Busy busy...

yeah.. been busy and also been doing some thinking and reflecting. Some thoughts revealed by God and I am still asking as to what is it for me to see and understand..

Would also like to give thanks once again and testify of God's goodness in my life. How He cared so much even to the littliest details of my life. Just yesterday evening, how God knows exactly what I required and He sent a dear friend to my rescue on time! hehehe.. "Thanks friend, for your obedience to the Lord.*smile*" It is just amazing to experience these blessings one after another..

And I got two hugzz today... heheheh... so, cool.. Thank You O Lord for Your touch and love.

Oh ya.. also wanna scribble that I won't be going to Israel this time round.. Guess the timing isn't right to go this time. Mm.. Right timing to go would be better and the best time to go!.. hehe.. And, perhaps, I can take off to go home to Sitiawan, to wait in anticipation for the arrival of my niece to the world.. Mm.. I am contemplating to do that.. maybe I should... Also, to be with my little nephew... :)

And.. oo... This one phrase Pr Daniel spoke today kept ringing in my head... "Transparency leads to Transformation"... mm... interesting...

My Favorite Flowers..

Lovely Rose eh? slightly-semi open.. just as how I like it.

Big Smiley Sunflower.. can you see it smiling?

God answered another prayer..

I was just thinking when I was scribbling in my earlier post, "wouldn't it be nice if I took the photo of the glimpse of rainbow I saw on Easter Sunday evening?"... and guess what, I have it today and I am able to post it on the blog.. God is so so good... :) Here it is, enjoy and be awed as I am awed by His awesomeness.... He gave the church a rainbow and He gave me a rainbow, the rainbow that I was waiting for, months now.. *grinning* Thank You O Lord.

Another Thursday!

Wow.. Thursday is here again!.. hehehe.. Today, just wanna say...

JESUS LOVES You,

this I know!

**John 3:16**

And

He LOVES Me too!

*smile*

The Process....

Thought today's devotion from the Vine would be a good and powerful reading to share today in my blog. So, as usual, I do the cut and paste.. and most importantly, praying... As I read it for myself, it put me in the position of again check and balance as to what is God saying to me today.. Though I may have known the principles, there would be new things to learn for today.. Do read on and be encouraged.

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When You Lose What You Love

When they walk through the Valley of Weeping... They will continue to grow stronger.

Psalm 84:6-7 NLT

When you lose what you love you go through five stages: (1) Denial - "No, it can't be happening." (2) Anger - "God, why are You permitting this?" (3) Bargaining - "Please make it go away." (4) Depression - Silence and withdrawal. (5) Acceptance - "Not my will but Yours be done."

Whether it's the loss of a child, a marriage, a job, your health, etc. when you turn to God He'll give you the grace to embrace it, grieve it, express it, release it, and go on to become stronger. Sometimes we seek quick relief by releasing it before we've gone through these stages. That's because we fear the process. We've been taught that any show of emotion is a show of weakness, so we stuff it. But we only stuff it into our emotional rubbish bin, then spend all our time and energy sitting on the lid, trying to keep the contents from spilling out. "You shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free" (John 8:32). It's knowing and embracing the truth, including its painful aspects, that sets you free. You must be willing to forgive. But until you come to grips with the enormity of your loss, including any injustice of what was done to you, you are not ready to forgive. When you rush to forgive, you forgive only in part and you're released only in part.

Are you running from pain today? Are you trading it in prematurely for some other feeling? That's not God's way. Jesus said, "You will weep and mourn… but [eventually] your grief will turn to joy… and no one will take [it] away" (John 16:20-22 NIV).

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Be brave to go through the process and not rush.. I am very and really glad that God has given me the courage and the support to go through the process recently and not stuff it... Just imagine if I stuff it into my emotional rubbish bin without going through the process and then have to spend the rest of my life and energy sitting on the lid, trying to keep the contents from spilling out. Gosh, that would be really sad and tragic. I thank God that He intervened and taught me to be willing and brave to go through the process. As tough as it can be and it can be very tough to go through the process especially the part of embracing the pain, yet, it is liberating after that.. Oh yes! liberating because I am set free!.. My prayer today is that all be willing to go through the process where all truth will be revealed and everyone will be set free, including myself... :)

Everytime I scribble about this, I learn something new.. God is speaking something new to my heart and inner being and I am once again liberated and once again being blessed with new insight of life.. wow.. amazing.. and I know He is not done with me yet.. and there are more to come.. *Grinning*...

Gift from a dear friend...

Hehe... Ya.. got a gift from Maggie.. she wrote a post in her blog specially for me.. Here is the link... I am so touched.. *smiling*

http://the4theye-maggie.blogspot.com/2008/03/especially-for-vivien-keu.html

Thank you, Mag.. Can I call u Mag? hehehe.. Thanks for pic of Rainbow... the poem and the verse.. Thanks so much. :)

Dedication Dinner Group Photo...

This photo was taken during our Church's Dedication Dinner on 23rd March 2008.

Just wanna share this here.. my CG members... Well, only Fiona wasn't there.... Otherwise, it will be full force!... Having great food.. foo-chow food all the way from Sitiawan.. hehehe..

The Letter "M"....

This morning.. the letter "M" brought me to mind of the word "MEMORIES"... Why this word? Mm.. not too sure but this word is popping in my mind.. Even as I seek the Lord about this word today, may I be clear as to what to scribble about in my next post..

M - manual

E - eagle

M - magnifier

O - overcomer

R - rejoicer

I - instrument

E - encourager

S - seeker

With God's Word as our Manual of life, may all of us be like Eagles, be Magnifiers of His Name. Be Overcomers. Be Rejoicers, and His Instruments to Encourage each other and be faithful Seekers of deeper understanding of His Manual.

This is my prayer for everyone today... that we may be sweet MEMORIES for the people who cross our path of life. By the Grace of God.... truly... :)

This Easter is really the best!

Why would I say that? Follow from my previous scribble, I scribbled about what a special day today is for me.. Well,.. to top it up, I saw rainbow, even though it was rather fade one and portion of it but more importantly, I saw rainbow this evening. It was after the Dedication Service at Dream Centre.. And the awesome thing was I wasn't suppose to go out but straight to the place where food is served. Yet, at spur moment, I decided to put my usher coat and other stuff in my car. So, I walked out lar.. and was wondering what everyone was looking at.. I looked up and to my wondrous delight, rainbow.. Rainbow really means something to me and God always use rainbows to speak to me... Today is the first rainbow I saw after months of no rainbow.. and so timely it is that it has to be today.. Yup.. Sunday is here!... :) Thank You, Lord.

The above picture was taken when I climbed Mt KK in May 2005... The Lord's promise... :)

Good night.. I know I will sleep soundly tonight...

Special Easter Year 2008...

