Book for the day..

Since I am home today and in this nice, new and quiet room I am blessed with, I am going to focus on reading this book by Andrew Murray.. I am going to do a short book review of 2-3 minutes on it this coming 12th May at Spotlight on Christian Books which is held by ChaplaincyPlus - City Lights... I do wonder what I could share in that 2-3 minutes time about this book.. Well, I am sure I would get ideas as I read the book.. So, yes, that is what I am going to do.. indulge myself in this book and prayerfully be able to grasp hold of what God is telling me through this book.. I think the title itself already says it all... "With Christ in the School of Prayer".. to learn from Him and by His grace, to apply what I have learnt and make it real in my life so that I could grow and move to the next level of prayers.. Hee... 

Time will tell, Indeed!

I have scribbled in various occasions with this title.. "time will tell"... and yet, just want to scribble here at the wee hour about it again.. not too sure what I would be scribbling about but even as I reflect upon what has been happening as well as what hasn't been happening, just thinking about God's perfect timing.. 

http://kswpgoodfriends.wordpress.com/2009/07/17/gods-timing-is-perfect/

To me, it is precious to be at peace in Him as I wait upon Him in the unknown.. again, to learn to trust Him a little bit more than before. And, each step is beautiful.. breath-taking.. as I wait in Him.. as I embrace the fullness of His Love for me.. as I dwell in His awesome presence.. 

Just couldn't believe that it is May 2011 now!.. and the news and results that I am waiting for have yet to be revealed to me.. yet, I am at peace! which is rather unusual... but I am getting very used to it and I love it.. Being at peace even when I have no clue what would happen.. Is this what the bible calls "godly contentment" that I am experiencing? 1 Timothy 6:6 says "godliness with contentment is great gain"... Maybe, that is what it meant about being contented in God.. and it is great gain to be contented in Him!.. Nice! *wink*

Psalm 45

¹My heart overflows with a good theme;

I address my verses to the King;

My tongue is the pen of a ready writer. 

²You are fairer than the sons of men;

Grace is poured upon Your lips;

Therefore God has blessed You forever.

 ³Gird Your sword on Your thigh, O Mighty One,

In Your splendour and Your majesty!

 ⁴And in Your majesty ride on victoriously,

For the cause of truth and meekness and righteousness;

Let Your right hand teach You awesome things.

⁵Your arrows are sharp;

The peoples fall under You;

Your arrows are in the heart of the King's enemies.

 ⁶Your throne, O God, is forever and ever;

A sceptre of uprightness is the sceptre of Your kingdom.

 ⁷You have loved righteousness and hated wickedness;

Therefore God, Your God, has anointed You

With the oil of joy above Your fellows.

⁸All Your garments are fragrant with myrrh and aloes and cassia;

Out of ivory palaces stringed instruments have made You glad.

 ⁹Kings' daughters are among Your noble ladies;

At Your right hand stands the queen in gold from Ophir. 

¹⁰Listen, O daughter, give attention and incline your ear:

Forget your people and your father's house; 

¹¹Then the King will desire your beauty.

Because He is your Lord, bow down to Him.

¹²The daughter of Tyre will come with a gift;

The rich among the people will seek your favour.

 ¹³The King's daughter is all glorious within;

Her clothing is interwoven with gold.

¹⁴She will be led to the King in embroidered work;

The virgins, her companions who follow her,

Will be brought to You. 

¹⁵They will be led forth with gladness and rejoicing;

They will enter into the King's palace.

 ¹⁶In place of your fathers will be your sons;

You shall make them princes in all the earth.

¹⁷I will cause Your name to be remembered in all generations;

Therefore the peoples will give You thanks forever and ever.

Knowing someone..

think it is a beautiful thing to be able to know people.. and there are so many ways of doing that, constantly.. Knowing their hearts.. Loving them with God's love and from God's love because He loves us. 

And, it just amazes me the much care and love needed to invest into lives.. into friendships.. for all of us are fragile, in some forms and shapes.. It is by His wonderful grace that we are able to love.. there is that knowing how to hold friendships.. not too loose and not too tight.. and we are all learning.. because if it is too loose, then it will fade away.. if it is too tight, then it is suffocating.. 

