WWJD

This is my question I want to ask as I look at every task or situation that is before me.. for, honestly, I just feel really weak.. unclear in my tiny brain.. Feel like nothing is stable.. EXCEPT.. in Him... And I don't think I could decide anything with my own rationale.. Hence, will solely ask this question..

"What Would Jesus Do?"

And trust Him to help me in my thoughts.. Trust Him for wisdom to speak clearly and be confident in Him.. It is not me at work, it is Him who is at work.... :)

God, are you with me?

Is Your presence here with me?

Is this place where I am suppose to be?

Or Is there another place that I am suppose to go?

Father, I know You hear my cry and my prayer.. Let me hear You.. 

Let me hear Your voice clearly for You are speaking all the time, Lord.. 

All that I have is from You..

Nothing belongs to me..

And I just want to praise You..

I just want to live a life that honors Your Name..

Walk the journey in obedience to Your Will for me..

It is simple yet not that simple..

Teach me Lord again to walk step by step..

Trusting You a little bit more.. and extra more.. 

*smile*

Stronger...by Mandisa...

Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you ...

Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmania.com/stronger_lyrics_mandisa.html

links and connections..

Because of God's love, we are all connected to many and many of His children.. all over the world.. and it is such a beautiful picture... to learn how to love and care for one other..; to inspire..; to protect..; to challenge, sometimes..; to just being there for one another..

I am thankful to Him for all my friends.. in all the forms and shapes that we are all in.. for all the connections He has allowed me to have.. whether short or long... whether on the surface or in depth.. Each is precious and significant. I feel very blessed as I reflect and give thanks to Him!.. *dancing in my heart, praising Him!*

few more pieces.. or just one more piece?

As I reflect today during my 1st retreat day in Agape.. Just felt that there are missing pieces... and the Lord will make them clear in His timing as to what, where, who, how they are.. At this moment, I have no clue what so ever.. maybe a little clue here and there but was about it.. 

Sometimes.. it can be rather challenging to be in this state and yet the peace of God is all I need to be where I am.. to trust Him a little more.. and to learn how to deal with the unbelief that I may have and I know I have them!.. I would be lying to say I have none.. *grin*

And,.. there are times where I would try to see if certain things fit into the picture He has for me.. Hence, this picture.. It can be rather discouraging when I thought that this could be the right piece but yet when trying to fit into the picture, it doesn't fit.. Oh well.. it is a matter of letting that go and wait.. hee.. and He has given me so much grace and love that I know with all my heart that it is worth the wait..

Even as I reflect about His goodness.. I just so thankful for His Love.. everlasting Love.. and the knowledge and truth that He will never fail me and He will provide exactly what I need and many a times, He would bless me with the things of my heart's desires which are just so mind-blowing that He cares so much to do that? *wink*

Our God reigns...

This tune just stuck in my head today after I heard it in church..... that truly, He reigns.. and
He reigns in all situations!..
How comforting that is.. really! Especially for me.. and I just wanna proclaim that indeed He reigns!.. And this allows me to recognise that I do have unbelief and able to ask God,
 "Lord, help me overcome my unbelief"
 (like the father in Mark 9:23 - 25) oooh.. Just love it when I am able to hear Him.. *grin*

A Life of God-worship...

Today at an event in church titled "God doesn't do waste".. this particular bible passage that was shared spoke to me... Matthew 6: 19-34 in 'Message' version.. 

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 ^19-21"Don't hoard treasure down here where it gets eaten by moths and corroded by rust or—worse!—stolen by burglars. Stockpile treasure in heaven, where it's safe from moth and rust and burglars. It's obvious, isn't it? The place where your treasure is, is the place you will most want to be, and end up being.

 ^22-23"Your eyes are windows into your body. If you open your eyes wide in wonder and belief, your body fills up with light. If you live squinty-eyed in greed and distrust, your body is a dank cellar. If you pull the blinds on your windows, what a dark life you will have!

 ²⁴"You can't worship two gods at once. Loving one god, you'll end up hating the other. Adoration of one feeds contempt for the other. You can't worship God and Money both.

 ^25-26"If you decide for God, living a life of God-worship, it follows that you don't fuss about what's on the table at mealtimes or whether the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds.

