By one-self..

the joy of being by myself.. reflecting and thinking.. I guess it is times like this I am "inward" looking.. Just want to have lots of me-time on my own.. Not having to talk to anyone physically.. except God Himself.. 

and not having to sense anything or carry any for anyone; trusting that God is taking care of all those needs for now.. Just being free to rest in Him.. physically, emotionally and spiritually.. Not that I do this very often.. perhaps it is overdue now.. maybe that is why the abrupt need to do so.. 

I just love that the good Lord is giving me place to go to when I need to.. the freedom of doing so.. 

Next stop!

Yup!.. my next stop.. I am heading to Ostuni coming week.. near Brindisi on the map; literally at the heel of the Italian boot.. Think this would be a very cool trip.. I am praying as I prepare myself to go to Italy.. I pray for deepening of friendship.. and meeting of new friends too! Who knows, learn a few new words.. I am thankful to Him who blesses me with friends.. new friends.. and new stuff to be part of.. fresh ideas to learn..

In the meantime, finishing off the work that I need to do..  and I am off on the plane in a week's time.. yay!.. :)

Flying..

Time for the growing bird to fly on her own... and it also means, time for the concentrated nurturing to lessen even more so that the growing one could feed more on the solid food from the source.. and hence, the right timing of Him for the leaving to somewhere else for a while in between.. This is very exciting! Let see what the good Lord will be doing.. 

The Lord knows my heart desire.. and He sees the move.. the shift.. and He graciously shows them to me.. Time to be off!.. 

Serenity...

This picture just gave me the sense of peace.. I wonder, as I apply, would I be accepted to do the counselling course at this place? I am praying.. friends praying... the people at CWR are praying.. I am excited to see what the Lord has installed for me. :) Is it this place? Is it this course?

Normality..

I have this sense of normality back in my life.. I just have this sense of it recently. I think I am possibly not on cloud nine anymore and back to ground level. Wow! I was on cloud nine since May last year till recently? That was a long stretch of time, I would think.

It is good to feel that I am back on ground level.. and reality has sunk in. I could see myself doing much more stuffs that are on my list. And, I think the turning point was at the Easter Staff conference recently. I still remembered that I shared at the end of the conference that I have learnt lots.. especially in the area of how I was taught during my education years and comparing to how others were being taught; the interactions and all. Also, I shared about being in cloud nine with thoughts that I just couldn't believe that I am where I am now. Amazing that after I shared that, things started to gather in the right places as it were.. and now, scribbling here.. I am able to come to a place where I could scribble so much clearer about it.

Indeed, I could feel that I am able to breathe normally again and it is nice to have that. Please don't get me wrong, it was super cool to be on cloud nine.. that whole sense of feelings of the Lord's wonders and provisions.. I think I would very much like both parts together; intervening .. Seeing the hands of God moving is just amazing! and awesome! 

Yes! I am off to do the things I am called to do.. and in the midst of it all, with that constant hope of seeing His Glory shining on/in each day of my life.. seeing and experiencing His Love in every aspects that life brings; just because He loves me! *wink*

Why UK?

The question that I have today is "Why UK?" I think I have asked this question before. And, yet, I am prompted with it again, today. The Lord has something to say to me, I personally believe as I reflect and think further. I know there is something that He would like me to grasp.. and looking at how things developing slowly in time, I am amazed by how connected they are. I am still unable to paint a whole picture of what I am trying to say, yet, there is this sense of excitement welling within me. How interesting that is!

As I wait.. as I pray.. as I try different things.. as I look and seek Him... I know, in His time, everything will be beautiful! I am waiting and while I wait, I am enjoying His provisions for now.. enjoying the friendships that He has blessed me with.. learning to love people.. learning even to challenge people when need to.. when to hold my tongue.. and when not to.. 

Last night was beautiful.. the sense of it all was just beautiful! I think it was far more than just beautiful! Father Lord does have His ways of getting His hands into things.. and voila, another great piece of art! *grin*

So, why UK? UK has always been in my heart for a long time.. I always envision myself to be here when I was younger. Did God put that in my heart, I wonder? I guess I will press on, pray, wait and see as He unveils more in the days to come.. Please pray with me and for me if you read this.. Thank you! :)

Choices..