Again here.. I come back to the basic.. of going by the Spirit of God.. to love and be loved.. to know and be known.. Exciting, isn't it? heee.. I think it is and I look forward to any opportunity to do so.. *wink*

Scribbling away....

(picture from http://businessblog.winweb.com/business-process-outsourcing/5-blogging-ideas)

that is what I am doing today.. just scribbling away.. and goggling pictures too.. love to have pictures to illustrate what I scribble.. I didn't had my usual cup of tea today.. tea-free day!.. hee.. but going crazy with my scribbling... 

Today, I have many thoughts.. many words.. but how do I organise myself to scribble them here.. ? I guess, I just doing it randomly; as it comes. Speaking of that, I really want to thank God for the progress.. Thanking Him for using what I have been scribbling to touch lives.. using the little that I have to encourage any one who read my scribblings.. *wink*

wait.. oh wait... tick tock.. waiting..

tick tock.. tick tock... waiting.. what am I waiting for? Waiting in Him.. just waiting with peace in my heart.. what am I doing as I wait? pray.. and wait.. do the little things that the good Lord is asking me to do as I wait.. *grin*

Fruit of the Spirit... :D

(picture from http://www.dltk-bible.com/jesus/fruit-memory.htm)


Lord,....

• work in me to make me more LOVING
• fill me up with Your JOY
• grant me your PEACE
• allow me to act with PATIENCE in all circumstances
• plant in me the heart of KINDNESS
• wrap GOODNESS around me
• build in me the fruit of FAITHFULNESS
• shape me to be a girl with GENTLENESS
• help me to have SELF-CONTROL

Amen..

Rejoice Always..

(picture googled..)

Rejoice in the Lord always...

Philippians 4:4

hee.. look at the sheep!.. so joyful!.. skipping around.. *wink*

Yes!

(picture googled)

in all circumstances, choosing to rejoice in the Lord.. and Yes, the JOY of the Lord is my Strength. *grin*

Pure Joy...

² Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ⁴ Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. ⁵ If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. ⁶ But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. ⁷ That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.⁸ Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.

 ⁹ Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position. ¹⁰ But the rich should take pride in their humiliation—since they will pass away like a wild flower. ¹¹ For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich will fade away even while they go about their business.

¹² Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.


James 1: 2-12

whom shall I fear?

Last night, experienced something scary while waiting at the bus stop.. but as I think about that experience as well as another weird experience in the Cathedral just before my 1st interview.. I just somehow link it to possibility of spiritual warfare.. where the devil is all out to frighten me, to weaken me; trying ways to stop me from doing what God wants me to do in the days to come.. hmm.. Why do I say that? Coz all these never happened before in the past. Why now? Coincident? I somehow just sense that it wasn't..

And even as I scribble, this image I googled from images mix spoke to me.. about the Lord is the strength of my life... He is my light, and my Salvation.. Whom shall I fear? no one!.. Coz He is with me.. yay..

And I am glad that we prayed last night before we went to sleep.. prayed for the lady.. prayed for the man.. and even while we were praying, I just remembered that lady I met in the Cathedral.. Lord, have mercy.. and I think & know.. it is not the battle of the flesh but in the spiritual realm... as said in Ephesians 6:12 (KJV) - "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places]." 

Therefore, need to ".... be on my guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong." (1 Cor 16:13)... and always put on full armour of God (Ephesians 6: 10-20) every moment... *wink*

Lift up my heart in Praise!..

a choice to do.. a choice to lift up my heart in Praise.. :D

Part of me was wondering abit more as I think about the up and coming interview and the potential this job could bring.. I was kinda freaking out a little.. asking questions like.. "Could this job be for me?" etc etc.. the weirdest questions just popped up!.. oh boy!..

but as I wrote to all my prayer partners this afternoon, God really spoke to me as I wrote...... It was just so amazing.. and I am so thankful to Him for comforting me.. and I just wanna share the email here.. bits and pieces of it.. more on the summary of the past months... :D

"A quick summary is that God is bringing me to different levels of grace.. and to have the freedom of extending much more grace to others.... I have never thought I would be able to do this.. but it is only by His wonderful and sweet Grace that I did and could.. yay!.. And I know that all these journeys/experiences would be wonderfully used by Him to reach out and help many many many!.. For He has indeed been using them!; to help many lives.. to help them to be set free and be free in Christ!.. and I am so excited that I could participate in and be part of these amazing breakthroughs of lives.. Words just couldn't describe how ecstatic I am! 