 ^27-29"Has anyone by fussing in front of the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? All this time and money wasted on fashion—do you think it makes that much difference? Instead of looking at the fashions, walk out into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They never primp or shop, but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best-dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them.

 ^30-33"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.

 ³⁴"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.

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And the speaker talked something about relationships too.. that we are just too easy to waste relationships and not make effort to reconcile. Instead our first reaction is to get rid of relationships that are challenging rather quickly.. That really made me think.. and start thinking and reflecting on the relationships that I have.. And I think it is true.. somehow, the way how we respond is affected by the "consumerism" behaviour.. which is scary if we are sucked into that.

There is this one particular friendship that I am praying for restoration and reconciliation.. hmm.. wonder what would happen.. All I know is, it is in God's safe hands.. and that is good enough for me.. and I believe that in His Time, it will be restored and reconciled in a beautiful way... even though at this moment it looks very bleak!.. God can change the impossible to possible.. *grin*

Verdict on 16th June 2011...

My appointment with the Home Office is scheduled to be on 16th June 2011, 10am at Solihull branch.. This will determine whether I am staying on in Birmingham for the coming two years or not.. I will know whether I am getting the work visa.. First time ever I am going to Home Office in person.. hee.. Please pray with me.. as I fill in the form, make sure the necessary documents ready for inspection and that all things are in order to get the "green" light! If this is the will of God for me...

Kay.. time to zzz.. and wake up early to fill up the form.. :D

Serious?

(Pic from this website)

I think I am serious.. I am feeling homesick.. maybe it is the current living environment that is making me homesick? The sense of feeling trapped.. oh dear.. Why am I feeling this at this moment of time? I don't think it has anything to do with my friend-cum-landlady or does it?.. but there could be some hidden buttons being exposed and pressed that I could possibly need to face and overcome? Need to ask the good Lord...

This is so crazy but the feelings are real.. Well, at least I think they are real!.. I just want to go homeeeeeeeeeeeee.. It doesn't make sense, actually.. Hmm..  Lord, have mercy on me, please.. SOS! Or I wonder is it because I am burden-carrying for someone? The feelings are unbearable.. and I think I am possibly burden-carrying for someone.. for I hardly feel homesick!.. Lord, please allow me to differentiate.. and to pray and to intercede.. I need Your strength O Lord.. Thank You O Lord.. 

Directions..

Somehow, it just struck me today as I am at my 'old' friend's place, having to meet up with friends of 20-odd years.. that, the choices we made in life does determine where we are at and the directions we are going to take.. Well, I do know that but yet, today, it struck me more.. Hmm.. and even for myself, I never thought I would be where I am today.. the very things that I thought are important are no longer important anymore.. It would be nice to have them but I somehow have no urgency or urge to must have them. Perspectives have changed? Priorities have changed? Perhaps. And the beautiful and amazing discovery is that I am at peace with God and with myself and happy for others to have them.. the 'successes' in life.. Deep down, I believe God will provide them in His Time.. for He knows my desires and needs. *grin*

And the whole idea of not comparing with others does make a huge difference.. It is so easy to compare.. Yet, as the Lord Jesus said, "what is that to you?" when Peter asked about another disciple in John 21. To me, that indicates that we are not to compare with others.. and be faithful in and thankful for what is/are given to us. Thankfulness in all situations is a skill.. a choice we are to constantly make.. The good Lord is teaching me this lots!.. to be thankful.. and to see good out of situations, no matter how bleak they could be.. for the Lord is in control.. He has great plans for every one of us.. small, big.. medium.. any sizes and forms.. so exciting!.. yay!.. *wink*

Lets go and play!

Had my first attempt at sailing last Sunday. Interestingly, I still could remember clearly that my friend's hubby (Adam) said, "now, lets go and play!" after he briefed me about the boat and also about what I needed to do with the various 'strings'; other bits and pieces .. Hmm.. It was like, there are some preparations; briefings.. before we can go and play and have fun!..

Alot of times, the things we are to embark on in life in the coming days require that too.. preparations; briefings; trainings.. before we could go and play!.. Some would require more preparations.. some less.. and who is the best person to know how much we need? Take a quick guess? Daddy in Heaven.. :) He knows exactly what we need to be prepared, be briefed, be trained... for what is ahead!.. 