Personally, I think this Easter is really special for me and to me.. So much to share yet at the same time don't know where to begin or how to scribble... For once, I am scribble-less.. hehehe.. Is there such a word? Mm.. I am so touched during this Easter that words just not able to describe it well.. I am truly awed by His Presence and Touch..

And the following song titled "Because He Lives" just speaks it all.. I believe.. :)

Today, I suddenly understood why I was feeling edgy and jittery last Friday... The Lord was bringing me to see different perspectives of things and also to heal even further the specific areas of my wounded heart.. God said that this weekend is the time to look at these areas deeper still and further healing took place.. Isn't God good? All the time.. most definitely. :)

As the sermon said... "that was Friday (where agony, sufferings, hurts and pains went through).. but Sunday is here and today is Sunday (where there is hope and glorious assurance because of resurrection of Jesus Christ)", how timely this is for myself personally.. *grinning from left to right"...

"Thank You Lord. Truly You have the best for me and You know me inside out, upside down.. Thank You Lord for every details You notice and take care of me.. and every details You intervene to ensure that I am on the right track with You. And with You, though I have failed and made mistakes, You give me second chance.. Just as how You gave Peter second chance.. You gave him personal word, personal interview and personal commission..."

Blessed Easter everyone... :D

Sunday is Coming!

Hehe.. I really like this topic... I learnt it today at church, listening to the sermon by Mr Peter Chao who is the guest preacher this weekend.

This is like a divine phrase for me at this hour.. How to explain? mm.. let me ponder more and I will write more of it in the days to come..

I really never see the three days (from Good Friday to Easter Day) being expounded this way like Mr Chao preached tonight. It is truly touching and assuring to be comforted by God so much.. And He just knows what touches my heart and at the right exact time too. Thank You O Lord..

Well, I need to zzz.. had a long and yet great day.. Thanks Ms Hoo (hehe.. if u are reading this post) for the company and time spent together.. :)

The Devil's Foothold....

Just by typing that also giving me the creeeps... but it is real.. yet, so many of us are living obliviously about it.. including myself. Not talking about in general but in different areas of our lives.. And many a times, it is those areas where it seems to be looking good and ok that are not really okay.. In time, God will bring them to light.. when He knows that we could trust Him a little and manage and not be condemned.

Ephesians 5:12-14 says; "For it is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. But everything exposed by the light becomes visible, for it is light that makes everything visible. This is why it is said: 'Wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.'"

As much as we are not to be so fearful of the Devil's schemes and plans, we shouldn't live life oblivious towards it as well. Victory has already been won by the Lord Jesus on the cross and we therefore should live life victoriously. And in the areas where we know deep down in our deepest hearts that are "ugly or not so nice or not so pleasant", we are to ask God to bring all to light and teach us the right way of living.. the right way of responding.. Be always alert and engaging in life. Even as I write, I am reminded of it myself.. It is easy to be complacent, thinking that I am doing ok.. What is God calling us to respond?

Lets look at the following few verses.... how much God is talking about being ALERT....

And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints. (Ephesians 6:18)

So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be alert and self-controlled. (1 Thessalonians 5:6)

Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. (1 Peter 5:8)

Be on guard! Be alert ! You do not know when that time will come. (Mark 13:33)

Enough to tell me that it is very important to be ALERT.. not only be alert for short while, for a day.. a month.. a year.. But, be alert ALWAYS... coz we really do not know... be always praying too..

A Flower....

Why I put this pic here ah? hehehe.. no idea.. I couldn't find any pic of flowers in my laptop.. heheheh.. anyway, I love this pic... it does look pretty, isn't it?

I read the following prayer from a book I was reading last night.. which I thought I want to share it here today.. early morning.. yup, I am already up!..

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Heavenly Father,

Just as only You can make a flower grow in the middle of the desert,

only You can provide miracles for us

in the midst of painful and barren times in our lives.

Never are we without hope.

They are brighter days ahead in You.

Amen.

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Have a great weekend ahead.. I know I will coz I got so many things to do!.. hehehe.. my whole Saturday is filled up... and Sunday too, looking foward to the Dedication Service at DC... Tata..

Friends again? How?

Just thoughts that came to mind.. Questions that I have which I have no answers to.. at this moment of time..

How do you be friends again with someone who wronged you severely? I mean, after you have forgiven the person, released the person, asked God for forgiveness and also learnt to bless the person... after all that.. the question that comes next would be, "so, can still be friends ah? How to trust? Dare I trust? Should I? Am I being wise?" Friendship is built upon trust but what if the trust has been broken and violated, how could you trust again and be friends again? Won't it be better to have no association what-so-ever with the person? Is there a better way to handle this? I really do not know.. mmm.... "Restitution"? How?

"Lord, Lord, I am confused now... what am I to think and do? Please give me revelation and clarity of mind to response rightly and wisely too. Please send wise counsel to teach me too..."

Only Our Lord knows how I am to response.. Only He could provide me the Grace and Love and Wisdom to response rightly.. It is all in His Time...

A New Light when I am set free....

I don't know how to describe what I am feeling at this hour or at this time yet, like my title says, A New Light when I am set free... Set free from what? Set free from lots of stuff.. stuff that has binded me.. stuff that has hindered me from moving to the next level.. stuff that was/were there for years without me realising what it was or they were until recently...

Truly amazing to see how God is working in my own personal life, through family members, CG members, Ushers, friends and at this stage, Elijah House ministry.. I am awed by His move and touch.

Even last night in CG, I am thankful for the time of sharing among the members.. and thankful that I have finally felt belonged and not aloofed like I used to be.. I am really set free and I could see things from a New Light.. one that is from God Almighty.. That was reflected clearly too in my family too recently which I am so so thankful for..

So, the break-up (though it is sad to have the break-up taken place) is truly a blessing in disguise to put me in that place, where God could set me free from the bondage that I was in for 31 years of my life.. God has to use that to bring me to that place where I would be so bare and vulnerable that I would be set free for life!... Who would understand what I am scribbling here except God?.. Yup.. Almighty God knows. :)

As to where I will be moving to next... the Lord has something up in His sleeves... and in due time, He would reveal as I reflect and seek His Face...

Unfolding the ROse....

Got the following from my daily devotion sender... and I personally am very touched by it.. the every word and the song too.....

"Beautiful lesson for each of us to learn that God is in control of our lives. May you be blessed that our Saviour lives today."

Click on this .... :Unfolding the ROSE.....

And I also took the liberty of cutting and pasting the following poem from the link... which I find it to be so very true in life.. Life is like a rosebud.. waiting to be unfold and only God can do it.. I can't.. If I do it, I would destroy it.. It is only the Lord who can unfold it in His Perfect Timing. Thank You Lord for such beautiful picture today... even as I reflect upon Your creation of a ROSE.. Amazing Lord.. I am amazed and awed by You.

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It is only a tiny rosebud,

A flower of God's design;

But I cannot unfold the petals

With these clumsy hands of mine.

The secret of unfolding flowers

Is not known to such as I.