Spending time at home.. just reflecting on things.. having the time to think about many things.. Even thinking about the choices I have made.. Choices about how I respond towards people.. friends and various ones.. and even choices I have made with regards to all sorts.

Interestingly, the Lord reminds me again about the heart of humility.. the heart of loving others.. especially and even more the ones that I think I couldn't love.. Hmm.. It is hard.. It would have been much easier to decide not to be involve.. I definitely have much to learn.. and I think it is a lifelong learning.. I will make mistakes.. I have made mistakes.. and even mistakes that I couldn't go back to fix them.. Yet, that is what I have to learn.. and the good Lord teaches me His grace.. He shows me His Grace.. and that is hope, I believe.

Who am I to know what is to come.. ? I remember something I have learnt last few days.. I am known by God.. He knows me through and through.. and He is teaching me... He knows what brings me much joy and even what brings much pain.. Yet, these are the experiences that would shape and mould me.. The Lord wants me to trust Him.. and I want to trust Him.. 

Obviously, there are stuff that I have to face.. that I have to learn from God to surrender to Him.. would I come to that place of full surrendering to Him? definitely a life-long journey.. I am asking Him to have mercy upon me.. coz there are stuff that I still don't understand and there are struggles that I am still facing.. pride stored various places that require time and effort to let go.. gosh!.. lots of work.. and yet, it is the Lord's touch of my heart to stir what is within me.. His mercy and grace is all that I need.. Thank You Abba Father.. 

Stronger..

Embracing each moment and feelings with the sense of being stronger in Him.. It is nice to be complacent and yet is this what the Lord would want me to have? Or does He want me to grow.. grow.. grow.. and not be complacent.. be contented, yes! but not complacent..

Have this feeling that time at Newcastle would be a very interesting one.. especially when I would be staying with people whom I haven't met.. Praying for spiritual connections.. praying for the sense of bonding beyond my own understanding.. the one that is given by God Himself!.. I am excited!.. God, Thy Face I seek.. all the days of my life.. I am sorry for being distracted sometimes.. yet, You waited.. and then, here we go again on this journey.. :)

His Timing..

timing of God is just so mysterious
that is beyond my understanding, really... 

The only way is to trust Him abit more each day...
and I want to trust Him!

Time for another roller coaster ride with the Lord...
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

Call it coincidental or whatever you like,
but for me, I call it His Timing. :)

1st entry..

What do I mean by 1st entry?

I have no clue at the moment what I am thinking about as I think of 1st entry but this phrase just kinda stay on in my head.

According to the Free dictionary online, entry means.. "the act of beginning something new"

hmm... *grin*

April 2012 is just round the corner..

Amazingly, as I think of scribbling here, I think of how time flew by so ever quickly.. especially this year 2012. Rightly so, April 2012 is just round the corner.. Is this something for me to ponder about or am I just wondering, where has all the time gone to?

For the first time in many months I feel I could take a deep breathe and relax.. I have been super busy at work.. sorting the accounts out.. well, figuring my way through the newness of work life.. Just had our auditors in our office and I am thankful to Him for the smoothness of the whole process..

I still remembered that day, a Monday morning where I just felt for a spur moment.. that sense of not wanting to continue anymore. Just that sense of tiredness, I suppose. But I really thank God for a wonderful team leader that He has blessed me with.. who offered to pray into the situation instead of anything else. I really appreciate that. I am thankful for my other colleagues too.. for their support and prayers.

Yay!.. the sky looks much much clearer at my end now...

I know the dear Lord is speaking.. as I wait upon Him..... as I seek His face... I am waiting in much anticipation.. for His Glory.. to shine in all areas of my life.. and the lives around me..

Thank You Lord..

Praise God!

This is my very first post of 2012 and I want to praise God!

Today, He shows me again that He cares for every bits of details in my life; no matter how tiny they are.. Just an hour ago, as I was walking in Sainsbury supermarket to buy lunch, I was thinking that it would be nice to have Dosa Chenai some time soon.. and voila! I got a call from a friend an hour later. She asked what would I be doing tonight.. and mentioned that they are having Dosa Chenai for dinner with some friends. She said, if I don't mind, I could come and join them.....

