Doing the same things slightly different does make a big difference!...

That was what I discovered.. Just a slight change of style.. asking with a slight different of tones.. using slight change of words.. praying a different way of prayers and so on, so forth.. does make a difference.. not small difference but kinda big one wo..

I really like this discovery eventhough it has been there for a long time.. even before my time... but it is a fresh revelation to me. hehehe.. and I am embracing it freshly and it just feels right and goes right with my spirit-man.... Oh yes! *smile*

Today, I would like to say........ "Good Morning, readers of scribblings...!!!".. mmm.. it doesn't sound as good as "Good Morning America!".. hehehehe........ oh well..... mine has a twist of the tongue effect.. hehehe......

(Scribbler is out of her scribblings for the morning....... she will be back, most definitely... stay tuned...)

Precious Moments ~ part Two...

Continuing from part One of Precious Moments...

(in KLCC station...) Little Joshua had gone to KLCC before but via a different transport, i.e. car.. Anyway, the reason why we were there last night was because I needed to get some books from Kinokuniya bookstore, an excellent bookstore with much varieties.. We went up the escalators, little Jos loved that.. and he was having fun, rushing from one end to the other and going up the escalators again.. Kids have their ways of fun in the most simplest way.. amazing..

Reached the bookstore, I already knew what I was looking for and therefore went straight to the enquiry counter to ask for the book.. while little Josh feeling tired, asked to be sat on a stool nearby. and then, he saw a balloon with no owner around.. He quickly went over to possess it.. hehehe.. My mom said it could belong to someone-else.. yet, he refused to listen, he just want the balloon.. that's my nephew, he loves anything that is round in shape.. balloons, balls, anything at all..... and here I was, earlier on, thinking what to buy for him as he comes for this visit to KLCC... Also, while taking the escalators up earlier on, from far, I saw distribution of balloons down below and I said in my heart, "wouldn't it be nice to get one for Joshua."... hehe, God knew and the balloon was there, left unattended to in the bookstore..

While I was looking at the books, mom was busy chasing after little Jos who by now, has became rather restless and rather playful.. running everywhere.. Well, gotten the two books that I wanted and went to the counter and paid for it. Mission accomplished. The next mission, finding toilet for little Josh and ourselves too.. hehehe.... After the toilet mission, we decided to take the lift down instead..

At the concourse, we saw two human dressed in a koala suit and kangaroo suit.. The koala fella shook hands with little Jos.. and also had a high-five moment with him too.. He enjoyed it much.. After all that, it was time to go home.. so, we made our way back to the train station......

The journey back was somewhat different because little Joshua has gotten used to the train sound and feeling of being in the train.. He was more daring to walk around.. wanting to try different moves, hanging on the hand-rail.. climbing anything that he could climb.. a really handful time for me.. yet, it was fun and precious to just goof with him in all these..... and time flew by so fast that we reached the Kelana Jaya station in a jeefy...

Our train journey ended as we walked out of the train, with little Joshua clinging around me as I carried him... He was definitely tired and yet I know, he enjoyed himself.. the next round, would let him insert the LRT ticket into the slot as he wanted to do that but things happened way too fast that I didn't stop to let him do that...

As I scribble on, I know that I am learning more and more to stop in life to enjoy.... to enjoy moments that are truly precious.. Guess this is one of the many things which God has gotten through with me recently... important lesson of life.... Sometimes, I wonder to myself, "if only...." but then again.. that is the irony of life.... why question it?.. Contentment is holy gain.. think that is somewhere in the New Testament..

(Scribbler continue to scribble on in her thoughts... even though the virtual scribbling stops here........ *wink*)

The beginning of a chapter...

Yup.. new chapter of my life.. new season, in another word.. as I venture into books and books of formulas, notations, numbers.. Excitement arose within me.. I am just exploring, wondering where would this take me.. bought some interesting books last night, to start somewhere small.. little by little.. God will bring me to somewhere, a place where I never dream of going and yet I would be there.. today, mark one of the early pieces of the jigsaw puzzle..

I love the mystery of this.. it gives me much excitement in life.. and today, i am definitely on an optimistic side of thoughts! *wink*

Precious Moments

Well, yesterday evening was one of the precious moments that I have with my little nephew, Joshua.. as we (mom and I) brought him for his first LRT ride..

You should look at the excitement he has when I reached home from work.. He was waiting with much anticipation and I thoroughly enjoyed experiencing that sense of anticipation. Little children love this.. and I think adults love it too though most times we never say it or admit it. Actually, now, thinking about it, I think I have forgotten how it was like to truly feel these stuff but then again, I think I had glimpses of them or rather, it was in my hands not too long ago but unfortunately, it didn't stay long. Unknowingly, I wasn't in the capacity to embrace it though.. Mm.. A mystery to me then that well, is no longer a mystery to me now. Am I scribbling in riddle? Well, I like that.. And, I wonder would anyone able to understand my heart in this? Mm..

Ooops.. lets get back to precious moments.. hehehe.. that short snip away was about "looking-back" moments.. hehehe.. Ok, where was I? Ahh.. Little Joshua waiting for me to come home.. Then, he literally followed everywhere I went to make sure I don't forget him.. so to speak.. Well, then, we are off to the Kelana Jaya LRT Station.... parked my car opposite the station. God is so good. He gave us a nice parking spot near to the bridge connecting to the station. Thank You God...

Then, we bought the tickets.. Joshua doesn't require a ticket.. *smile*... and off we went, up to the platform to wait for the train... The train arrived... and we went in (of course).. got some nice seats.. and little Joshua was looking around, wondering and observing.. think he was feeling rather strange.. coz he was very quiet.. holding tied to my mom and then holding my hand too.. After like 15 minutes passed, he asked for his milk.. Think that was his comfort. While he was drinking, his eyes were looking around, at the people standing, sitting around him. I do wonder what was going on in his little curious mind.. Mm.. well, then as the KLCC-stop was nearing, I gently whispered in his ears, "we are reaching soon.. "

As the train approached the station and stopped, he shouted.. "KLCC".. Smart boy.. hehehe.. And off we went, passed through the crowd of people..

(to be continued..... in part Two of precious moments... as the scribbler needs to start work.... hehehe)

Ping-Pong Moments

Or another word is "War" moments... coz there are the back and forth kinda motion... Visualise ping-pong ball being hit back and forth; back and forth? well, that was what I was feeling the past few days...

Not able to scribble lots on this in terms of the "negative" side of it, else it would be too depressing for anyone to read.. and not so encouraging for anyone, even for myself.. yet, ping pong moments has an interesting touch of it or you can call element.. meaning, there is the hope coz there is the struggle to overcome.. so, these days, I ping-pong in a smarter and wiser way as compared to those youthful years of Eon's ago.. That is the difference, I guess.. A rather major difference.. and because there is the Hope given by God, it is worth to war through whatever that is within me and be an overcomer.