GOD opens this flower so sweetly,

Then, in my hands, they die.

If I cannot unfold a rosebud,

This flower of God's design,

Then how can I have the wisdom

To unfold this life of mine?

So I'll trust in Him for leading

Each moment of my day.

I will look to Him for His guidance

Each step of the pilgrim way.

The pathway that lies before me,

Only my Heavenly Father knows.

I'll trust Him to unfold the moments,

Just as He unfolds the rose.

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Chirpping Sound??

Ya.. this morning at about 530am to 6am, I got waken up by chirpping of birds near my room window... chirpping chirpping away... mm.. birds got wake up so early one ah? mm.. or was it God who woke me up? Anyway, I chatted with Father while I still lying on the bed.. and hearing from Him.. and eventually, I slept again.. hehehe..

Had a long good sleep... was really exhausted and tired. well, was totally zonked out yesterday especially in the evening..

But coming back to the Chirpping sounds that I heard early this morning... it was really loud... and so chirppy and happy.. Interesting eh? mmm....... Very interesting, I would think..

Half day gone for today and I had another round of politics talk over lunch today.. Goodness me, this is really a hot hot topic of the month.. But I managed to pick up some interesting points while listening... Points to pray about when praying for the country... Think it is crucial for us to constantly be praying for the country..

Well.. I am off again.. till I write again.. maybe tomorrow morning as I won't be working.. hehe.. It is a public holiday.. :D Cool-est... *smile*...

Oops...

I am feeling it now.. sleepy oh.. especially after a heartiful (or is it hearty?? hehe) meal of nasi lemak... well, half day of work to do and then I can go home to zzz.. Lord, please sustain me with Your Strength and Grace.. Thank You Lord..

Stay within the Boundary or Stay on the Line??

I really woke up 5 plus but the latter part.. nearing to 6am already.. hehehe.. and thoughts of what Pr Dr Philip Lyn preached kept popping in my head.... So, just wanna blog it here... Should listen to the whole CD.. Highly recommended for anyone.. whether you are single or in courtship or married... For parents, it is good to learn so that your children can learn too..

Anyway, the one that stuck out for me this morning is the whole area of Physical level of Contact in courtship... Let me list them down in the following...

1. Holding hands
2. Putting hands on shoulders
3. Putting hands around the waist
4. Hugging
5. Short kiss
6. Looooog kiss
7. Caressing
8. Fondling
9. Heavy petting
10. Sexual intercourse

Pastor Lyn's list is slightly different from Pastor Daniel's list but about the same lar.. Anyway, what struck me the most is the part about the "LINE" mentality versus "BOUNDARY" mentality. If live by "Line" mentality, Pr Lyn said there is always the tendency of crossing over and before you know it, you are in trouble. He further emphasised that should have "Boundary" mentality, whereby have two steps back from the "agreed level". Always "court" physically by Boundary and not by Line... Simple yet very "profound".. and very true!... :)

But you know what, I think I like what Billy Graham and his wife modelled... Shall write more of that in the next post... I read about it somewhere so I will look that up...

Ooh.. I got to go.. Have some stuff to do before work... Great day ahead!.. hehe.. Hope I don't fall asleep due to tiredness...

Long Long Night...

Ya.. I reached home about 11:45pm. It has been a long while I come back so late.. but it was great time listening to friends talking about politics and I contributed a weeny bit of what I know.. heheh.. it was great except for the smoky thingy surrounding us.. Goodness me.. We were surrounded by smokers and now my hair is smoky..

But these friends could really talk politics.. hehehe.. Maybe one day, they will become politicians. hehe.. Anyway, I learnt alot though at times I was abit lost with the names.. hehehe.. me, not so there yet... a newbie to topic of politics... hehe..

Ok.. to rewind back abit, this evening, I was doing so many things after work... took passport photos for the visa purpose and got some stuff photostated and then, got stuck in SS2 due to the heavy downpour... So, decided to have dinner there.. at Secret Recipe... Their Cheese Fries is cool... but it has to be shared by two persons or more else it will be too much of it to eat alone.. Just imagine, me.. who loves fries found it abit too much to eat alone. Thereafter, driving home but the jam was pretty bad due to the rain (as usual)...

So, it took a while to reach home actually.. Got home, went for a quick shower and managed to watch abit of TV and I was out by 8:50pm to Taman Desa, the meeting place for supper... All the way, listening to the sermon by Pr Dr Philip Lyn.. Very good wo.. talking about courtship... basic guidelines/principles to courtship.. He is truly an anointed preacher... and a fun one too. :) Anyway, I am reminded of something as I listened to it.. Mm.. *me in deep thoughts now for a second* Just a second lar.. hehehe..

And as usual la.. the Federal Highway was jam.. but not tat bad.. certain sections and I finally reached the place.. and the rest, well, written up there lar..

Okie then.. thought I just want to blog this before I go to bed coz after all, this is another breakthrough to a certain extend.. Anyway, now, not sleepy wo.. Sleeping hour past already.. so, wide awake now but tomorrow, will suffer abit lor.. hehehe.. coz I'd still wake up at 5 plus in the morning lar..

And .. oh ya.. See? I cannot stop scribbling away... But I got to write this.. hehe.. I did a blunder without knowing it and yet I didn't get upset with myself but could actually laugh over it. This is so different from my old self.. I am happy with this new response.. COol-lest.. I am beginning to enjoy this.. hehehe... Think I wanna share this at Elijah House the next round.. perhaps.. hehehe.. Good night.... zzzzzz...

Miracle of God....

Hi.. Just wanna share this.. testimony of God's miracle in my life...

Last Friday, a dear friend messaged me via messenger, saying.. " u look so pretty.. the last few times i saw u.. *muax!*". She didn't know of the break-up when she made the comment.. After that, I channelled her to my blog lor.. She also gave me hugzz.. Thereafter, I thanked her, saying this... "It is nice to get compliments from u when u didn't know about the break up.."

She replied, "haha.. yalor... God has put a radiance in U, tho u r going thru this."

Isn't God great and good? *smile*.... Amen...

Good Daily Prayer to pray into our lives...

Got the following prayer from my daily devotion from the Vine.... Powerful prayer to pray into our lives... as the Lord says in Jeremiah 1:12 that "I am watching over My word to perform it." God loves us so very de much... :D

"Lord, Your Word says that if I call on You, You will answer me; You will be with me in trouble, You will honour me and You will deliver me (Psalm 91:15). You said that through the power of Your indwelling Spirit I would be set free from this vicious cycle of temptation, sin and failure (Romans 8:2). You said if I fully commit my life to You, I'd have the strength to stand up to the devil and he would flee from me (James 4:7). You said You have given me the power to pull down all my old mental strongholds and take control of every wayward thought, imagination, and impulse (2 Corinthians 10:5). You said that by reading Your Word each day and meditating on it, I would become a partaker of Your divine nature, and overcome the destructive tendencies of my flesh (2 Peter 1:4). You said I'd be strengthened in my mind, my emotions and my will; that my self-worth would be based solely on Your love for me; and that You would do exceedingly abundantly above all I could ask or think - because You are at work in me (Ephesians 3:14-21). Today I thank You for helping me to overcome this habit. In Christ's name, amen."