So.. once we are ready.. there we go!.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... mistakes will happen.. just like bruises and cuts will take place (in my sailing experience).. but that shouldn't stop us from going again (as well as in this case, sailing)... The more we go, the better we become.. And, this just so resonates with my feelings about my new assignment at Agape.. Lots of adventures ahead!.. hmm. I wonder this sailing experience is by chance or by His divine appointment so that I could connect the dots!.. I prefer the later, to be honest as that works for me!.. lol.. well, I could literally connect the dots and I love that!.. :D

A Rose..

This picture I took in my recent visit to London just spoke to me!.. and it reminded me about a story.. a story about a beast who is filled with lots of bitterness and anger and yet he was touched by a simple girl who shows love to him.. And it was a challenge for her to actually love him especially when he was being so mean! Yet, she did!.. There was just something in him that touched her heart.. a connection? The rose in this story was crucial.. It resembled timing.. and somehow, the thought that came to my mind was there is always hope.. even when we couldn't see any.. or even in the bleakest situation/ circumstance... 

And as I reflect.. I am so delighted to say that our hope is in Jesus.. He gives us hope in hopeless situations.. and as I think about HOPE.. Psalmist in Psalm 37:34 encourages us to..

"Hope in the Lord and keep His way.

He will exalt us to inherit the land;

when the wicked are destroyed, we will see it."

My next assignment...

http://www.agape.org.uk/Default.aspx

YuP!.. my next assignment is Agape Birmingham (a Christian Charity Organisation)... for how long? no clue!.. but I have the sense that it will be a very interesting assignment... and I know the door could only be opened by the One and Only Him who is "I AM".. and it will be kept opened for me to walk through.. even as the work visa element is to be dealt with in the coming days.. all in His perfect timing..

The video clip here provides a brief intro to Agape..

And think my next upcoming challenge would be the whole idea of financial support of individuals, groups, and churches which Agape relies on.. Trusting God in another level of provision.. scary.. yet exciting.. and He has begun to show me glimpses of it.. and provision not necessarily be in the form of monetary.. it could be in many forms and shapes.. 

Oh!.. did I mention that I am starting at Agape this coming Monday, 16th May 2011? Yup!.. new people to meet.. and work with.. and I get to play with IT stuff!... oooh.. looking forward to that!.. *grin*

What He opens no one can shut...

The Lord says in Revelation 3:8:
"I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept My Word and have not denied My Name."

And I am claiming His Word for what is to come.. and know that I am able to walk through and overcome anything with His awesome peace and joy and love... *grin*

yippee?

I think I am still recovering from the shock!.. which I shouldn't be but yet I am.. Got the news! Got the job offer with Agape UK.. to do the very thing that I am trained for which is so amazing and I believe it isn't coincidence..

So, I am still not done with Birmingham, then.. I suppose so as this is the only door open for me to remain.. The impossible became the possible in His right Timing.. How awesome is that! And I get to do the other bits that I love to at the same time!

Much challenges ahead and yet much joy and passion too!.. hee.. Honestly, filled with mix feelings and yet at the same time, thanking Him for trusting me with the role.. Definitely has to go by His Spirit for I couldn't do it on my own... I am weak but He is strong.. *wink*

Devil of the past?

Ha.. is there such a thing, I wonder... ? but that phrase just stuck in my head for the past half an hour.. and I am so glad to say that even if there is such a thing or some times even bad memory of the past is being brought to the front at the present time, it doesn't affect me because I have overcame them!.. They have been sorted and dealt with at the foot of the cross in His presence as well as in the presence of Godly counsels.. I am truly glad and gleeful to be able to scribble this!.. to testify of His realness and His amazing Grace..

God never fails to surprise me with many things.. situations and people.. the people that He allows to cross path with me in this journey of exciting life! So beautiful!.. challenging sometimes to understand people's thoughts and yet it is a privilege to be able to walk by their sides.. and having them to walk by my side too.. to share our deepest thoughts and desires..

So.. yes, devil of the past, be gone in the Name of Jesus Christ!.. And Lord, please continue to fill me with your thoughts.. your Amazing Love.. your Everlasting Peace.. your Wondrous Joy.. *grin*

Further waiting..

looks like it! Further waiting... Ok, Daddy, I shall continue to wait... lalalalalalla..  and please please give me courage as I wait.. :)

the beauty of waiting in Him who has the perfect timing for me. *grin*.. kay, now, time to play! ta... 