It is like the war (my extreme word) or the struggle (a nicer word) between the flesh-man and spirit-man as written by Apostle Paul in the New Testament.. I could identify to what was written because the Lord has spoken through it and it is so very the real in my own life, especially so when I no longer want to hide anything from Him anymore. Mm.. dangerous thing to scribble about, some may say. I know but yet, I ask of Him to be gentle with me as He deals with the sins within me.. The Lord is so ever loving and kind.. and He is gentle too.. Better to fear Him than to fear men..

"Amazing Grace"...

Just love talking about the Grace of God...... and just want to scribble on one of my recent watched movies. Watched this movie titled "Amazing Grace". Truly amazing true story of this man named William Wilberforce... who led the campaign to abolish slavery in Britain... how he just pressed on, regardless of negative circumstances.. I thought, "Wow.. what passion he has.. What boldness he has..." Truly, a man of God who dare to believe and dare to do what God has put in his heart to do.... Truly amazing..... This put me to thought as to.. "would I ever be able to have such boldness?"; Definitely, there is a further slight stirring in the heart.... What am I to do with the stirring? Mm....

One of His quotes in 1789..

"You may choose to look the other way
But You can never again say you did not know"

I find this really intriguing and heart piercing quote..... and so many times, i have chosen to look the other way.. and got the "cheek" to ask; "What is it.... what is it....." And, the Lord, in His gentleness, waits for me to turn to look at the right way and move the right way. Which is the right way? Jesus is my Focus of life and yet, how much do I really believe that within me and truly live it in my life? Mmm.... One of the many things that I am pondering and reflecting.. and I know He reveals it clearer and clearer in His wondrous time..... :)

Also, wanting to share this song by Chris Tomlin.... *Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone)*... Another lovely and touching song......

Better than I...

Who knows better than I?.. make a guess.. hehehe.. if still couldn't catch it, then listen to this song which I heard from the cartoon movie titled Joseph, the king of dreams... A lovely movie to watch.. Listen on, and be blessed.. This is another song that truly touched my heart as I listened to it for the first time last Saturday and even few times after that... It is like I am Joseph, singing that song..... I truly felt that and it is so assuring to hear this song and to know that God knows better than I.....

I have been watching lots of great movies the past few days and learning excellent stuffs.. reminded of many things. In fact, spiritually, I was moved in some sense as I watched and drew some of the stuff from the movies.. Think I am definitely a visual person... hehehe... Anyway, enjoy the song......

Moments.. Intro!

Think I wanna scribble a series on "Moments".. the all sorts of moments.... I already scribbled two posts so far... and I have the 3rd one in my mind, swimming at me.. my goodness..

This is like the introductory to my "Moments" series.. hehehe... and I will put a special link in the blog to this series for easy reference.... It will be developed as I scribble along when the ideas come.. But I do wonder whether will there be connection with one another once I start scribbling.. well, no clue what-so-ever.. but I just know that the one and only connection that I could think of now is the word "Moment".. hehehe.. They are all moments of life.. of my own personal life, that is...

Unnerving Moments....

What a contradiction if you do happen to compare my posts with one another.. well, honestly speaking, we are capable of having many different type of moments in life at the same time..... And they just happen so fast, before we could sneeze.. why sneeze? don't know. The word just came and I scribbled it down... hehe..

Unnerving Moments coz.. I am still thinking ahead (why am I still doin that? oh well..) of what is to take place in the days to come.. even as I wait and wait.. Actually, it is so strange yet very true that knowing and having God in control of my life, my future, why would I still have unnerving moments? But it is an honest confession that I do have them.. and guess that shows how human I am and it also points to the "test" of how much I trust Him.. If I trust Him completely, I wouldn't have these strange moments.. So, perhaps, somewhere inside me, there is part of me that still have pieces of unbelief.. I am just being point-blank with myself even as I scribble on.. Who would really admit that? Well, I am of the opinion that it is important to be able to do that.. and only then, I am able to cry out to God to help me with my unbelief.. every part of it.. even if it could be just a piece..

This is my two-cents worthed of thought for today.. and you know what, it gives me great comfort to know that Jesus loves me just the same, no matter what... yippee...

Rose in its unique way......

I particularly like this shot that I took out of so many shots... though it is a little blurrish but I love the effect... hehehe.. maybe I should consider photography as a hobby.. but not the "pro" type lar.. just to capture things and people that I like..... hehehehe......

My goodness.. I find this rose particularly unique.... just like how each of us are unique in God's eye... *wink*

Uniqueness is something that is only God-given.... In fact, all things are God-given-lar.. hehe.. what am I scribbling about?? Simplicity of life is something I aim for.. and uniqueness of life also come into part.. yet, how to balance between both in the midst of many other thoughts? Mm.. the Lord's wisdom is upon me to discern and decide.. coz He Loves me Lots and Lots! Could you imagine, visible "love" dropping from the sky? Even as I scribble, I could imagine it... the overflowing and showering of His Love.....

Wow.. just a rose picture could inspire me to scribble till here..... I wonder what else I could scribble about in the days to come as my thoughts just flow and dream.... *dreaming away*.....

Photo of the month.. though abit blurrrr.. ada effect!...

Everyone is smiling..... Little Joshua smiled the BEST!.. and, well, baby Tiffany abit sleepy though... This photo would be perfect if Dad is around too..... well, the next round when he comes home, we will take another family photo......

Joyous Moments...

Baby Tiffany enjoying her milk session

Sis in law cutting cake with little Joshua and baby Tiffany

The family of my bro...

Look at what little Joshua is doing.. cherrie eating.. hehehe

Yup.. just wanna share some joyous moments back home at my parents place in Sitiawan.. Just being home and all.. with bro and sis in law and the two little kids.. Little Joshua and baby Tiffany.

Took some photos of these moments.. and last Saturday was my sis in law's birthday and we celebrated with her.. I find it to be significant because.. well, long story to share it here but deep down I know in my heart that it is significant. And, I am thankful that this significance has arrived. Thank God for His provision and blessings.

Being home is great and if only I could be home longer.. Mm.. never before anyone would ever hear me saying this but yet this is what I have been saying the past months.. Anyway, am looking forward to having the whole family up here in PeeJay this coming weeks... Definitely looking forward to going home each day after work..

.. and the remaining photos, I would post them in my facebook.. hehe.. easier to upload into facebook than here in the blog..

Psalm 28

Of David....

To you I call, O LORD my Rock;
do not turn a deaf ear to me.
For if you remain silent,
I will be like those who have gone down to the pit.

Hear my cry for mercy
as I call to you for help,
as I lift up my hands
toward your Most Holy Place.

Do not drag me away with the wicked,
with those who do evil,
who speak cordially with their neighbors
but harbor malice in their hearts.

Repay them for their deeds
and for their evil work;
repay them for what their hands have done
and bring back upon them what they deserve.

Since they show no regard for the works of the LORD
and what his hands have done,
he will tear them down
and never build them up again.

Praise be to the LORD,
for he has heard my cry for mercy.