Fruitful yet Tired...

Yup.. had a fruitful yet tired weekend.. Fruitful in the sense that I have done a few important stuff that I am suppose to do. Still have some to do which I hope to finish them during the mornings before I go to work. And of course, there are usher duties that I am committed to do twice a month in my church. So, usually for ushering weekend, I am more tired than usual due to the running around. But God has been real good to bless the team with three new assistant leaders to co-lead with me. I am thankful for three of them. :)

Now, it is only 8:26pm and I am already "brain-dead" so to speak... Not able to function really well.. My bed is calling me.. "Vivien... Vivien...." hehehe.. Soon, I will be going to the dreamland.. Have to be sleeping earlier tonight coz tomorrow night, I will not be sleeping at 10pm.. Going out for supper with friends whom I haven't met for sometime already.. Wow.. that is something which I haven't been doing for a long long while. I think the feeling that I am having now is like a little girl going out to play first time after a long time... *laugh*...

Phew... I am exhausted... *yawn*... Well, better stop here, else don't know what will I scribble away...

Don't Quit!

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Don't Quit when the tide is lowest,

For it's just about to turn;

Don't Quit over doubts and questions,

For there's something you may learn.

Don't Quit when the night is darkest,

For it's just a while 'til down;

Don't Quit when you've run the farthest,

For the race is almost won.

Don't Quit when the hill is steepest,

For your goal is almost nigh;

Don't Quit, for you're not a failure

Until you fail to try.

-Jill Wolf-

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Copied this from a bookmark that I bought many years back, I think I bought it during my college days.. I love to buy bookmarks when I was younger... Stopped doing that now.. but with the current collection I have, I slowly giving them away to different ones, to bless them.. :)

Yup.. Don't Quit!.. Persistency and Perseverance... and Prayer.. that will keep us going and pressing in!.. But of course, provided we are walking obediently with God and in God in life and; not walking in life without God. That is the crucial difference.

Time to go now.. I have usher duty this morning.. hehe... Till the next time..

See the calmness and ....?

Taken this photo in Venice, Italy too.. I spotted the bird just sitting on top of the fat wood stick.. calm and steady.. yup, that is what I have in mind as I look deeper at the photo.. :)

Isn't it nice to be able to be the bird? to be free.... and to be calm and steady.. :) I recently read of a devotion that spoke of Inner Strength... the ability to be calm and steady regardless of situations and circumstances.. This inner strength could only be from the Lord... Only He could bless and sustain me and us.. :)

Another thought that came in was the ability to walk confidently in the Lord.... Lets look at Psalm 23: 3-5

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He restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.

You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.

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Inner Strength from God to face what is to come.. God very much talks about the crucial times that we are living in.. Even as I scribble away, I could feel it.. Lord, Lord, please help me and please help us to not miss any opportunity to glorify Your Name.. and that, I am ready and we are ready when the time comes...

Thank You Lord...

Have a cuppa coffeee.....

This photo was taken when I was in Italy last year... To be precise, I was in Venice and this is my most expensive cup of coffee I ever drank.. so, must make full use of it.. It was the only quiet half an hour by myself throughout the trip... Now, thinking back, think this half an hour or so was what I needed.. The trip was pretty stress for me, to be frank about it.. but I appreciated this window of half an hour eventhough after that, some untoward incidents took place... Thank You God... and I enjoyed the coffee.. if I am not wrong, it was cappucino.. my favorite..

Yippee...

Why yippee? remember I wrote about going to the Promised Land? hehehe.. things are more or less confirmed and I am going to Israel for the very first time. This is one of my dreams.. to walk in the land where Jesus walked.. :)

Well, still have to continue to pray for smoothness of things as I prepare for it.. The church organises this for us.. and I hope to catch God's timely vision and words as I walk the land of Israel.. Please pray with me even as you have read this posting.. I just want to walk in obedience in the Lord all the days of my life..

Shall scribble more of this when the time nearing... but in the meantime, I want to get myself equipped and prepared for the trip... :)

7 "W"s - further scribbles

As I was looking and reflecting further of what I had written about the 7 "W"s... this idea came to write further.. Let see where I will go as I scribble on.. :)

Well, I thought it would be interesting to add on examples of questions that would be asked.. Mmm, I have asked these questions at some point of my life.. Not all questions at one go but I have asked them as I journey through life.. And, most times, I ask these questions unto our Lord, trusting that He would answer in His Timing.. Examples as follows... examples of my own questions..

• Why this Lord? Why not that?
• Where am I to go? Where is this leading to?
• What am I to do? What am I to learn?
• Which path am I to take?
• When am I to do this or go?
• Who am I to meet? Who are going with me?
• hoW am I to do this? hoW am I to know?

Another thought came in is that these "W"s could be used when we study the Word of God.. asking questions to reflect deeper and deeper as we read His Word. This is one of the ways to challenge our mind to think and to expound on His Word and to learn how to lead a life that is pleasing to Him.

I remember that my mom used to tell me that when I just started talking, I just love to ask questions.. ask questions of "WHY"s..... till my parents just not able to answer.. yet, I would continue to ask... Hehe.. maybe that is why years down the road, I became an Internal Auditor.. Always curious about stuff and asking questions.. Anyway, along the way, I learnt that it requires much discernment from God to know the right questions to ask.. and not shoot like machine gun.. headlessly...

Wisdom from God to pose the right questions out... that is a wise thing to do. :)

The 7th "W".....

Ah.. finally remembered... the seventh "W" is "Which".... hehe.. that completes the Seven "W"s....

• Why
• Where
• When
• Who
• What
• Which
• hoW

Hehe.. this ends my post for this..... wonder does it make sense? mm.. well, I enjoyed writing this.. hehe...

The SeVen "W"s....

They are .... the.... "Why", "Who", "Where", "hoW", "When", "What", and... I forgotten the seventh.. mm.. what is it?? mmm..... I am still thinking... er.. I always forgot about the seventh.. This is tricky...

Anyway, my point for today is that these are words that we usually use to ask questions... and I personally feel it is important to ask questions with these words... then, can have a better and bigger picture of things or people in any situations...

Hehe.. This thought came to me early in the morning when I was lazing in bed.... and I wanna blog it!...

Friday is here already... so fast...... much much to do...... ta...

"P" & "P"..... what is that?

From yesterday to tommorow, my church (DUMC) is having our three days fast and prayer... Every morning for this three days, we have morning prayer at 5:30am.. I went this morning and I was tremendously blessed and edified.