Cultures..

Picture from http://www.dreamstime.com/

Since I moved, the whole idea of culture differences seem to be so real!.. Quite hilarious really.. even now as I am scribbling, there it happens again!.. another moment of culture difference!.. Maybe that is why I am spending more time in my sweet pink purple room, I think.... Wouldn't want to have too much culture clashes at one go!  Nevertheless and somehow, I believe the good Lord is teaching me something valuable here.. as I experience and observe.. 

And, more importantly, the LOVE of God is the key to hold everything together regardless of the differences of culture or even words spoken or actions shown.. Love of God and His Grace is awesome! Now, let me see.. how all these would lead to!.. even as I live here in this new place.. how to be sensitive? and how to say No.. It also teaches me lots of disciplines too!.. which is what I need at the moment, I think!.. 

Again, the good Lord always humours me with situations.. and people.. and the beauty of it all is that instead of feeling offended, I am laughing! and do find it quite amusing!.. ha! oh goodie! *wink*

Book for the day..

Since I am home today and in this nice, new and quiet room I am blessed with, I am going to focus on reading this book by Andrew Murray.. I am going to do a short book review of 2-3 minutes on it this coming 12th May at Spotlight on Christian Books which is held by ChaplaincyPlus - City Lights... I do wonder what I could share in that 2-3 minutes time about this book.. Well, I am sure I would get ideas as I read the book.. So, yes, that is what I am going to do.. indulge myself in this book and prayerfully be able to grasp hold of what God is telling me through this book.. I think the title itself already says it all... "With Christ in the School of Prayer".. to learn from Him and by His grace, to apply what I have learnt and make it real in my life so that I could grow and move to the next level of prayers.. Hee... 

Time will tell, Indeed!

I have scribbled in various occasions with this title.. "time will tell"... and yet, just want to scribble here at the wee hour about it again.. not too sure what I would be scribbling about but even as I reflect upon what has been happening as well as what hasn't been happening, just thinking about God's perfect timing.. 

http://kswpgoodfriends.wordpress.com/2009/07/17/gods-timing-is-perfect/

To me, it is precious to be at peace in Him as I wait upon Him in the unknown.. again, to learn to trust Him a little bit more than before. And, each step is beautiful.. breath-taking.. as I wait in Him.. as I embrace the fullness of His Love for me.. as I dwell in His awesome presence.. 

Just couldn't believe that it is May 2011 now!.. and the news and results that I am waiting for have yet to be revealed to me.. yet, I am at peace! which is rather unusual... but I am getting very used to it and I love it.. Being at peace even when I have no clue what would happen.. Is this what the bible calls "godly contentment" that I am experiencing? 1 Timothy 6:6 says "godliness with contentment is great gain"... Maybe, that is what it meant about being contented in God.. and it is great gain to be contented in Him!.. Nice! *wink*

Psalm 45

¹My heart overflows with a good theme;

I address my verses to the King;

My tongue is the pen of a ready writer. 

²You are fairer than the sons of men;

Grace is poured upon Your lips;

Therefore God has blessed You forever.

 ³Gird Your sword on Your thigh, O Mighty One,

In Your splendour and Your majesty!

 ⁴And in Your majesty ride on victoriously,

For the cause of truth and meekness and righteousness;

Let Your right hand teach You awesome things.

⁵Your arrows are sharp;

The peoples fall under You;

Your arrows are in the heart of the King's enemies.

 ⁶Your throne, O God, is forever and ever;

A sceptre of uprightness is the sceptre of Your kingdom.

 ⁷You have loved righteousness and hated wickedness;

Therefore God, Your God, has anointed You

With the oil of joy above Your fellows.

⁸All Your garments are fragrant with myrrh and aloes and cassia;

Out of ivory palaces stringed instruments have made You glad.

 ⁹Kings' daughters are among Your noble ladies;

At Your right hand stands the queen in gold from Ophir. 

¹⁰Listen, O daughter, give attention and incline your ear:

Forget your people and your father's house; 

¹¹Then the King will desire your beauty.

Because He is your Lord, bow down to Him.

¹²The daughter of Tyre will come with a gift;

The rich among the people will seek your favour.