The LORD is my strength and my shield;
my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.
My heart leaps for joy
and I will give thanks to him in song.

The LORD is the strength of his people,
a fortress of salvation for his anointed one.

Save your people and bless your inheritance;
be their shepherd and carry them forever.

Heavenly Language...

How awesome it is to be able to speak the Heavenly language, especially when there are no words to say what I really feel from within me. My soul just yearns to speak and yet no known words could able to express. Father Lord knows the deepest longing of my soul.. and He knows there would be moments and times where my soul just need to express.. and He gave me the gift of the Heavenly language to express what my soul longs to express..

There is such release and freedom to be able to speak Heavenly language unto the Lord.. It brings comfort and energy to the soul.. to lift my soul up especially when I am down and restless..

I experienced moments like these pretty often.. In fact, this very morning while I was driving to work, there was this sense of dark cloud hovering over me, my soul.. And when I began to speak the Heavenly language for many minutes, I could feel such release and the dark cloud was blown away... And then, there was a tiny leap of excitement within me, and I knew that my soul has been comforted and lifted up...

And the following Psalm just spoke of what my soul was going through.. I could identify with King David as I read the following Psalm.. The following are the exact verses that spoke to me where I could feel the "Yes, that's exactly what I am feeling."..

King David in Psalm 31: 1-5 sang...

In You, O LORD, I have taken refuge;

let me never be put to shame;

deliver me in Your righteousness.

Turn Your ear to me,

come quickly to my rescue;

be my rock of refuge,

a strong fortress to save me.

Since You are my rock and my fortress,

for the sake of Your name lead and guide me.

Free me from the trap that is set for me,

for You are my refuge.

Into Your hands I commit my spirit;

redeem me, O LORD, the God of truth.

followed by verses 7 to 10.....

I will be glad and rejoice in Your love,

for You saw my affliction

and knew the anguish of my soul.

You have not handed me over to the enemy

but have set my feet in a spacious place.

Be merciful to me, O LORD, for I am in distress;

my eyes grow weak with sorrow,

my soul and my body with grief.

My life is consumed by anguish

and my years by groaning;

my strength fails because of my affliction,

and my bones grow weak.

then, continued in verses 14 to 16.....

But I trust in You, O LORD;

I say, "You are my God."

My times are in Your hands;

deliver me from my enemies

and from those who pursue me.

Let Your face shine on Your servant;

save me in Your unfailing love.

Could I make it?

Mmm...... *thinking real hard*... woosh.... wheezz...

"In CHRIST, indeed you will make it."!!

Think this is one powerful phrase...

*feeling comforted and assured*....

oh.. how we all need this so very the often..... *wink*...

The Potter.... and Clay...

Got the following picture from this link...

But you will ask me, "Why does God blame men for what they do? Who can go against what God wants?" Who are you to talk back to God? A pot being made from clay does not talk to the man making it and say, "Why did you make me like this?" The man making the pots has the right to use the clay as he wants to. He can make two pots from the same piece of clay. One can have an important use. The other one can be of little use.

Romans 9:19 - 21 (New Life Version)

This is something that was spoken about yesterday evening.. also, talking about the burning process.. and the molding process... mmm... lets reflect...

12345%*#@+-= numbers, equations..

What a title... hehehe.. me not scolding anyone lar.. they are just numbers and symbols of equations... which I pray and hope that I would go in depth much more in the days to come..

There is that spark and new passion that has stirred up within me but will it last, I wonder.. Mm.. we shall see as I start learning and studying.. It challenges the mind, mm... my mind, to be precise. Where am I heading with just tiny weeny spark? I am clueless but I know He will guide me as I seek Him..

Dream big dreams ma.. and this is my latest dream.. heheheh....in the midst of many others.. well, just want to challenge my level of "intelligence", so to speak.. and to see where I can go.. So, am starting small and starting at the basic.. and praying to see the Lord turning the impossible to possible... because it is written in His Word that with God all things are possible. And, I have seen many times of it taking place in the lives of people around me.. and it all started small... and it takes time and effort.. and hardwork.. and I know it is not by chance that I studied accountancy too..

"Holy Ambition" was the title of a book shared by a close couple friends last night.. mm.. and it stayed in my mind... something intriguing here and I am still lingering around the phrase.. and feeling the "goosebump" even as I scribble.. Mmm... something is on here.. hehehe...... exciting.. and thrilling... Love this feeling. I am up there somewhere already..

Earth calling Vivien..... heheheh.. kay, coming down now... *wink*

P.R.A.I.S.E.

Yup.. the word for today!.. or it is the word for me for today or it could be for the weekend ahead...

P. raising your way through....

R. ejoicing in the Lord....

A. scending towards His Will....

I. ncreasing of Faith in Him....

S. oaring like the eagle...

E. xalting the Name of the Lord....

Most definitely exciting weekend ahead.. I could feel it..... Yippee..... Praising Him and Rejoicing in Him.... Come and join me!.. *smiling all the way*.....

Tears good for the soul.. and the tender heart...

Yup.. the title said it all... I am not scribbling it because I am so easily moved to tears these days.. but I find that there is a deep sense of truth in it.. otherwise, why do tears exist? Why do we have tears? There must be a reason why tears exist... why God gives us tears... ? mm.. because it is good for our soul and our heart..

Funny isn't it but it was true that I used to be very ashamed of crying.. I would think to myself, "Why cry?"... How wrong I was. What a wrong perspective that I had then... and I thank God that I didn't have to wait till I am super old to realise this wrong perspective..

Honestly speaking, there are many moments where I would cry and sometimes, would tear a little.. However, it feels good to be able to do that freely these days. "No shame".. Just the good sense of release... a good sense of relief... I still find this facinating to be able to do that... and I could just laugh over it as I scribble away.. "Be real with emotions.." mm... cool phrase! I like it. All this are possible because the Lord God Almighty has broken my heart of stone and turned it to heart of flesh... a heart so soft and yet strong in the Lord.. Now, that is the difference.. a difference that only a few could understand...

Of course, this is rather rare to be spoken of especially in a culture where it is ingrained that it is weak to cry.. shouldn't cry, must be strong.. mmm...... Yet, if the heart is hurting, why not let it cry then? It makes lots of sense to cry, to release.. to be strong at the wrong time would only make things worse in the long run.. and eventually, it would be spilled out somewhere.. and that would be scary.. I learnt that in Elijah House Malaysia. Amazing truths revealed in the Word of God as we study His Word even more intensely. In the midst of crying, we can be strong in the Lord.. and the Lord would just amazingly love us where we are... His heart that is reaching out would be able to reach our hearts... If there is the hardening of heart where no crying is allowed, His heart is not able to reach the heart though He longs to...

Well..... I can scribble what I like... coz afterall, this is a place where I could express my heart... hehehe.. the beauty of blogging.. and I have that deep sense of knowing that the Lord is guiding each scribble that I scribble... as I avail myself, my life for Him to break.. like that one loaf.. to be broken to many and to feed many.. as many as the Lord wills it to be...... Oh Yes Lord.. Your Will be done!

