not mine to take care of? that would be overloading myself.. God has given me sufficient things to take care of in life and I shall just faithfully do those He has entrusted me and trust that He would handle the bigger stuff for me..

Even as I scribble on about this, I could feel the invisible n yet heavy burden released from my shoulders.. how ignorant we can all be, thinking that we are to carry so many things where in fact, we are only to carry this tiny little bundle.. and the rest has been taken care of by Our Lord Jesus Christ.. Like one of my friends say, "doink!"... hehehe..

All of us need reminders about truths in life.. because we tend to forget them too quickly at times or at most times.. Isn't that strange? but yet it is very true.. well, at least I find it true for myself..

"O Lord, have mercy upon me for being so ignorant.... Please forgive me for my distrust and unbelief and help me with them... I acknowledge that they are so real and only You can help me to get rid of them. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen"

(scribbler got to end scribblings to get ready for the day of work ahead of her....)

This is my near future destination....

by the Grace of God....

Take a guess of which country this is........ hehehehe........ Today, I just got my awaited visa to spend some good months in this new destination.. new place with new experiences... What is installed for me in the days to come? mm.. well.. only the Lord knows and for Him to reveal to me in His time.... I am taking baby steps.. as I trod in this exciting journey of life..

That is why-lar.. Scribbler hasn't been scribbling for the past days.. was in the waiting mode.. waiting in anticipation and the day has arrived for me to start scribbling once again.... *grinning*