 ¹³The King's daughter is all glorious within;

Her clothing is interwoven with gold.

¹⁴She will be led to the King in embroidered work;

The virgins, her companions who follow her,

Will be brought to You. 

¹⁵They will be led forth with gladness and rejoicing;

They will enter into the King's palace.

 ¹⁶In place of your fathers will be your sons;

You shall make them princes in all the earth.

¹⁷I will cause Your name to be remembered in all generations;

Therefore the peoples will give You thanks forever and ever.

Knowing someone..

think it is a beautiful thing to be able to know people.. and there are so many ways of doing that, constantly.. Knowing their hearts.. Loving them with God's love and from God's love because He loves us. 

And, it just amazes me the much care and love needed to invest into lives.. into friendships.. for all of us are fragile, in some forms and shapes.. It is by His wonderful grace that we are able to love.. there is that knowing how to hold friendships.. not too loose and not too tight.. and we are all learning.. because if it is too loose, then it will fade away.. if it is too tight, then it is suffocating.. 

Again here.. I come back to the basic.. of going by the Spirit of God.. to love and be loved.. to know and be known.. Exciting, isn't it? heee.. I think it is and I look forward to any opportunity to do so.. *wink*

Scribbling away....

(picture from http://businessblog.winweb.com/business-process-outsourcing/5-blogging-ideas)

that is what I am doing today.. just scribbling away.. and goggling pictures too.. love to have pictures to illustrate what I scribble.. I didn't had my usual cup of tea today.. tea-free day!.. hee.. but going crazy with my scribbling... 

Today, I have many thoughts.. many words.. but how do I organise myself to scribble them here.. ? I guess, I just doing it randomly; as it comes. Speaking of that, I really want to thank God for the progress.. Thanking Him for using what I have been scribbling to touch lives.. using the little that I have to encourage any one who read my scribblings.. *wink*

wait.. oh wait... tick tock.. waiting..

tick tock.. tick tock... waiting.. what am I waiting for? Waiting in Him.. just waiting with peace in my heart.. what am I doing as I wait? pray.. and wait.. do the little things that the good Lord is asking me to do as I wait.. *grin*

Fruit of the Spirit... :D

(picture from http://www.dltk-bible.com/jesus/fruit-memory.htm)


Lord,....

• work in me to make me more LOVING
• fill me up with Your JOY
• grant me your PEACE
• allow me to act with PATIENCE in all circumstances
• plant in me the heart of KINDNESS
• wrap GOODNESS around me
• build in me the fruit of FAITHFULNESS
• shape me to be a girl with GENTLENESS
• help me to have SELF-CONTROL

Amen..

Rejoice Always..

(picture googled..)

Rejoice in the Lord always...

Philippians 4:4

hee.. look at the sheep!.. so joyful!.. skipping around.. *wink*

Yes!

(picture googled)

in all circumstances, choosing to rejoice in the Lord.. and Yes, the JOY of the Lord is my Strength. *grin*

Pure Joy...

² Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ⁴ Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. ⁵ If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. ⁶ But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. ⁷ That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.⁸ Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.

 ⁹ Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position. ¹⁰ But the rich should take pride in their humiliation—since they will pass away like a wild flower. ¹¹ For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich will fade away even while they go about their business.

¹² Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.


James 1: 2-12

whom shall I fear?

Last night, experienced something scary while waiting at the bus stop.. but as I think about that experience as well as another weird experience in the Cathedral just before my 1st interview.. I just somehow link it to possibility of spiritual warfare.. where the devil is all out to frighten me, to weaken me; trying ways to stop me from doing what God wants me to do in the days to come.. hmm.. Why do I say that? Coz all these never happened before in the past. Why now? Coincident? I somehow just sense that it wasn't..

And even as I scribble, this image I googled from images mix spoke to me.. about the Lord is the strength of my life... He is my light, and my Salvation.. Whom shall I fear? no one!.. Coz He is with me.. yay..

And I am glad that we prayed last night before we went to sleep.. prayed for the lady.. prayed for the man.. and even while we were praying, I just remembered that lady I met in the Cathedral.. Lord, have mercy.. and I think & know.. it is not the battle of the flesh but in the spiritual realm... as said in Ephesians 6:12 (KJV) - "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places]." 