A Pot Story - Then the Title; Now the CONTENT..

Mm.. ya.. only today able to gather some time to scribble what I haven't finished scribbling a couple of days ago..

So.. the Content.. What is it? hehehe.. Have I kept people in suspend long enough? Actually, it was nothing really great.. yet it was something I felt that God used to speak to me so specifically on 29th April 2008 morning.. Where should I begin?

Out of the blue, just felt right to boil some chicken soup to eat with mee sua for my brother and I.. So, decided to boil the soup on 29th April 2008 early morning.. It is not the normal boiling of soup.. they call it "double-boiling" or something like that. Anyway, it takes about 3 hours to boil... so, means, I have to start boiling at about 5am... That was what I did... After the big fire, I turned it to medium fire... and I went back to sleep, thinking that I would wake up about 6 plus to check on it...... ooooops.... I didn't.......

Well, God saved the soup and the pot at the nick of time.. He woke me up at the appropriate time, to save the chicken soup at the nick of time… else it would have been totally burned. Though the pot was dry and dry, yet it could be saved.. stained much and it could be washed cleaned.. The Lord used that to tell me that; though there were times of burning and I was feeling really dry, I could be saved. He will always save me at the nick of time. He will wake me up at the opportune time, just like how He woke me up for the pot. He also said that though my life was stained, it could be washed cleaned because of the blood of Jesus Christ and I would be all ready for what is to come. Wasn't that an interesting thought and revelation that came.. and it soothed my heart tremendously.. my goodness.. It really does… wow… Thank You O Lord…

Well... that is the Pot Story for you and especially for me.. *grinning*... And that day, the Lord said that I am the Pot... and I personally believed it applies to you too... Ah-ha....

A Pot story.....

That is the title... but what is the content?

Stay tuned and you will find out... *wink*

And guess what, a few moments ago, I heard birds chirpping in my office room.. the exact same tune I have been hearing in my room at home early in the mornings.. I was like, am I hearing stuff??

This is definitely a miracle of God! I am claiming as tat.. hehe..

Simple and Comforting..

Little Hope.....

Ahhh... I could see a glimpse of hope.. little hope.... in the recent setback.. hehehe.. I wonder and wonder what would take place... excited a little and praying even more now.. The Lord's Will be done.. hehehe.. dangerous to say that and yet I want to say it.. coz I just want to do His Will as this life of mine is His gift to me..

Now, this is talking about risk taking!.. Mm.. I wonder I made any sense? I am full of philosophy thoughts today and yet they are not really so.. coz they are all inter-linked!.. I think I am confusing anyone who reads this... But the main point is that there is Hope!.. can forget everything else I have scribbled but remember the main point... "Hope"! Oh yes!...*high five!*

Roller Coaster Rides.... Part One..

I never thought that I would use this as the title coz I was once traumatized by just the mentioning of this phrase.. Yet, somehow, today, this phrase just fit nicely and comfortably with possibly what I am going to scribble about.. Let me repeat myself this phrase...

"Roller Coaster Ride!"...

"Roller Coaster Ride!"...

"Roller Coaster Ride!"...

Have I lost it? No-lar.. just want to do something which I have wanted to do.. Now is the time. *grinning*

Honestly, I never like roller coaster rides.. I always have been saying this, "why pay to be frightened?". But, you know what is the irony of this? I chuckled even as I think of it... Having said that I never like roller coaster rides, the crazy me or rather the "naive" old me actually accepted an invitation to a roller coaster ride months before... and to my horror, was "traumatized" by it... mm.. Interesting isn't it?

Yeah... interesting indeed.. but thank God that He was there with me and have set me free from the "trauma".. *phew*.. and "Thank You, O Father, You truly know me. Definitely much more than myself."..... and even as I scribble now, I felt that there is part two to it as in I have more to scribble about later.. heheheh.. just felt right about that.. maybe part three would come later.. I don't know..

But of course, taking roller coaster rides could also mean taking risks.... The past few days, many thoughts have been popping up about many things and I am still wondering over them.. still trying to figure out which are from the fleshly me and which are from the Lord.. and to take each step at a time and to take "wise" risks... hehehe.. is there such a term for that? I think what makes more sense would be to take risks in God... seek Godly Counsels before deciding stuff.. Mmm..... *thinking hard*

Thought this is fun...

I wasn't tagged but saw this in a friend's blog (Mr Lee's blog) and thought it would be fun to play...

Real name: Keu Lian Sze

Nickname: Many, too shy to disclose.. hehehe...

Married: No

Male/Female: Female

High school: A few schools, two to be precise... IJC Convent, Malacca... and SM Methodist (ACS) Sitiawan, Perak

College: ABC, Malaysia... (real one-la)

Short or long hair: long-qua.. at the moment..

Are u a healthy freak: Er.. freak? eeee...... no.. yes... but generally healthy, I think..

Height: 172cm

Do u have a crush on someone?: er... maybe.. perhaps.. hahaha.. but dare not..

Do u like yourself: Most times.. I cannot remember to count..

Piercings: too painful-lar.. but got, pierced ears...

Righty or lefty: Righty

First....

Surgery: Eye laser, I think.. and I could see without reaching out for glasses from then on.. so happy!... hehe..

Piercing: Ears lor.. one and only place, I think..

Person u see in the morning: myself lor.. who else to see...

Award: was it a speech competition? couldn't really remember.. it's been too long...

Sport u join: never.. hehe.. table-tennis?

Pet: doggie, I would think....... always love them..

Vacation: clueless.. just cannot remember which is the first.. mm.. but i remember mimaland very well wo... so, maybe tat was it...

Concert: the disney cartoon concert on TV... *grinning*

First crush: during standard two, i think.. a handsome, well dressed boy in school..

Currently...

Eating: Non

Drinking: Water

I’m about to: go home soon.......

Your future...

Want kids: yessss... if it is willed by God.. coz it's a huge responsibilities wo.. to bring them up...

Want to get married: YES! (thank God) despite of recent wild episode of my interesting life...

Careers in mind: Psalm 31 woman... hehehe... tough-man... but can-lar with the Lord's help.. I wanna take the challenge!..

Which is better?

Lips or eyes?: I like eyes..

Hugs or kisses: er.. for now, it is hugs lar.. never try kiss before, hehehe..

Shorter or taller?: taller

Romantic or spontaneous: Both please... oops.. am I greedy?

Sensitive or loud: Gently sensitive.. hehehe..

Troublemaker or hesitant?: Not applicable... means, I don't want both of them and therefore, have nothing to choose from..

Have u ever....

Kissed a stranger?: No-lar..

Drank bubbles: er.. bubbles?? would I choke? hehe.. Nope..

Lost glasses/contacts: No..

Ran away from home: No.. pretended maybe got...

Liked someone younger: Yup... lesser...

Liked someone older: Yup... plenty..

Broke someone's heart: Ya.. unfortunately... but that's life, I guess..