Our Senior Pastor shared something which really spoke to me alot.. that is the whole area about Perseverance in Prayer.. Ya.. that is the "P" & "P" I am talking about... Perseverance and Prayer... SP shared from Luke 18:1-8 which speaks about the persistency of a widow.. I took the liberty of posting the verses in the following.. May the Word of God speaks for Itself..

The Parable of the Persistent Widow

Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. He said: "In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared about men. And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, 'Grant me justice against my adversary.'

"For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, 'Even though I don't fear God or care about men, yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won't eventually wear me out with her coming!' "

And the Lord said, "Listen to what the unjust judge says. And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?"

Also lets look at the book of Daniel.... as follows.. amazing stuff SP shared...

In Daniel 9:22 - 23, the Word of God says.. ".....He instructed me and said to me, "Daniel, I have now come to give you insight and understanding. As soon as you began to pray, an answer was given, which I have come to tell you, for you are highly esteemed. Therefore, consider the message and understand the vision:...."

In Daniel 10:12, the Word of God says.. "....Then he continued, 'Do not be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them.'...."

yup.. "as soon as prayer begins".. and "since the first day of praying".... God already hears and He already sends the angels to come.. However, it may seem to us that it is taking a little time or rather sometimes, a long time... Why? most times, it is because of the distance of our hearts.. Our hearts are far away and it takes time for the angels of God to reach us..

Wow.. that makes lots of sense.. We are all called to persevere in prayers.. and not to give up..but, Press in!.. God's help is on the way... So, we are called to be faithful, to have fervor and to have Faith... Faith in praying... Faith to believe God for great and mighty things.. :)

A good prayer to pray if.....

I got the following prayer from somewhere few months ago.. I think it could be from one of the daily devotions that I received and it touched my heart... so, I wrote it on "post-it" and pasted it in my office room.. Today, just felt that I want to share this here... This prayer could be prayed in any situations.. especially during times where things/ situations just seem so impossible.. The Lord desires to hear us pray and converse with Him.. Read on...

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Father,

It feels like I'm in an impossible situation with no way out. I need to feel Your presence, the encouragement of Your Spirit, and to be reminded that with You all things are possible. Bring the answers of Heaven to my earthly situation. Touch it with Your Grace.

On the outside things look hopeless, but You're the God who created the earth from nothing and rolled back the Red Sea so Your Children could cross over safely. You make the blind see, the lame walk, and the deaf hear. Today I thank You that You're my God, and with you nothing is impossible.

In Jesus' Most Precious Name I pray, Amen.

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Crossing The Jordan River.....

I have written the following sharing a few years back and though it was written way before our church move to Dream Centre (we move in September 2007), I think it is good to share it here today, as a reminder for me as well as for those who are reading.. God's Word is relevant to different ones at different times. I also begin to realise more that as the Lord speaks so much yet how much could I understand.. I do wonder alot of times about that.. Gladly, I am assured by Him that in His Time, I will understand.. in His Time, things would be clearer and clearer.. like jigsaw puzzle... :) Read on and be blessed..

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This was something that I have prayed, reflected upon and written for a mini sermon shared with my cell group members during our October 2005 CG retreat at Allson Kelana... Amazing how God helped me to gather the thoughts and came with the following just by reading and reflecting on Joshua chapter 3 and chapter 4.... Even as I spoke during the retreat, could literally feel God speaking through me... It really wasn't me speaking.... It was God.... Awesome experience and I pray that there will be more and more of such experiences in the coming days....

Background: The Israelites have been wandering in the desert for 40 years. Finally, they were allowed to enter the land promised to their fathers. The Jordan river is like the boundary between the desert and promised land. As you read Joshua 3 and 4, close your eyes and imagine the environment then, the response of the people then, etc. Imagine/ visualize; put yourselves in the shoes of Israelites. What is the one thought that come to your mind? What do you think your expectations would be? Any fears?

Perhaps some of us are going through the desert period; or the moments of waiting like at the boundary of Jordan waiting to cross over or in the journey of crossing the Jordan, walking step by step. As we walk, we see God’s hands working.

There are many lessons to be learnt from this. But we focus on 4 lessons to be learnt for today.

1. Listen to Instructions (Chp 3:2; 3); Be Obedient
I believe as the Israelites were preparing to cross over, there were some who were fearful of what is ahead. Some went with faith, excited, some wondered what is happening but followed along anyway.
It is ok not to know everything but most importantly is to know that God holds our future. So, where do our instructions come from? It is from the book of Life, the Word of God.

2. Chest of Covenant, the Ark of God’s covenant (Chp 3:14, 17; 4:17)
God’s presence goes before us. And also it was there until everyone crossed the river, meaning God’s presence will not leave us. So, we need to ask God’s presence to go before and with us in everything that we do. When His presence goes with us, there will be peace and smoothness.

3. Miracle of God (Chp 3:15-16)
What the Israelites went through was extreme. Why is that? So that we can know that God can do anything and everything. He will turn the most impossible to possible. Just imagine why did they need to cross over during flood time when the river current was the strongest and most violent? God gives us miracles and assurance so that we would truly know of His existence and power. Chp 4:24 says “He did this so that all the peoples of the earth might know that the hand of the LORD is powerful and so that you might always fear the LORD your God.”

4. Remember This Day! (Chp 4:5)
In our lives, we also had many Miracles from God. It may not be so extreme but we need to remember them and be thankful. For a start, the fact that all of us are saved is a miracle. Salvation is a miracle from God. So, we need to remind ourselves because human being after a while, tend to forget. One way of remembering is to keep journal. Or even put small little cards in places where we could see and remind ourselves.

We need to remember it because when we go through tough times, we can hold on to God because of the Lord’s goodness to us.

I personally believe that our church at this stage is going through such a journey, crossing the Jordan. That is my own personal view as I studied these two chapters. As a CG or as family or as individual, to be in line with the church’s vision, we too will be going through it. We may not see it that clearly now or we may have seen it, in the spirit.

In fact, a lot of us have gone through many transitions in life. Just for example, my own self, within a year plus, I have gone through many transitions. From a job to study of six months to part time job and then to a job….. In the midst of that, became a cell leader, gone through changes in the family to having sister in law and soon a nephew. Some of you as you know yourselves have gone through transitions or are going through transitions in life. As we go through the various transitions, may it be tough or easy, heart lifting or heart breaking, we need to be reminded of the above four lessons.

If it is time for us to cross over, He will bring us over. But if we are to wait, we need to wait in Him, in His presence.

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A little....

Can't blog much this time.. Time to work actually.. well.. Thursday is here already and so much to do.. Keep on pressing on.. :)

Leaving a phrase... "Rejoice in all circumstances knowing that God is in Control..." :) Have a blessed day ahead...

Devotion Reading: Intimacy with God...

Devotion on 28th February 2008... yet it speaks again......