Therefore, need to ".... be on my guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong." (1 Cor 16:13)... and always put on full armour of God (Ephesians 6: 10-20) every moment... *wink*

Lift up my heart in Praise!..

a choice to do.. a choice to lift up my heart in Praise.. :D

Part of me was wondering abit more as I think about the up and coming interview and the potential this job could bring.. I was kinda freaking out a little.. asking questions like.. "Could this job be for me?" etc etc.. the weirdest questions just popped up!.. oh boy!..

but as I wrote to all my prayer partners this afternoon, God really spoke to me as I wrote...... It was just so amazing.. and I am so thankful to Him for comforting me.. and I just wanna share the email here.. bits and pieces of it.. more on the summary of the past months... :D

"A quick summary is that God is bringing me to different levels of grace.. and to have the freedom of extending much more grace to others.... I have never thought I would be able to do this.. but it is only by His wonderful and sweet Grace that I did and could.. yay!.. And I know that all these journeys/experiences would be wonderfully used by Him to reach out and help many many many!.. For He has indeed been using them!; to help many lives.. to help them to be set free and be free in Christ!.. and I am so excited that I could participate in and be part of these amazing breakthroughs of lives.. Words just couldn't describe how ecstatic I am! 

And this journey of life i travel thus far won't be possible if it is without your prayers and support..... I am forever thankful and grateful to Him for every friendship and relationship that I have with each and everyone of you... Love you all so so much!.. Think I am getting real emotional today as I write this email. I am filled with much joy and love and peace!.. Honestly and truthfully, come to think of it, it doesn't really matter to me anymore if I do get the job or not..... what matter to me the most is I live my life to the fullest as how He wants me to live.... and to be among His people...... *grin*. Wow, where did that come from? I feel so much better now!.. All focus on Him! yay.. heeeeeeeeeeeee....."

And I know many of you are praying for me even as you read my scribblings here... Thank you so very much.. And.. yes, regardless of the outcome, I know I am lifting up my heart in Praise to Him! and also, wanna share a daily devotion reading that I received today.. which just spoke so deeply to me.. God's timing is just so awesome!.. hee.. be blessed as I was blessed!.. I love the bits I highlighted in red most!.. :D

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April 13, 2011
New Paradigms
       By Os Hillman
"Yes, he has hidden himself among the baggage" 1 Sam. 10:22

If you want to experience something you've never done, you must do something you've never done. In his book Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing His Will, Henry Blackaby writes, "You cannot go with God and stay where you are."

God often has to radically change us if we are going to fulfill His purposes in our lives. Saul was about to be anointed by Samuel as the first king of Israel. Samuel said to Saul, "The Spirit of the Lord will come upon you in power, and you will prophesy with them; and you will be changed into a different person" (1 Sam. 10:6). Up to this point, Saul had never prophesied or led a group of people. He had also never had to be accountable to a prophet and to God for his every action.

Saul took a big step of faith right away and prophesied with the prophets just as Samuel said he would. How exciting that must have been. Yet, when Samuel called the entire nation of Israel together to announce him as Israel's first king in history, Saul was nowhere to be found. This part of the story is humorous. Excitement is in the air, but when they call Saul's name, he doesn't even come forward. So the people "inquired further of the Lord, 'Has the man come here yet?' And the Lord said, 'Yes, he has hidden himself among the baggage'" (1 Sam. 10:22).

I recall when God began moving me from a career in advertising to a new ministry to men and women in the workplace that involved writing and public speaking. Neither of these were my particular forté. I was forced to do something I had never done.

The story of King Saul should be an encouragement to us all. God continues to pick the foolish things of this world to confound the wise. Your greatest setback can be thinking that there's no way that God can use "little me." However, the reality is that He can and will, if we respond to the new places He takes us.

Henry T. Blackaby, Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing His Will (Nashville, TN: Broadman and Holman Publishers, 1998), p. 132. 

1 Corinthians 1:26-28

Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are

aiks!

sigh.. what to do.. what to do.. Teach me O Lord!.. Kay, gather all breathe and just do my best regardless of what happen! cherrio... *grin*

My Focus for this season..

got the above from http://ssje.org/sermons/?p=1761

*grin*

I think I am gonna dissect the whole meaning of this word GRACE..;  not only dissect but also learn to live it.. How to live by grace.. how to extend grace to others.. how to? etc.. as I explore and ask question.. as I learn, I know God will reveal to me even more things to look at.. to experience breakthroughs that I never dreamt of and yet they will slowly unravel in His Timing.. and with lots of love.. 