Been arrested: No.. don't want to try...

Cried when someone died: Yes, when it was someone I know personally..

Liked a friend: Yes!

Do u believe in...

Yourself?: Yes..

Miracles: Yes.. :)

Heaven: Yes!

Santa Claus: Used to when I was young.. watched too much TV and read too much fairy tale books.....

Magic: mm.. subjective.. very subjective... not sure..

Angels: Yes..

Answer truthfully..

Is there someone you want to be with right now?: Yes.. *dreaming away*..

Do u believe in God?: Yes... He is my Creator and Maker... the GOD of the Bible...

Tag ppl:

Hoo Lina

Maggie Chong

Everyone else who read my blog... hehehe..... and if you have a blog...

The Lord's Prayer...

Lets all say this prayer together unto Him as often as we are led to...


Our Father which art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done, as in heaven, so in earth.
Give us day by day our daily bread.
And forgive us our sins;
for we also forgive every one that is indebted to us.
And lead us not into temptation;
but deliver us from evil.

(Luke 11:2-4 - KJV)

This Song is about me..

Do take time to listen to this song which I stumbled upon in YouTube..... When I first heard it, I was like shocked, followed by surprised.. coz every word sang described the very emotion(s) I have and it was like.. that is definitely a timely "bull-eye" miracle of God.. The Lord has so graciously brought this song to my notice and for me to listen and be wonderfully touched and encouraged at time when I least expected.. Thank You O Lord... This is so special for me..

Not only the song is about me but even the video, every single slide is about me... the caption, the picture, the clouds, the rain, the rainbow... every details just swept me off my feet, touched my heart like crazy, made me felt so warmed and loved deep within.. Thank You Father.. I am feeling so loved from head to toe.. And I pray everyone of us would share that abundant joy, love and peace from Our Heavenly Father...

"Bring The Rain" - MERCYME

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray

Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty

Lyrics may not be reproduced without permission from the publisher.

A Song..... titled "Sweetly Broken"

As I listened to this song, it was really touching...... touching something deep from within..



Jeremy Riddle - Sweetly Broken
From the album Sweetly Broken

To the cross I look, to the cross I cling
Of its suffering I do drink
Of its work I do sing

For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed
Showed that God is love
And God is just

Chorus:
At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

What a priceless gift, undeserved life
Have I been given
Through Christ crucified

You’ve called me out of death
You’ve called me into life
And I was under Your wrath
Now through the cross I’m reconciled

Chorus:
In awe of the cross I must confess
How wondrous Your redeeming love and
How great is Your faithfulness

(2x’s) Chorus:

Label: Vineyard Music
Lyrics may not be reproduced without permission from the publisher.

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God wants us to be "sweetly broken"... painful as it may be but yet it is needful.... for He loves us so very the much... more than we could understand or imagine and He knows what are good for us eventhough we do not know it ourselves. Therefore, trusting Him and being obedient to Him is the KEY to life.

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Who are the Risk Takers?

This thought came early this morning... this question of who are the risk takers? Now, as I think further of it, many names from the Bible came to mind... Abraham, Jacob, Esther, Job, Isaac, David, Solomons, Rahab, Joshua, Caleb, Moses, Mary, Joseph, John the Baptist, Jesus, Peter, Matthew, Paul etc etc etc..... many names came as I scribble away... and I believe there are more names than to what I have scribbled... So many of them were risk takers.. be it small measures or big measures but they were risk takers and their focal point was the same, that is, the Almighty God.. the Abba Father...

Mm.. I think I understand abit as to why this thought came at this time.. God is nudging me to be risk taker.. as I have always proudly claimed to be non-risk taker.. Always wanting to be safe in some sense.. Yet always ended up not being that safe after-all.. so strange but yet very true, ya.. how irony that is. But life is full of ironies, whether we like it or not.. or rather, whether I like it or not..

Where is this bringing me to, I wonder? Ah.. this thought came.. "to take risks in God is safe because God is in control." Mmm... does that make any sense? Means that to be risk taker, I am to be Risk Taker in God... But how do we truly know what is of God and what is not of God? We make time and spend time with Him, being still in Him, reading His Word, speaking to Him and hearing from Him..... getting to know His Heartbeat..... and then, I will know how to be Risk Taker in Him..... Looks like lots of work.. hehehe..... by the Grace of God and not by my strength....

"O Lord, looking at You, I have that sense of awe and peace, knowing that as You reveal timely truths in my life, I am able to follow.. and take the next step in You.... Thank You O Lord."

Yippee.. what a challenge this is... to be Risk Taker for God!... Lets all work together for the extension of His Kingdom and Glory! *smile confidently unto Him*... knowing that confidence comes from Him alone...

What is the Topic?

The topic just slipped my mind as I start to scribble.. There is something which I wanted to scribble about and yet, where did the thought went? Mm.. *thinking seriously hard*.. oh well, it will come back, if it is meant to be written about, ya..

Anyway, just want to scribble that it was so comforting and assuring to be hearing great comments from friends about my scribblings... It truly encourages me to scribble even more as and when I feel led to in the days ahead.. One of my wildest dreams would be to write a book.. hehehe.. that thought came to me a few years back out of the blue.. but even up to now, I am clueless as to how it would ever come true.. and what am I going to write about? and who would read it? So many questions that I have and at the same time, it is nice to dream such dreams.. it would definitely be awesome to see it come to past..

"Lord, Lord... what do You think..? Would I ever have the privilege of writing a book or books (hehe.. more ambitious now)?"

Dream big dreams for God... and truly that gives me the great sense of Hope as the Lord brings ideas to my mind to excite my spirit and to nudge me a little.. You know, the feeling like.. "shake here a little" & "shake there a little".. could visualise that? hehehe.. I could!

Monday is here......

... and I am thankful that it is here for I just felt much victory this morning.. Very strange to feel it and yet it is great to be able to give thanks and to just be able to rejoice in the Lord at this moment of time.. Like some of my friends' favorite word... "Sweet".. hehehe.. Thought this word is just the right description of this moment.

Sweetness of Jesus in my life.. and in our lives... May we all be continuously awed and be rejoicing in Him always... *Grinning*......

A Little Setback...

Sigh.. experiencing a little setback... disappointed a little.. or am I being too modest here with my usage of words... or just didn't want to say the word.. Maybe I just didn't want to say it.. Strange as to why I am responding such ways... Mm... the word that came to mind is "hope deferred"... which I have been recently reading about in this book entitled "Hope Resurrected" by Dutch Sheets. Excellent book to be read. And I have so many questions to ask.. hehe..

Anyway, coming to think of it, perhaps I am to learn something important from this most recent setback.. Romans 8:28 came to mind again. Yet, not so nice feelings surface in the heart again. Learning to embrace the feelings and also asking Lord for further Grace and Mercy as I just wait upon Him.. I do not understand.. and yet the only thing that I could understand is that my life is His to orchastrate and so, I have nothing to be worried about.. Mm.. perhaps this is a test as to, do I really believe that, truest in my heart? Interesting to be scribbling this known yet hidden in some ways thought that I have..