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Spiritual Intimacy
That I may... become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him.
Philippians 3:10 AMP

In Genesis 2:25 we read, "The man and his wife were both naked and were not ashamed" (NAS). That's intimacy! But the ultimate intimacy is not with your husband or wife; it's with God! And Paul didn't just pray for it, he pursued it: "[For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognising and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly]" (Philippians 3:10 AMP). Can you say that? Or do you sing His praises with a mind that's elsewhere? Are you so critical that you sound like an unbeliever? Paul would respond this way: "My aim is for that never to be true of me. I'll pursue a relationship with God that's so close, He and I will walk together whatever comes." That should be our goal too! Our tendency is to get busier and busier. As a result our walk with God stays shallow and our tank runs low. Spiritual intimacy offers a full tank that can only be found by pulling up closer to God, which requires taking the time and effort to make it happen.

Intimacy with God doesn't take place overnight. Your friends and family will misunderstand you. Your flesh will work against you. Adverse circumstances will come to discourage you. If it came easily everyone would be experiencing it. No, the prize goes to those who can say, "[For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him]."
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May you be blessed and edified...

Whirl change of direction...

"like the wind.." I called it.. This thought popped up this morning as I drove to work.. and I eagerly went to office and wanna look up for meanings of "wind"...

One of the many explanation of Wind as follows...

"Movement of air relative to the surface of the Earth. Wind is an important factor in determining and controlling climate and weather. It is also the generating force of most ocean and freshwater waves. Wind occurs because of horizontal and vertical differences in atmospheric pressure. The general pattern of winds over the Earth is known as the general circulation, and specific winds are named for the direction from which they originate (e.g., a wind blowing from west to east is a westerly). Wind speeds are often classified according to the Beaufort scale." (Britannica Concise Encyclopedia)

... which I thought is what I have in mind.... important factor in determining and controlling.... and is the generating force... mm....

What am I trying to blog here? mm.. it boggles my mind too.. but these thoughts came this morning even as I took time to do stuff and to prepare for the day.... Interesting how thoughts could come and linger on a while enough to be caught and written about.. Anyway, it may mean nothing or it may mean something in the hours to come or days to come.. mm.... Have a great day ahead.. I know I would.. *wink*

bzzzz.... here and there... bzzzzz...

Looks like the polling results have truly created impact and awaken the people in that sense.. Coming to office today and everyone including myself talking about the polling results and the various reactions of different parties.. Mm.. I am still surprised with the results.. but I believe that this is happening at this hour and at this time for a purpose and reason that only the Lord God would know and reveal in due time..

I am pondering and wondering how things are going to be like in the days to come.. Will there be changes? Lots or little? Better? Praying for integrity of heart for the elected politicians that as they hold the position and power now, they would be accountable and transparent in their handling of matters in the office. That was what we as Christians are called to pray and intercede because it would not be easy for them.. I was reminded again by Pr D during his sermon yesterday morning.. Truly, it is vital to remember these politicians in prayers as they would be under alot of attacks and temptations when they are up there with position and power.

With this, a thought came was the heart of man/woman.. how vulnerable the heart is.. and the Word of God talks alot about the heart... Just amazing how much God talks about the heart.. the need to guard it, the need to have a pure heart... etc.. etc.. Below are two verses out of many verses....

All a man's ways seem right to him, but the LORD weighs the heart. (Proverbs 21:2)

Who can say, "I have kept my heart pure; I am clean and without sin"?

(Proverbs 20:9)

mm.. maybe I should study more of the heart.. and try to understand the heart as talked about in the Word of God... Going back to His Word and discovering further insights and truths.. Lord, please grant me the sensitivity and discernment as I reflect and ponder..... Thank You Lord..

Step by Step....

.... Prayer by Prayer....... God will get us there...

• for us as Nation... and;
• for us as Family... and;
• for us as Individual.....

All that is required is, "step by step, prayer by prayer, obedience to the Lord God Almighty in our lives.. "

Simple isn't it? Yup.. but along the way, lets not complicate things by adding other expectations or things.. I realise that for myself.. I realise that many a times, I am adding things to complicate this simple way of living.. Lord, have mercy on me.

This week will be a wonderful week ahead... :) I wanna walk in obedience to Him... and also continue to dream in the midst of it all...... hehehehe.........

ps.. the letters of this post were intentionally made larger for emphasis purpose.. hehe..

New Light of Day for the Nation?

Today, I went to church, with the sense of.. mm.. awe... about things happening around me and in the Nation.. and I went with an observing mind and heart as I drove and also walked quietly and gently into the Sanctuary. Somehow, there is this sense of "difference" in the atmosphere which I just couldn't find any words to describe it yet I knew it is there.. mm.. Lord, You are definitely doing something here..

Part of Pastor's Daniel sermon that struck me the most was the part about dreaming.. and about Joseph, the dreamer. Think I am also a dreamer and I love to dream big dreams too.. And today, it is so assuring to hear from my own Senior Pastor saying from the pulpit that it is good to dream big dreams for God.. I have a handful of big dreams, some prophesies given by prophets but still not seeing any of them coming to light in terms of being fulfilled.. Yet, I know it is in the Lord's timing that slowly and surely things would fall into the right places, right slots.. and I know I would again be amazed by His Move and Timing. So, I continue to dream big dreams for God.. yippee... to do the little things even at this juncture of life.. and moving step by step as the Lord leads.... waiting upon the Lord, hearing and feeling His heartbeat...

Much are to take place in the days to come.. I could feel it and sense it.. I am praying and waiting upon the Lord... And, interestingly, today, for the first time, I could really feel for Malaysia.. could really feel.. unlike in the past, where I wasn't interested and don't even know who are who in the politics.. Mm.. I hope this new sense of feelings that I have would be flamed stronger in the days to come to encourage me to want to know more and to pray more for the Nation... Thank You Lord for watering the seed within me for Malaysia.. :)

Much work to be done in my life too as the Lord molds me and shapes me... but I am comforted to know that it is He who loves me so much that He wants me to grow and grow in Him.. All it takes is obedience to Him. Who says it is going to be easy? Like Pr D said today, it is costly to follow Jesus. It requires the laying down of lives.. but then.. it is better to suffer for doing right than to suffer for doing wrong in life.. oh yeah....

Lets press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:14

... At the foot of the CROSS.....

This morning waking up with such a need to blog this post.. Remembering that I wrote on the post about "Judgement"... where the Word of God clearly says that we are not to judge anyone in any circumstances even when we are wronged unfairly. And I mentioned that I have learnt a tip from my experience on how to handle it... not easy but it works because... well, read on...

My spiritual godmother taught me about putting all at the foot of the Cross... During my recent experience and even up till now and I think even for the days to come, the one and only thing I do is to put all those feelings that are not right (meaning, pointing towards judgement and stuff) at the foot of the Cross. It is a constant effort to do that but I find that now, I automatically do it and it becomes abit more natural. The first few times, I had to grit my teeth to do it but God's Grace and Mercy brought me thus far.. and I believe He is bringing me even further still in the days to come.