I am feeling excited! as I embark on this whole business of Grace for this season.. and it has started!.. and yesterday, did something that I never thought I would ever bring myself to do.. bringing grace to the next level as I was prompted by God to do. Just like what my associate vicar said to me.. sharing with me about the story of Corrie Ten Boom.. where she wrote when we take the action of extending grace, only then God's grace will be fully experienced in full measure. (these are in my words as I understand it). Well.. know what I am going to do next? I just ordered a book by Corrie Ten Boom this morning. I am very curious to know what she has written and her story.. 

Leaving you a famous quote from Corrie.. 

Forgiveness is an act of the will, and the will can function regardless of the temperature of the heart.

- Corrie ten Boom

 Forgiveness and Grace work hand in hand.. together.. they complement each other.. *grin*

S.O.S.

here I go.. preparing for 2nd interview which is a technical one.. one that includes a presentation of 10 minutes.. my my.. I have butterflies in my tummy now!.. oh boy!.. So, S.O.S is to pretty please pray for me as I prepare.. Need lots of prayers.. for I know I couldn't do this alone unless I am fully supported by prayers of many and may I be 101% soaked in prayers as I present and speak!.. *grin* yay!..

by the way, it is on 14th April 2011 930am (UK time)... 

Should I wait or register?

I have been thinking whether should I register to be on my current church's electoral roll or wait till I am more sure? When will I be sure? oh boy boy.. hmm.. 

not sure when I will ever be sure but just taking one step at a time.. and while I wait, me having a cup of tea.. and it just isn't any type of tea.. it is tea with lots of love from my Heavenly Daddy.. 

*wink*

2nd Interview preparation..

this is what I have to read to prepare.. but this image is seriously exaggerating on the paper bits.. LOL.. but I am looking at the SORP and Tax elements for Charity accounts. Praying and hoping to be able to have a big picture of it all and get a feel of how it is to prepare and handle charity accounts and tax.. :D laaaaaaaaaaa... 

Green... Yellow... Red...

See the resemblance? According to some girls, this is traffic light!.. :D Anyway, scribbling this out of randomness!.. LOL.. think today, I am full of randomness.. and I do find that being random actually frees me to do things I don't usually do.. and I am glad to say that things are getting better in terms of extending grace.. and it gets easier as I do more! So, lets see where this would lead to. :)

Growing... Part Two

Photo of Mr Encouragement-Sunshine as at 1st April 2011... and he is growing strong.. :D I just do not know how much water to give him and all.. but just trying little by little.. step by step.. *grin*

Hmm.. in a few scribblings earlier, I scribbled about there was a significance of me planting a seed and growing it. Growing a plant is just not my cup of tea in the past but somehow, this is what God wants me to venture in.. to trust Him to plant and take care of this seed.. Just like in life, things which are not my cup of tea, God inspires me to have a go at them.. to take risk in Him and trust Him.. to learn "how to"... And even if I do fail at the first try, I need to learn not to be disheartened but to get up and try again and again.. It is really about attitude.. it is about trusting God; learning to go in His strength.. and learning to love the unloved, especially..

So... yay.. learning so much.. and I know I am still learning...... *grin*

a fool for Christ...

We are fools for Christ, but you are so wise in Christ!......

(1 Corinthians 4:10)

not a thing that everyone would want to be. Be a fool? hmm.. what a thing to be.. but being a fool for Christ is a completely different story!.. it is freedom.. it is allowing God to use us in any form or shape.. and it feels great! if we embrace it with openness and excitement! :) I am enjoying it.. and being amused by His sense of humour. *wink*


Who could understand the things I do other than Heavenly Daddy? I think, some of the times, I don't even understand them myself.. and yet, I just obeyed.. and would really like to continue to obey His leading and prompting in my heart. It is mind-blowing and yet the sense of freedom is so addictive that I want it more and more.. and able to just look beyond myself and be a fool for Him. Wooo.. is there such a thing? For me, it is.. and I do find it so liberating! so exciting! so fun! Lets see what is next for me to embark on..

yay.. juggling some projects He has given me to do... lalalalalalallala...