One thing I am glad is that I very much aware of the change in my response to the setback. Something which wasn't striving and yet knowing that God is in control and He has the best for me. In the past, I probably would have be real upset, anxious and then running around like headless chicken.. hehehe.. pushing every buttons possible and becoming even more upset.. Yet, today, I witness the change, a good change in my response which I thank God for... and I know the work is not complete even as I rejoice in this new and good change.. The feelings of disappointment are real and yet there is no in-built anxiety rising up from within.

Well.. the one thing I know is that I have surrendered the plans that I have at the foot of the Cross and God is taking care of it.. Setbacks will come and sometimes it comes with great gush.. yet, it is ok because God is taking great care of every details and He is preparing me for the days to come..

So, am I giving up? Nope.. No sir-ree.... I would just be faithful doing what I need to do and trusting that in the Lord's timing, things will just fall in its rightful place.. the "step ahead" to be unfold by the Lord will be an exciting one, most definitely...

I guess by blogging away, scribbling away, it is therapeutic for me.. Now, I am feeling released and feeling great.. not great "great" but feeling much much better.. And I can continue with my sleep.. hehehe... Night te night.... It is actually 2:55am... woke up and just felt led to scribble away my feelings.. and it is doing me real good... *laugh*... Cherrios........

Sweat it Out!...

Hehe.. I didn't literally sweat it out but last night was good, I did some packing up of stuff in my room.. cannot imagine that I have so much stuff.. and I have much more to handle and clear... However, last night was good to be able to put most of my soft toys into plastic storage boxes that I purchased yesterday evening.. I still need to do more... You guys must be wondering why am I packing my stuff up? hehehe.. shhhh... that is a secret.. hehehe.. the next level and new grounds, remember? Anyway, it is good to clean up stuff occasionally and to send all those stuff I don't need anymore to Jumbo Station (Jumbo Station is a ministry in my church that welcomes unused stuffs so that they could re-sell them or make full use of the items and to bless the Single Mothers and families... That is the rough idea I have of this amazing ministry).

Anyway, I am so happy that I have finally started this clearing of stuff and packing of stuff project which i wanted to do for quite some time already.. The next challenge is to organise all my books and to pack them into boxes for easier identification... Also, need to wrap those unwrapped books and label those unlabeled books for my master booklist.. hehehe.. that shows how many books I have...

Last night was the start............. need to sweat it out more....... hehehe...... and aim to lead a simple life with no clutters in the house.. So, I have to start somewhere... Pray for me ya... thx...

The Necklace

Thought the following story speaks thousands... and I just wanna cut and paste here.. Truly.. true... Our Heavenly Father is waiting for us to give up the cheap things in our lives so that He can give us beautiful treasures. Sigh... and alot of times, we thought what we have is the best without considering that God has His Best for us... Our "best" can never be compared to His BEST.. because His BEST just amazes us off our "boots" as it were, if only we would trust Him... and give up our "best" to Him in exchange for His BEST... Read on... and you will understand what I was trying to scribble... And oh yeah, thanks Emily for sending the following story to me... *smile*..

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The Necklace

The cheerful little girl with bouncy golden curls was almost five. Waiting with her mother at the checkout stand, she saw them, a circle of glistening white pearls in a pink foil box.

"Oh mommy please, Mommy. Can I have them? Please, Mommy, please?"

Quickly the mother checked the back of the little foil box and then looked back into the pleading blue eyes of her little girl's upturned face.

"A dollar ninety-five. That's almost $2.00. If you really want them, I'll think of some extra chores for you and in no time you can save enough money to buy them for yourself. Your birthday's only a week away and you might get another crisp dollar bill from Grandma."

As soon as Jenny got home, she emptied her penny bank and counted out 17 pennies. After dinner, she did more than her share of chores and she went to the neighbor and asked Mrs. Mc James if she could pick dandelions for ten cents. On her birthday, Grandma did give her another new dollar bill and at last she had enough money to buy the necklace.

Jenny loved her pearls. They made her feel dressed up and grown up. She wore them everywhere, Sunday school, kindergarten, even to bed. The only time she took them off was when she went swimming or had a bubble bath. Mother said if they got wet, they might turn her neck green.

Jenny had a very loving daddy and every night when she was ready for bed, he would stop whatever he was doing and come upstairs to read her a story. One night as he finished the story, he asked Jenny, "Do you love me?"

"Oh yes, daddy. You know that I love you."

"Then give me your pearls." "Oh, daddy, not my pearls. But you can have Princess, the white horse from my collection, the one with the pink tail. Remember, daddy? The one you gave me. She's my very favorite."

"That's okay, honey, daddy loves you. Good night." And he brushed her cheek with a kiss.

About a week later, after the story time, Jenny's daddy asked again, "Do you love me?"

"Daddy, you know I love you."

"Then give me your pearls." "Oh Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have my baby doll. The brand new one I got for my birthday. She is beautiful and you can have the yellow blanket that matches her sleeper."

"That's okay. Sleep well. God bless you, little one. Daddy loves you."

And as always, he brushed her cheek with a gentle kiss.

A few nights later when her daddy came in, Jenny was sitting on her bed with her legs crossed Indian style.

As he came close, he noticed her chin was trembling and one silent tear rolled down her cheek. "What is it, Jenny? What's the matter?"

Jenny didn't say anything but lifted her little hand up to her daddy. And when she opened it, there was her little pearl necklace. With a little quiver, she finally said, "Here, daddy; this is for you."

With tears gathering in his own eyes, Jenny's daddy reached out with one hand to take the dime store necklace, and with the other hand he reached into his pocket and pulled out a blue velvet case with a strand of genuine pearls and gave them to Jenny.

He had them all the time. He was just waiting for her to give up the dime-store stuff so he could give her the genuine treasure.

So it is, with our Heavenly Father. He is waiting for us to give up the cheap things in our lives so that He can give us beautiful treasures.

God will never take away something without giving you something better in its place.

The greatest gifts happen when you share love and touch others .

THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH..... NEHEMIAH 8:10

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Next Level? Higher Ground?

These phrases came to my mind this morning and I am asking our Father in Heaven what is the "next level" and where is the "Higher Ground" for me in the days to come... All would be unfold in the Lord's perfect timing and plan... And what are the stuff in my life that needs to be shaken off and release in the Lord's timing... So many questions I have.. only to be unveiled with answers in Him..

I am excited and "curious" for what is to come and the Lord softly whispers to me, "Child, wait in Me and wait with great anticipations that I am doing great things in you... and in My Time, you will see and understand... not everything at one time but sufficient enough for you to take the next step..."

Like a little girl with much excitement, I would like to respond.. "Yes Father, I will wait.. Please help me to wait patiently in You, O Lord...and to respond wisely and rightly in You.." *grinning*..