The next step would be to bless the person or the people. Of course, that is definitely not easy yet it is required of me and it could be done with being obedient to the Lord. It could be done with the need to ask myself, "where is my Focus?". If my focus is on Jesus, then it could be done because He wants me to bless. But if my focus is on my hurts and wounds, then, it couldn't be done. Yet, I know that my focus is on Jesus and so, I could do it for He will give me the Grace to do it. Gritting teeth again initially but gradually, it becomes more natural.. That is what I am experiencing even at this hour.. and I am able to write coz I am seeing it clearer in my own journey at this juncture and also with the teaching at Elijah House.

The key is OBEDIENCE to Him and to His Word. Tough as it can be initially but it becomes easier after few times and in fact, after that, the person who is most blessed is Me.. Wow.. I am feeling so free, more than I could fathom.. And the healing process is much faster than normal.. Amazingly true..

Dying to SELF and putting all at the foot of the CROSS... Lord Jesus is there... so, I am not alone. And no one else would be alone. Why? Because, He is there. Lord Jesus is there...

Be blessed by this song... "At the Foot of the Cross... "....

Full yet fruitful day....

Gosh.. today is truly a full yet fruitful day... Full in the sense that I have to travel up from Sitiawan to PJay.. It was a smooth drive and I was listening to Peter Tsukahira's teaching of Jubilee Conference on Spiritual Multiplication. Again very profound stuff to listen and to reflect upon...

This morning when I woke up, it was 630am.. time to wake up to get ready for election and then drive out to Pjay.. but before that I woke up at 330am coz my little nephew managed his way through to my place and gave some of his super kicks.. I woke up, wondering who was pushing me.. Ah.. this little fella.. And before I knew it, he went back to his own sleeping place.. hehehe..

Well.. as usual, mom fed me with sumptuous food.. had two half boiled eggs and my favourite mee-sua in chicken soup.. This chicken soup is double boiled without water. Meaning, it is pure chicken soup, very nutritious.. heheh.. Mom loves me very much, ya.. always concerns over my well-being, health and all areas of my life.. and she just loves to make sure that I eat well. Thanks mom.. :)

Then, I headed to my former school, SM Methodist (ACS), Sitiawan where the polling station is situated. Yup, my very first time to exercise my voting right.. heheh.. Well, it is just like 5 minutes away from my house in sitiawan.. and to my surprise, there was not many people there.. perhaps, it was still early. I just casually walking towards the classroom where I was suppose to cast my vote... mm.. it was the classroom next to my Form One classroom.. That brought back some memories when I was in Form One.. Time flies coz that would be like 18 years ago.. gosh.. that long ago, huh?.. mm.. wowow... Also, got to meet two familiar faces at the school today.. they were my fellow MYFers from Wesley Church (where I worshipped when I was in secondary school).

Anyway, there were like 7 to 8 people before me... so, i waited for a while and before I knew it, it was my turn.. Well.. I went into the classroom.. did what others had done... hehe.. I observed people before me la.. just in case I make mistakes.. It was very easy, actually.. I have already made up my mind who to vote for.. hehehe.. that is for me to know only.. hahaha.. Everything was done by 8:20am and I was off, on my way out to PJay.. and it was smooth drive coz not much of traffic. However, went past many polling stations along the way with so many flags and banners of all the parties...

Was driving out, hoping to reach the earliest possible to go for Elijah House Basic School One - Week 3.. By the Grace of God, I managed to reach the venue at 11:40am and came in just in time to hear the teaching about forgiveness, particularly about praying a Gethsemane prayer.. mm.. God knows my heart and this was exactly what I needed to hear.. I have been conversing with Him about the whole area of forgiveness the past weeks.. and in His graciousness and timing, God is revealing little by little stuff I need to deal with deeply in my heart. What is Gethsemane prayer? mm.. looking at Jesus at Gethsemane.. in Matthew 26:36-46. I find this is truly an amazing insight of forgiveness.. God never fails to teach me once again on the whole area of forgiveness from different perspective.. This is something I would like to further explore and asking God to reveal even more in depth and maybe then, I could write a detailed post on it.. :)

Also, learning about Repentance and Restitution today.. another big area to look at and ponder upon.. the True Repentance versus Simple Remorse. I particularly like what was taught about Davidic Repentance (2 Samuel 11 to 12) versus Saulish Repentance (1 Samuel 13 to 15). Shall study more to know a little more of the heart of God..

After the School, I went for a quick dinner with Mei Fong... was feeling tired.. after all the driving and travelling and also learning.. God truly has sustained me throughout the day, enabling me to sit through the school with alertness and strength. Thank You Lord.

Well, but I still blog a fair bit tonight.. Just wanted to blog a bit.. and to check some emails and stuff on facebook.. yup.. presenting "My Full yet fruitful day.... " hehehehe.......... yawn....... night night...

Munchy... munch..

Think I over-ate today.. Had a full breakfast and also a very full lunch.. mm.. feeling very much blotted now.. geez... I better slow down for today.. heheh.. but wait, ordering some pizzas for dinner tonight.. Think I won't eat that much la.. hopefully..

Got some time before I start work again.. mm.. what should I write about.. shall not talk about food coz I am feeling "jelat" thinking of it.. hehe.. but my title is pointing at food wo.. mm.. so, how?

Oh ya.. lets talk about Donut then.. just love donuts.. My highest recommendation for a traditional donut would be to go to San Francisco Coffee House... To me, they have the best donut in town.. a nice fluffy and big donut.. heheh.. To me, that is really nice..

Last night, we had donuts as part of our supper after CG.. Donuts from Big Apple.. with many varieties.. Lovely.. I enjoy looking at the different types.. my favorite ones are those with the snowy look and chocolate-y looks... don't know the exact names to them.. Also the other part of supper were some fried crispy food which are nice too.. aii.. I was eating too much for supper last night.. hehehe.... but I just couldn't resist... yummy.... "thanks girls for bringing the food... Fiona and Chin Yi"

*yawn*.. goodness.. feeling sleepy at noon time.. mm.. not good eh.. guess I am feeling tired today and with the full stomach, it doesn't help.. hehe.. it adds to the sleepiness. Well, there are work to do and finish before I am on leave tomorrow. Yup.. gonna be on leave tomorrow.. Going home to Sitiawan tomorrow early morning.. mainly, for voting on Saturday.. and of course, to see mom and nephew.. Looking forward to that since I haven't been seeing them for some time now..

Also, there are a few things I need to accomplish when I go home.. else, I will not get to do them when I am out in PJ.. hopefully, I can manage to finish them.. :)

Hehe.. today, I am blogging about every other thing.. Just in a rather "lazy" mood.. even my colleague also commented that I look some-what "lazy".. oops...

Kay, better be off... till I blog again....... *hugzzz*.......