And this journey of life i travel thus far won't be possible if it is without your prayers and support..... I am forever thankful and grateful to Him for every friendship and relationship that I have with each and everyone of you... Love you all so so much!.. Think I am getting real emotional today as I write this email. I am filled with much joy and love and peace!.. Honestly and truthfully, come to think of it, it doesn't really matter to me anymore if I do get the job or not..... what matter to me the most is I live my life to the fullest as how He wants me to live.... and to be among His people...... *grin*. Wow, where did that come from? I feel so much better now!.. All focus on Him! yay.. heeeeeeeeeeeee....."

And I know many of you are praying for me even as you read my scribblings here... Thank you so very much.. And.. yes, regardless of the outcome, I know I am lifting up my heart in Praise to Him! and also, wanna share a daily devotion reading that I received today.. which just spoke so deeply to me.. God's timing is just so awesome!.. hee.. be blessed as I was blessed!.. I love the bits I highlighted in red most!.. :D

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April 13, 2011
New Paradigms
       By Os Hillman
"Yes, he has hidden himself among the baggage" 1 Sam. 10:22

If you want to experience something you've never done, you must do something you've never done. In his book Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing His Will, Henry Blackaby writes, "You cannot go with God and stay where you are."

God often has to radically change us if we are going to fulfill His purposes in our lives. Saul was about to be anointed by Samuel as the first king of Israel. Samuel said to Saul, "The Spirit of the Lord will come upon you in power, and you will prophesy with them; and you will be changed into a different person" (1 Sam. 10:6). Up to this point, Saul had never prophesied or led a group of people. He had also never had to be accountable to a prophet and to God for his every action.

Saul took a big step of faith right away and prophesied with the prophets just as Samuel said he would. How exciting that must have been. Yet, when Samuel called the entire nation of Israel together to announce him as Israel's first king in history, Saul was nowhere to be found. This part of the story is humorous. Excitement is in the air, but when they call Saul's name, he doesn't even come forward. So the people "inquired further of the Lord, 'Has the man come here yet?' And the Lord said, 'Yes, he has hidden himself among the baggage'" (1 Sam. 10:22).

I recall when God began moving me from a career in advertising to a new ministry to men and women in the workplace that involved writing and public speaking. Neither of these were my particular forté. I was forced to do something I had never done.

The story of King Saul should be an encouragement to us all. God continues to pick the foolish things of this world to confound the wise. Your greatest setback can be thinking that there's no way that God can use "little me." However, the reality is that He can and will, if we respond to the new places He takes us.

Henry T. Blackaby, Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing His Will (Nashville, TN: Broadman and Holman Publishers, 1998), p. 132. 

1 Corinthians 1:26-28

Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are

aiks!

sigh.. what to do.. what to do.. Teach me O Lord!.. Kay, gather all breathe and just do my best regardless of what happen! cherrio... *grin*

My Focus for this season..

got the above from http://ssje.org/sermons/?p=1761

*grin*

I think I am gonna dissect the whole meaning of this word GRACE..;  not only dissect but also learn to live it.. How to live by grace.. how to extend grace to others.. how to? etc.. as I explore and ask question.. as I learn, I know God will reveal to me even more things to look at.. to experience breakthroughs that I never dreamt of and yet they will slowly unravel in His Timing.. and with lots of love.. 

