Dancing with My Heavenly Daddy.. :D

yay.. continue to dance with Him.. that was what was prayed for me recently.. and I chuckled when I listened to that.. so sweet that He wants to dance with me.. and wants to dance with me abit more before releasing me to the next phase of life..... He loves me so much!.. aww.. 

A piece of the puzzle.. :D

Could I do this?

oooooooooh.. I don't think I could possibly do it on my own..

O LOrd.. please teach me to respond in Your ways and not my own...

Is it time?

this is another question that I have among the many.... There seems to be open door.. yet, is it time to do so? Lord, Please let me hear what You are saying.. When? where? so many questions.. but I know the good Lord will grant me clarity of mind.. Thank You O Lord..

I stand in awe...

This song just touched my heart.. and I guess because of the recent development, I am standing in awe of Him... Though things are still very much in its preliminary stage, I am just amazed... No matter what the outcome may be, I just want the will of God to be done.. and I know with God, nothing is impossible! as I was reminded of it today in church.. Please pray as I seek Him.. and as I explore more.. as I dwell in His presence.. in His Love...  *grin*

2011 is here to stay for another 364 days..

in a blink of an eye, 2010 has left us and 2011 has arrived and going to stay for 364 days... I had started this new year with low tune.. partly because I was not that well and needed much rest and I guess, 2nd partly because I do like a quiet entry of the new year.. It gives me the sense of awe.. the space to reflect upon Him my Almighty God.. to pray and to give thanks to Him.. And He gave me a dear sweet friend to share this experience with.. to pray together.. to praise God together.. and to hope together..

I finally found that I am that sentimental! well, not found, more of came to a much clearer realisation.. and it just confirmed further in me that this is the made of God in me.. which I treasure and appreciate even more now as I reflect and ponder. I suppose when this realisation is clearer, I am able to be myself even more; able to embrace who I am made to be more.. to live life as God leads me to.. not be afraid but able to live it to the fullest and with courage that is from Him alone.. *grin and wink*

May everyone be filled with much joy and hope in the Lord as we journey on in the year 2011..

Snowman family... :)

that Sarah & I built... on Christmas day.. this is something that I have always wanted to do and it is accomplished!.. yippppee.. :)

Blessings from dad & mom.. :)

recently, received an email from dad & mom.. They sent me a link with such a powerful and beautiful blessings and I know it is from their hearts.... I feel so blessed and so touched.. *grin* and I would like to share this with everyone here who read my scribblings.. :)

ThisBlessingIsForYou

this is funny.. just some humor..

that I received from a friend........ something light and yet it could happen to anyone!.. so, hmm.. a thought? :D

one by one...

seeing the pictures and statuses of friends on facebook today... especially from back home.. indeed, one by one.. got married.. have kids.. have another kid.. and here I am, wonder.. of course, I wonder.. and yet deep down know that God has great surprises & plans for me and I am waiting with lots of hope in and upon Him.. In the meantime, enjoying what I have and given.. :)

the recent postponement of my paris trip allowed me to see something amazing.. allow me to see the way I responded.. not in an irrational way but in a calm and sensible way... and I like that alot.. and would like to see that more and more.. no matter what is thrown at me, I would respond in a calm and peaceful way with a deep trust that God has another plan for me.. and make the best out of it!.. which is where the birth of christmas dinner comes along for Sarah & I.. and going for midnight communion... etc etc.. I do like this way of responding.. and God is teaching me how..... *wink*

And seeing the pictures and statuses of friends who got married; have kids & more kids.. and who are getting engaged; getting married... feeling so happy for every one of them and praying for them as they embark on their new journeys.. wish I could be there for them physically but I am here in the UK for this season of my life..

and this song I learnt recently in Carols choir just stick in my head which I think would be appriopriate here as well.. :D enjoy!... as we reflect upon Him.. and be reminded how much He loves us all!.. :)

"I Wonder As I Wander"

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

How Jesus the Saviour did come for to die

For poor on'ry people like you and like I;

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

When Mary birthed Jesus 'twas in a cow's stall

With wise men and farmers and shepherds and all

But high from God's heaven, a star's light did fall

And the promise of ages it then did recall.

If Jesus had wanted for any wee thing

A star in the sky or a bird on the wing

Or all of God's Angels in heaven to sing

He surely could have it, 'cause he was the King

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

How Jesus the Saviour did come for to die

For poor on'ry people like you and like I;

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

Just don't feel like doing anything..

usually when I am in this state of "just don't feel like doing anything".. I begin to realise is when I am thinking.. or figuring something out.. well, it is more like trying to figure something out. Unfortunately, most times to no avail.. yet, I would find myself in that mode again and again.. When will I learn to go to God immediately instead of wallowing myself in this mode for hours?

Another reminder!. another lesson to be learnt.. Well, time to zzz.. and be refreshed for what is ahead tomorrow.. 

This is who I need...

a man who is like Caleb in the Old Testament.. 

who is of "different spirit" (Numbers 14:24).. 

and who has courage all the way.. (Joshua 14: 6- 15).... 

*grin*

am waiting in anticipation and rested in Daddy's arms.. :)

Is it worth it?

just pondering about "Love".. observing and reflecting of how people response about this in their lives.. thinking of my own response in the past and even now.. and I am reminded of God's love that is full and complete.. where human's love is not; even though we try to and many times, we try very hard to.

So, is it worth to love? It is nice to be loved, of course. Everyone wants that. But the question is; is it worth to love especially with the knowledge that we may not even be loved back, sometimes. The risk is there. So, is it worth it? In my own logical mind trying to understand the implication of things, it seems a rather complicated matter to decide. Yet, when I look to Jesus and His sacrifice on the cross because He loves us unconditionally; it just blows me away. His response clearly shows that it is worth it! and it is the same kind of love that we are to extend to others too.. Obviously God has set a high standard.. and it is only by His Grace that we are able to love.. drawing strength and love from Him to love and be loved too.