Awesome! If anyone read this.. please remember me in prayers oh... I am praying to see what is the next level and the higher ground God is calling me to go.. the NEXT STEP to take to get closer and nearer..... *smile*

"Can Do" spirit.....

I received this devotion this morning and particularly love what was written.. I am praying that God will help me to develop deeper such "different spirit"... that would go all the way for Him.. and not be satisfied with status quo.. This is my prayer for my future spouse too.. hehehehe.. May he not be a "go with the flow and expect the status quo" guy but may he has the "spirit of Caleb" who has a different spirit and not into "safe living". As it were, he is always slaying "giants and claiming mountains" in the Lord's Name...

I always liken the story of Caleb and how he continued to press on.. So, do read on the following devotion from "The Vine" that I have cut and paste here.. hehehe.. and get to know just glimpses of who this Caleb is..

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The Spirit Of Caleb

My servant Caleb has a different spirit.
Numbers 14:24 NIV

Caleb wasn't into "safe living". As a young man he came back from the Promised Land, stood with the minority and announced, "With God on our side we'll take it!" At 85, he was still slaying giants and claiming mountains. That's because he had "a different spirit". He wasn't a "go with the flow and expect the status quo" guy.

Richard Edler writes: "Safe living generally makes for regrets later on. We are all given talents and dreams. Sometimes the two don't seem to match. But usually we compromise both before ever finding out. Later on, we find ourselves looking back longingly to that time when we should have chased our true dreams and our true talents for all they were worth. Don't let yourself be pressured into thinking that your dreams or your talents aren't prudent. They were never meant to be prudent. They were meant to bring joy and fulfilment into your life." If a caterpillar refuses to get into its cocoon it'll never transform and will be forever relegated to crawling on the ground, even though it had the potential to fly.

What do you believe God's called you to do? Do it! God's not limited by your IQ, He's limited by your "I will". The poet said: "If you think you are beaten, you are. If you think you dare not, you don't. If you'd like to win but you think you can't, it's almost certain you won't. Life's battles don't always go to the stronger or faster man, but sooner or later the man who wins, is the man who believes he can." The spirit of Caleb is the "can do" spirit! Have you got it?

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Can Life Be Simple?

Mm.. This question pops in my head just this moment... and I believe this is a famous question that many people asked... and it is continued to be asked seconds after seconds, minutes after minutes, hours after hours, days after days, months after months, years after years, etc etc...

The other way of asking would be.. "Can Life Be Simple with spouse and kids?" Lots of people are entangled in complexity of life.. but is it because of others? or is it because self-inflicted complexity? Mm... Can life be truly simple?

Here I am reminded of King Solomon, the wisest king on earth... and what he has written in the book of Ecclesiastes.. very profoundly true and deep in the hearts of men. And he concluded in Ecclesiastes 12:13 - 14 to... "Fear God and keep His Commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil." I would highly recommend anyone to read this book in the bible.. It may sound "meaningless" of life out front but if willing to take time and look deeper into the words written and expressed, the truth and the big clue of simple life is there... hehe..

When I was younger, I didn't quite appreciate the book Eccleciastes and wondered why is it there in the Bible? What is the significance of it? God in His lovingness and kindness revealed bits and bits of truth everytime I read this book.. and over the years, I begin to love and enjoy this book even more.. There are much wisdoms and truths in it and amazingly, it covers all angles of life.. well, you are looking at this great king who had it all and yet he said life is about one thing only and that is to fear God and keep His Commandments...

Well.. life can be simple.. I would think.. eventhough I am not married and have no kids.. and of course those who are married with kids probably would not agree with me.. hehe.. mm.. I guess I will only find out when i reach that stage of life.. But just based on the Word of God, I have faith that life can be simple.. regardless of the status of life (marital status, financial status, etc)... God makes life simple for us.. So, why are we complicating it?? Mm.. as usual, my usual concluding tagline, "something to think about and to reflect further about...." *grinning*.....

Time flies.. again..

Yup.. think this title was used before but nevermind.. Truly time flies by when I am enjoying myself back home with good food and pampering.. hehehe.. and of course, the joy of having my little nephew around.. and now, with little Tiffany...

Thought I would have much time to scribble in the blog but before I know it, it is already Sunday and I am in PeeJay already.. geez.. time does fly by when you are having fun and excitement.. And I think I rested well and I played well too.. hehehe.. played with my energetic nephew lor.. He just kept me busy and busy whole.. I really do wonder how mommies could take care of so many kids at one go.. But my mom said, well.. when you have your kids, you will know how to take care of them lar.. "Oh-I-See.." heheh.. I sure hope so.. coz now, from outside with "no-own-kids" perspective, I am actually amazed how to take care of kids.. they are truly handfuls but they bring much joy too..

I am now all refreshed and rejuvenated to face the new day.. heheh.. the new week ahead... yippee..

Oh yes.. also looking forward to catch a movie with Lina this evening... Won the free passes to watch "An Empress and the Warriors"... Need to catch it today else it will not be showing after this and then the complimentary passes will go to waste.. Hope the movie is nice.. *wink*

My little model.. hehehe...

Just some recent shots of my little nephew.. who loves to pose for shots.... I am praying and praying that both Joshua and Tiffany would grow up to be faithful and obedient in the Lord... *smile*..

Baby Tiffany Keu....

Yup.. this is my little niece... the new addition to the family.. She always seems to be sleeping which I guess is a good thing.. Baby needs to sleep.. *grinning*.. I hope to take more photos of her next round...

Christian Ways To Reduce Stress...

Received an email on this and thought it would be cool to put it on the blog.. Some real good suggestions of reducing stress in life, whatever form and measure.. Perhaps it would come in handy for friends who are undergoing stress... As I cut and paste and also read on, I pray that it would bring fresh ideas to readers that would refresh them and myself... Lets read on... and oh yeah, the one that I highlighted in pink, is particularly key words for me.. it may be for others too.. *smile*...

1. Pray
2. Go to bed on time.
3. Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.
4. Say No to projects that won't fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health.
5. Delegate tasks to capable others.
6. Simplify and uncluttered your life.
7. Less is more. (Although one is often not enough, two are often too many.)
8. Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.
9. Pace yourself. Spread out big changes and difficult projects overtime; don't lump the hard things all together.
10. Take one day at a time.
11. Separate worries from concerns. If a situation is a concern, find out what God would have you do and let go of the anxiety. If you can't do anything about a situation, forget it.
12. Live within your budget; don't use credit cards for ordinary purchases.
13. Have backups; an extra car key in your wallet, an extra house key buried in the garden, extra stamps, etc.
14. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut). This single piece of advice can prevent an enormous amount of trouble.
15. Do something for the Kid in You everyday.
16. Carry a Bible with you to read while waiting in line.
17. Get enough rest.
18. Eat right.
19. Get organized so everything has its place.
20. Listen to a tape while driving that can help improve your quality of life.
21. Write down thoughts and inspirations.
22. Every day, find time to be alone.
23. Having problems? Talk to God on the spot. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don't wait until it's time to go to bed to try and pray.
24. Make friends with Godly people.
25. Keep a folder of favorite scriptures on hand.
26. Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a good "Thank you Jesus."
27. Laugh.
28. Laugh some more!
29. Take your work seriously, but not yourself at all.
30. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people are doing the best they can).
31. Be kind to unkind people (they probably need it the most).
32. Sit on your ego.
33. Talk less; listen more.
34. Slow down.
35. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.
36. Every night before bed, think of one thing you're grateful for that you've never been grateful for before.