I am feeling excited! as I embark on this whole business of Grace for this season.. and it has started!.. and yesterday, did something that I never thought I would ever bring myself to do.. bringing grace to the next level as I was prompted by God to do. Just like what my associate vicar said to me.. sharing with me about the story of Corrie Ten Boom.. where she wrote when we take the action of extending grace, only then God's grace will be fully experienced in full measure. (these are in my words as I understand it). Well.. know what I am going to do next? I just ordered a book by Corrie Ten Boom this morning. I am very curious to know what she has written and her story.. 

Leaving you a famous quote from Corrie.. 

Forgiveness is an act of the will, and the will can function regardless of the temperature of the heart.

- Corrie ten Boom

 Forgiveness and Grace work hand in hand.. together.. they complement each other.. *grin*

S.O.S.

here I go.. preparing for 2nd interview which is a technical one.. one that includes a presentation of 10 minutes.. my my.. I have butterflies in my tummy now!.. oh boy!.. So, S.O.S is to pretty please pray for me as I prepare.. Need lots of prayers.. for I know I couldn't do this alone unless I am fully supported by prayers of many and may I be 101% soaked in prayers as I present and speak!.. *grin* yay!..

by the way, it is on 14th April 2011 930am (UK time)... 

Should I wait or register?

I have been thinking whether should I register to be on my current church's electoral roll or wait till I am more sure? When will I be sure? oh boy boy.. hmm.. 

not sure when I will ever be sure but just taking one step at a time.. and while I wait, me having a cup of tea.. and it just isn't any type of tea.. it is tea with lots of love from my Heavenly Daddy.. 

*wink*

2nd Interview preparation..

this is what I have to read to prepare.. but this image is seriously exaggerating on the paper bits.. LOL.. but I am looking at the SORP and Tax elements for Charity accounts. Praying and hoping to be able to have a big picture of it all and get a feel of how it is to prepare and handle charity accounts and tax.. :D laaaaaaaaaaa... 

Green... Yellow... Red...

See the resemblance? According to some girls, this is traffic light!.. :D Anyway, scribbling this out of randomness!.. LOL.. think today, I am full of randomness.. and I do find that being random actually frees me to do things I don't usually do.. and I am glad to say that things are getting better in terms of extending grace.. and it gets easier as I do more! So, lets see where this would lead to. :)

Growing... Part Two

Photo of Mr Encouragement-Sunshine as at 1st April 2011... and he is growing strong.. :D I just do not know how much water to give him and all.. but just trying little by little.. step by step.. *grin*

Hmm.. in a few scribblings earlier, I scribbled about there was a significance of me planting a seed and growing it. Growing a plant is just not my cup of tea in the past but somehow, this is what God wants me to venture in.. to trust Him to plant and take care of this seed.. Just like in life, things which are not my cup of tea, God inspires me to have a go at them.. to take risk in Him and trust Him.. to learn "how to"... And even if I do fail at the first try, I need to learn not to be disheartened but to get up and try again and again.. It is really about attitude.. it is about trusting God; learning to go in His strength.. and learning to love the unloved, especially..

So... yay.. learning so much.. and I know I am still learning...... *grin*

a fool for Christ...

We are fools for Christ, but you are so wise in Christ!......

(1 Corinthians 4:10)

not a thing that everyone would want to be. Be a fool? hmm.. what a thing to be.. but being a fool for Christ is a completely different story!.. it is freedom.. it is allowing God to use us in any form or shape.. and it feels great! if we embrace it with openness and excitement! :) I am enjoying it.. and being amused by His sense of humour. *wink*


Who could understand the things I do other than Heavenly Daddy? I think, some of the times, I don't even understand them myself.. and yet, I just obeyed.. and would really like to continue to obey His leading and prompting in my heart. It is mind-blowing and yet the sense of freedom is so addictive that I want it more and more.. and able to just look beyond myself and be a fool for Him. Wooo.. is there such a thing? For me, it is.. and I do find it so liberating! so exciting! so fun! Lets see what is next for me to embark on..

yay.. juggling some projects He has given me to do... lalalalalalallala... 

Change of direction for intercession...

This morning, these thoughts just came.. and I just scribbled away.. oh! how exciting! and there are pictures too!.. oh my!.. Firstly, the verse... Hebrews 11:30..