He is amazing, isn't He? *grin* and that just makes my day.. especially when I have been feeling rather 'rubbish' the past weeks and days.. Father Lord, You just know my heart desires so well.. Thank You Dear Lord.. 

And I am off to have Dosa Chenai for dinner this evening.. Yay!

HOME!

In 24 hours time.. I am heading to homeland! after two and half years.. Gosh.. not sure what to expect.. Just trusting God.. That is all I could do and am comfortable of doing just that.. Trusting that He will guide my steps as I spend time in homeland.. time with family... meeting friends.. saying things that I meant to say..

There is that mixed feelings.. which I am unable to put my fingers onto. Unable to use words to describe it. The one comforting thing is that God is with me and He will make all things beautiful in His Time! Yay!.. *grin*

"Happy" food!

Yummy!

Lord, have mercy..

I am very much aware at this hour of day that the spiritual battles are real and strong..

But I could rejoice in the Lord because I could fight strong and well because He is at my side! Yay! Lord, have mercy and may I fast and pray and intercede in Your ways.. 

and I am reminded of Romans 8:28.. His Word stays true in all situations!

Thank You Dear Sweet Jesus.. *grin*

Sweet contentment..

what does it mean to have contentment.. and on top of it all, a sweet contentment?

It is lovely to be able to enjoy being contented; even when there are uncertainties in life.. even when there are unanswered prayers.. 

Father, You know my heart's desires.. You know the very things I need.. I know they will be provided for in Your timing, in Your way.. Thank You O Lord for giving me the sense of sweet contentment and being thankful in the midst of changes.. 

Peace and joy is what I seek.. O Lord.. being available for You and for Your use.. 

*grin*

Things that make me laugh!

I have been thinking about this.. What are the things that make me laugh... and I find it rather amusing as I think about it as it could be anything, really!.. And the other amusing thing is that it is nice to be laughing about things that I never thought would make me laugh.. That's kinda neat, I would think.

Ah!.. Life.. people.. experiences.. various bits that I do find rather lovely.. and fun!.. Love to have that sense of freedom to laugh and have fun!.. to enjoy moments.. to enjoy people.. to love life as it comes! Yay! This is possible because of He who says 'I am'.. and I look forward to what my dear Lord has installed for me in the days to come.. I am waiting in anticipation. *wink* What do I mean by that? I am not sure about it myself but I am praying and waiting.. All I know is that it will be beautiful and I again will be awed by Him!.. Hee..

A portrait...

I thought this was really cool.. 

and I feel privileged and blessed in many ways;
beyond words could express.

Just enjoying the Lord's blessings.

*grin*

"Funny!"

As this word came to my mind today, it is "funny" in a good sense. "Funny" in a humorous sense as I think about what the Lord is doing and what He is showing me. Just finding humor in discovering His sense of humor as it were.

It is surely amazing to be able to see the fun and laughter of life and to enjoy the moment; even as I am in the office this very minute. Kinda strange that I could be here on a Sunday morning but yet, this is the place where I could come anytime.. the sense of peace that I enjoy. It is not so much about the work I am doing. I never had that with my previous work. And, I guess I kinda do enjoy it. Able to have the freedom to come anytime. And, think this could work in terms of being discipline which I am totally not!

Well....... Funny!.. how life is.. and indeed I am thankful to Him; to be where I am.. Never really thought I would be here. Who would have thought? Who would have known? Only my sweet Heavenly Daddy would know.. to place me where I am now in order for me to do what I am doing now.. *wink*

"what do you mean?"

As I am trying to figure out figures, stuff flying by my brain too.. always multitasking.. Possibly a gift from God, that is. Else, never thought of even have the capacity and ability to do all I am doing at one time. Just love when the Lord reveals deeper stuff and deeper understanding, even with the numbers that I was trying to figure out! Yippee!.. 

So, what's with the question, "what do you mean?"? Not sure why I decided on this as the topic of this post.. I guess that is the one of my typical questions that I like to ask when I have conversations with people. In order to understand, I would ask. And, I have a teeny feeling that this is also my utmost question that I ask of the Lord too regularly.. I love the idea now; having the freedom to ask, without feeling 'stupid' as I am more secured in Him. What a breakthrough.. what a revelation and fun this is. :)

Well, back to the excitement of numbers revelation! It is progressing! Thank You O Lord! :)