Amazing...

Just want to write on how amazing things are... Last night CG was wonderful.. Amazingly wonderful. We are so blessed with our newest member to the group who pampered us with gifts... Thanks Chin Yi.. You have truly touched my heart to see and feel your warmth and joy.. The joy of the Lord that overflows within and from you.. :D

Amazing as well to hear myself talking more and opening up more in the CG.. Amazing to see God's miraculous healing power.. just like one of my CG member commented.. Even as I shared, I reflected more and again I am amazed and thought, "hey.. this is truly amazing and awesome.. Thank You Lord". The loving kindness of God just again and again touching my heart... Hmmm... It is nice.. :D hehe..

Truly wonderful to enjoy the love and peace of God and the joy of the Lord.. and be able to flow comfortably in His Presence.. mm.. Yup.. tat is what I am feeling... to flow in His Presence.. Lovely..

Well.. we talked much about FAITH... and I shared about the phrase "A Long Obedience in the Same Direction". And another thing came up was there will be adversaries and preparations... we are to walk the steps of Abraham.. and do not shrink back in spite of situations.

The Word of God says... in Hebrews 10:38-39...

But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him. But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved.

Habakkuk 2:4 says... "See, he is puffed up; his desires are not upright - but the righteous will live by his faith-"

Living by FAITH... COURAGE comes hand in hand with Faith.. Interestingly, my CG member also commented that marriage is not for the "faint-hearted" but for the "lion-hearted" which means it is for the "FAITH-hearted"... hehe.. Yup.. "bingo".. It requires faith and courage to go into marriage.. Another amazing stuff... God amazes me all over again.. and come to think of it.. Once got into marriage, it is also a long obedience in the same direction.. Wow.. God's truth applies in all areas of our lives.. every angle and every aspect.. Thank You Father for clarity and affirmation..

And CG members, if you are reading this.. thanks Guys.. for much support and love. Lets continue to press on for God.. walk the steps of Abraham.... *wink*...

Me Glowing? *laugh*

Actually, I really like what I saw in the photos for myself.. hehehehe.. vanity of a gal.. but I am amazed by myself.. geez.. so vain.. I know it is the touch of God that I am glowing... "Thank You Abba Father. You are the Best!" Anyway, these photos were taken at the recent wedding dinner I went to.. J-son and Esther's wedding..

And this was the comment from a friend (hehe.. you know who you are ah..)

"Great to see you at the wedding! You looked so lovely and radiant :)" Thanks girl..

I am sitting right in the middle....

Me on the far right...

Interesting Quote...

"A Long Obedience in the Same Direction..... "

This phrase I heard on the CD this morning just spoke to me.. Phrase that was shared by Rev Irvin Rutherford during the sermon on Saturday celebration. Just want to write this as a short post this morning..

A Long Obedience in the same direction in all the things that I am called by God to do... and all these require FAITH... faith-walking.. mm.. and the questions that I have is how long is long? and which direction? hehe.. mm.. something to think further and deeper about...

Shall reflect on this throughout the day... believing God has something more to say about this.. :)

God and Time....

This song was introduced by my friend.. and I find it truly lovely.. and it is just amazing listening to it.. hope some will be ministered through this song...



Artist: Newsong
Album: Sheltering Tree
Title: God and Time

I know you wished that you had been there to say goodbye
I know you wished that you could turn back the hands of time
i know the pain of loss you're feelin'
is almost more than you can bear
but let me give you hope in your despair

Chorus:
All you need is God and time to heal your broken heart
God and time to lift you up from where you are
I don't have all the answers to all your questions why
All i know is all you really need is God and time

Only God can truly understand how His healing works
and how He uses time in our lives to overcome our hurts
but one thing you can be sure of, He is not surprised
by anything that happens in your life

Chorus

Bridge:
I know this side of heaven we may never understand
but we can trust the heart of God and know
we're always in His hands

Chorus

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I just love this phrase... "God is not surprised by anything that happens in your life".. woow... He is not surprised... He knows... Amazing isn't it? :)

Good night....

Good night and Sweet dreams..

Won't be writing much tonight as really need my beauty sleep. I have been naughty lately as I haven't really been sleeping early when I am suppose to.. and the interesting part is that I still get up at 5 plus in the morning.. mm.. maybe God is telling me something here...

Also, been getting some sort of prickly heat rash on my face which is pretty annoying.. it is like many little pimple-like dots on the face.. Went to see the doctor this evening and he gave me some cream to apply. Hopefully it would go off in a few days time.. Initially I was rather concerned that it could be allergy reaction to food that I have taken. Thank God that doctor said it is not.. It is probably due to weather, sweat or even food consumptions.. the diet..

Well.. do pray that it will go off soon.. heheh.. vanity of a girl la.. as usual..

kay then.. time for zzzzz.......... dreaming of... the garden where there is waterfall... waiting to be found.... *grinning*... beautiful picture that was released to me last Saturday...

Are all of us like prodigal son?

A devotion that I read and it really spoke to me... as I reflecting and seeking God as to what He is say here...

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Prodigal, Come Home!

I will arise and go to my father.
Luke 15:18

The prodigal son demanded his inheritance before he was ready for it, and it turned out to be the worst thing that could have happened to him. He "set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine… So he went and hired himself out to a citizen… who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything" (Luke 15:13-16 NIV). Solomon writes, "There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death" (Proverbs 14:12 NIV). What seems like a good idea today may cost you dearly tomorrow. So trust God when He says "no", and thank Him when He pulls back on the reins.

In Luke Chapter 15 Jesus points out that the shepherd went looking for the lost sheep, the woman went looking for the lost silver, but nobody went looking for the lost son. He took himself away, he let himself down, he picked himself up, he brought himself back. Nobody is going to do this for you. You must do it! The prodigal son said, "I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him, 'Father, I have sinned'." Notice three important statements. (a) "I will arise." Everybody falls; the winners are the ones who get back up again. (b) "And go back to my father." If you are sick of religion - try Jesus. He won't disappoint you! (c) "And will say to Him, Father, I have sinned."

Today, pray and make things right between you and your Heavenly Father.
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I am reminded this morning of this one particular area of my life where there are wrong stuff that I have been doing.. and this devotion really spoke to me of His Grace and Mercy.. Mm.. Also want to write that, as small as the wrong doing may be, it is still a sin.. It is regardless of the size or volume or seriousness of the wrongdoing. They are all still sins and I still need to confess, repent and ask for forgivenenss.. I realised that very much this morning.. I am asking God to reveal to me the things of my heart and to convict me "gently" the areas where I need to confess, repent and ask for forgiveness.. Gosh, there are plenty but He is gracious and kind.. He is revealing one by one.. and in His time.. And the beautiful thing is I can make mistakes and it is ok to fail. What matters most to God is how I respond after I realise that I make mistakes or after I fail. Thank You O Lord.. :D