"By faith the walls of Jericho fell, after the army had marched around them for seven days."

Secondly, the visual bits... and picture speaks it all.. even with no words.. *grin*

The words that God gave me this morning was SPEED... What does S.P.E.E.D stands for? and what to do with it? Just felt the need to intercede and well.. be like the Israelites when they marched around the wall for seven days..... And to intercede that walls would be..

• Smash to smithereens
• Pull out (roots of anything that is not honouring God)
• Explode (outer walls)
• Even out
• Demolish (inner walls)

and all these to be done in LOVE, compassion and GRACE.... hmmm... Am really thankful to Him who provides.. who knows our hearts... who hears our prayers and cries.... And there are so much hope!.. yay! I am so happy.. the sensing of being free to obey.... to carry out lovely things!

"Daddy, You said I am the key... and therefore, pretty please use me to open as many doors as You like, Lord......so that more and more would be free and free to live for You!" *wink* yipeeeeeeeeeeee.. 

Time to move....

yup!... time to move.... and the moving day is 23rd April 2011.... to a pink & purple room.. a bigger space.. new environment.. new people to adapt to... and a baby to play with.. *grin*

I am proud of......

my growing plant..... His name is Mr Encouragement-Sunshine..... He is growing well.... and I hope and pray that he will grow to full term!.. and smile at me! yippppeeee......... can't wait for that!

Love it!

Just simply love it when have the opportunity to meet people of the kindred spirit... That's what I felt when I went for the 1st interview at Agape today.. I thoroughly enjoyed myself in the interview (Big thanks to those who are praying for me)... It feels like home.. kinda strange and yet that was what I felt... It just feels that this is it!.. But is it? 

"Daddy in Heaven, is it? Is this where I would be hanging out in the coming days? Are these people the people I would be mixing with? Can this be true? I just feel that this job is too good to be true! hmm.. "

Well.. there is another period of waiting for 2nd interview which should be either on 14th or 15th April 2011..  a technical interview.. and I have to do a presentation.. hmm. that'd be challenging!..  need to pray even more! and there are homework to do.. to read up on charity organisation and its way of financial accounts.. Please please pray for me, ya..... hehehe...... *grin*

But whatever it may be; whether this job is mine to keep.. I am already blessed in today's interview.... Just awesome and amazing to be able to share what is in my heart and share about my passion!.. woohooo...... simply love it... love the way how the interview had gone...... *wink*

*yawn*

it is 930pm.. and I am already feeling sleepy.. with my eyes becoming straight line! *girn* And it has been such for the past weeks.. aww.. wonder why? well, my mind couldn't think at this moment of time.. Time to SLEEP!! yay........ 

At the foot of the Cross..

At the foot of the cross, 

where I kneel in adoration 

And I lay my burdens down 

I exchange all my sin 

for the promise of salvation 

And Your name across my brow 

At the foot of the cross, 

I give up my vain ambition 

And I leave my selfish pride 

In the peace that is there, 

will You restore my vision? 

In all the places I am blind 

I will wait here at the cross 

I will wait here at the cross 

I will wait here at the cross 

I will wait here at the cross 

At the foot of the cross 

there is healing for this nation 

There is rest for those who wait 

And the love that we find 

is the hope of all creation 

We are stunned by what You gave 

We will wait here at the cross 

We will wait here at the cross 

We will wait here at the cross 

We will wait here at the cross 

We will wait at the cross, 

a hungry generation 

With our broken hearts and lives 

Will You hear? Will You come? 

Will You fill our desperation? 

Oh God let this be the time 

(by Tre Sheppard)

Growing... Part One

Last Saturday at the 6th session of Growing Leaders, think God was really speaking deep and more in my heart about  various aspects of developing someone.. Especially using the whole analogy of planting seeds.. I remembered that when I saw this pot with soil and seeds in a plastic bag on the bed during the residential weekend away in February; I was wondering and asking God, "hmm.. what are You saying with all these, O Lord?"

Why is this significant? there is a story behind that which I would continue in my next post...