GOD HAS A WAY OF TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR YOU.

"If God is for us, who can be against us?" (Romans 8:31)

Long Break..

Had a long Break from blogging.. er.. let me see, how long was it.. from last Thursday till now.. six days break from scribbling. Days been packed with much things to handle and also, spending more time to reflect and to wait upon the Lord. Just been awesome to be able to do that and I hope to continue to do that more.

Much things taken place just over the past 6 days.. for example, I managed to watch two new movies.. hehehe.. and my little niece was borned on the 7th April 2008 1:12pm in Sitiawan. And guess what, I am currently in Sitiawan, just being with the family, to share the joy and excitement of welcoming the baby to the family. *grinning* And, I graduated from Elijah House Basic School One last weekend. Received a certificate for it. I have also decided to sign up for Basic School Two which will start in July 2008. Looking forward to that, to learn, to be ministered to and to meet up with the new friends that I have made in Basic School One..

Anyway, perhaps, I will scribble more this couple of days, being home and all.. :) But for now, feel like sleeping.. hehe.. was taking nap just now, twice in fact.. and was also reading on the book of Esther... reflecting upon God's Word and just being amazed by His way of guiding and leading people.

Now, my mind already thinking of what to scribble about in my next post... hehehe... but let me read what my friends are blogging in their blogs first.. hehehe...

Answer...

Ya.. today, I found an answer to my question.. and I am so glad to discover it.. and I realised that the ANSWER (by the way, it has always been there but I never see it from that angle) is revealed to me to understand deeper and reflect upon. And, it is made clear only when I surrendered my thoughts at the foot of the Cross.. That was what I did this morning. due to lack of rest and also so many thoughts swarming my little brain till I just cried out and said.. "Dear God, I surrender all my thoughts at the foot of the Cross... You know exactly what I can think through and what I cannot think through..."

After that, slowly and surely, there were like bells and light bulbs tinkling and lighting up... and clarity came and is here eventhough I am physically and mentally tired... amazing.. I saw another miracle of God this morning.. and I am so awed.. and amazed.. Thank You Lord...

I am comforted and fired up once again.. :) and I had a surprise of "hugz attack" via sms from Mag.. so cool.. it was a pleasant and sweet surprise for me.. Thanks Mag.. hehe..

Somehow, felt that tonight, something wonderful will take place.. Am praying and believing in God for the best to come.. Many "best"s to come.. hehehe.. God is full of blessings and love!.. I am so so loved... hehehe... and I know He is bringing me to higher grounds.. as He works in my life and through my life.. "Thank You Father for such privilege and honor.. "

Compatibility versus Incompatibility??

I read an article which speaks something deep in my heart.. in the whole area of compatibility and incompatibility... what is it? mm... it is simple yet profound.. hehe... Read on and please take note that I have taken the liberty to add some of my words in the following paragraphs to highlight my own thoughts and opinions.. (those in pink are my own words.. )

The writer said that there are a variety of unhealthy questions people ask as they are getting or get married, including:
- What's in it for me?
- Will I be happy?
- Is this person going to care for me?
- Is this person going to provide for me?
- Is this person going meet all of my needs?
- Is this person my soul mate?

The writer also said the following, "Some people believe their marriage is bad because they didn't marry their soul mate. That's simply not true. The concept of soul mates (sometimes referred to as twin souls) has its roots in the idea of reincarnation. The soul of the one you are looking for has lived other lives with your past selves, and your souls have connected. Plato, an ancient Greek philosopher, referred to a soul mate as the other half. The concept of a soul mate has no biblical basis and sets up an excusable escape for couples."

The writer has had married people telling him, "Well, I think he is a great guy—he's just not the guy for me," and "I think she's wonderful and she'll make somebody very happy—she's just not making me happy." He said that these are the wrong perspectives for sustaining a healthy marriage. I personally believed this is applicable for courting/ engaged couples as well. My own opinion of it.

And the great news is that the writer ended with the right questions to ask. What are the right questions? Here is the foundation for getting marriage off on the right foot and staying there:
(1) Am I demonstrating the loving image and character of Jesus Christ? If I'm not, I need to get His words into my heart so that I don't sin against God or my mate.
(2) Have I taken responsibility for my own actions and reactions? If not, I need to get off of my mate's case and get the help I need from God first and then from other wise counsel.
(3) Do I understand that within me there is a self-destructive sin nature that only God can fix?
(4) Do I understand that I make mistakes, I fail and I grieve the heart of God?
(5) Have I ever cried out to God as a beggar and admitted that I am helpless apart from Him in becoming the mate I need to be?
(6) Do I understand that because of Adam and Eve, I am now dealing with inherited sin?
(7) Do I know that sin is basically doing my own thing and ignoring God?
(8) When my spouse/mate sees my deep love and transformation, will he or she want to join me on the spiritual journey?

And also not to be missed, is to read what the bible has to say about all this.. and this is what the writer ended with.... "The Bible says that "all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (Rom. 3:23). We all deal with this issue of sin. The question is how do we respond? Romans 10:9-10 instructs us to declare Him as Lord (or as boss) of our life and believe in our heart that God has raised Jesus from the dead; then, the Bible says, we will be saved. It is a one-time decision (justification) followed by or made evident in lifestyle change (sanctification)."

So, actually where does the compatibility and the incompatibility come into place? I used to think it is to do with interests, family backgrounds, flexibility and so forth.. Of course these things do have their rightful role to play and they are all inter-linked to one another and even to what I am going to scribble on... But know what I discovered today? I felt that I discovered something and also, an answer to the question that I was asking... I think the core of it (compatibility in the sense) actually lies in the manner and "thought life" of type of questions we are asking ourselves when we are in a relationship. It is like saying, "Are these two persons having/asking the same type of questions when they are in the relationship?"

Whether what I have scribbled make any sense to anyone or not.. mm... well, to me, it makes lots of sense... and I just have this tugging in my heart that God is teaching me things from different perspectives and angles.. of even looking at just one word.. the word today is "Compatibility"... I am reflecting further in the Lord...... *smile*...

Movie passes and ....

The past few weeks were crazy.. I joined contests to win movie passes.. some are complimentary passes and some are preview screening passes.. and I won almost all of them.. :D

I have like four movies in line to watch for this coming few weeks... hehehe.. Never knew I am a movie freak.. aiya.. if free or much cheaper than usual, why not... ah... :D

Feeling tired a little today.. well, it is going to be a long day today..... The Lord's strength sustains me and keeps me going. :)