Think, probably today is the start of me winding down for the year 2010.. and to reflect of what I have done in the past months and praying into the coming months and year.. The many "what-ifs" that I have to lay down at the foot of the cross and trust that God will resurrect them if it is His Will... the many joys of witnessing lives being touched, encouraged and lifted up.. the many tears of disappointment and joy that are being sent up to Heaven... buckets, perhaps! yet, the peace of God settles.. and settling even more these days; regardless of what is ahead... Sometimes, I just do not understand but just telling God that all I want is to be in His House.. to be rested in Him.. The sky may fall; the walls may crumble.. it doesn't matter so as long as I remain in Him. Remaining in Him gives me the assurance that I am protected and hence, I am able to extend His Love to those who needs it. 

Indeed the Truth in His Word does set us free! May we truly know it in our heart of hearts.. May we truly experience it deep in our lives.. 

Well.. as I look forward to the weekend away with my C-group.. I know God will show up with His surprises in His Time.... *grin*

Reconciliation...

This thought has been in my mind for a long long time.. and I just sense that it is there for a reason.. sometimes, I wish I know how to go about it.. yet, the deep sense of assurance from God is to pray.. to intercede whenever this thoughts come. It is not so much about what I could do but more of praying and interceding.. 

I am scribbling this; not so much referring to personal relationships and friendships.. there is a time for that in a separate setting. but I am referring more about reconciliation between countries and races, even.

Being in the UK for two years now, I notice there is this unspoken segregation and it is true even in the church context too. Hmm.. I wonder, is it suppose to be there? Why is it there in the first place? Because of the past history? Because of generation soul ties and hurt due to war and desire to conquer? Also, why do people decide to live in another country and yet be in their own close knit community?

What is Jesus saying in all these things? Why is my heart being stirred about these thoughts? It is challenging and there is the cry for reconciliation.. where does it come from? What could I do? or should I even do anything? 

Father, show me.. grant me wisdom to pray and intercede.. and to response as how Jesus would response.. 

Snowflake moment..

As I was waiting for the bus, looking at my phone.. then, a snowflake landed on my mobile screen.. and for just a second, I was able to see the beauty of a snowflake!.. the intricate design.. Who came out with such details? Truly amazing! Truly beautiful.. 

I know Who is the maker.. do you? 

Just think.. Someone who is able to design such beauty is the Same Creator who design you and me.. such focus and with so much care, love and passion! I just love to be blessed with such profound truth of life.. It does give me much joy and excitement and in fact, passion too!

Walking in the cold could be a life-changing moment too; if only we take time to ponder upon God.. everything made by God is for a reason.. and for this reason, I want to praise Him even more! *wink*

Where has the time gone to?

This is one question I have been asking myself.. Things are just quite crazy with so many things going on.. perhaps that is why time has gone by that quick before my eyes.. and in two days time, it is Dec 2010! goodness me.. and it marks my 3rd winter in the UK.. and winter has been ever so fascinating with the rapid change of weather.. rather bizarre phenomenon; looking at how the weather changes.. experiencing it to the core.. Though it may be cold but I do like it when there is sunshine in winter.. somehow, it gives me the sense of awe.. the beauty of creation.. 

Today is special.. coz today, God opened an opportunity for me to approach a topic that has been in my mind and yet, I didn't know what to do other than just commit to the Lord and pray. It just fell in the right place very rightly.. the flow of the conversation was rather amazing that I could only whisper (I wanted to shout! but I was on the phone) "Thank You Lord!" One step taken and more time to spend in praying.. and waiting with anticipation for the next step.. *grin*

The same time next year.. I wonder.. I just wonder where would I be? *wink*

Think I like this too!.. :)

Just a pic of me!.. LOL..

*grin*

Fear! & Unbelief...

Being a participant of this course called "Freedom course" in church.. the recent session which was yesterday evening.. we looked at the whole area of fear and unbelief.. and interestingly, the word 'disappointment' was mentioned! hmm.. I do wonder.. what is God saying to me here.. with all these various things.. I knew deep down that there are stuff still lingering around to be dealt with.. and it is comforting to know that the Good Lord reveals to me in His Time and in His most gentlest way.. helping me to walk through and overcome whatever that are there..

In that sense, I know that it wasn't by accident that recently, I have all these weird feelings of sudden fears.. and a sense of hopelessness.. perhaps indeed it is time to face things in this level and to be an overcomer in Christ! It is scary to face the fears.. but I am not alone!.. God has surrounded me with His army!.. *grin*

Thankfulness..

That is the word that kept popping in my head these days.. Thankfulness! :)

Being thankful is a choice!.. well, think lots of things in life are linked with choices.. and choosing to be thankful is one of them.. Being thankful in the midst of uncertainty or trouble.. being thankful in the midst of confusion.. or even being thankful in the midst of nothingness or fullness! 

Just amazing how the Lord reveals various things through various situations in the past few weeks and months.. Amazing because I never thought they would happen and they did! And most times, it came when I least expected them. How bizarre that could be.. Or probably that is how the Lord reveals.. The way how He opens doors; the way how He guides me.. etc etc.. and also the way how He touches my heart and heals it when He sees there is a need to do that. Oooh.. I feel so loved loved! *grin*

Loving God always know what is best to keep me on fire! excited about things ahead! What more could I ask for? What else do I need? I have all that I need in Him.. It is truly comforting and assuring to be where I am now.. in His Love and Embrace.. even when I haven't figured out what I am going to do or where I would be! Kinda crazy to be scribbling this way and yet, this is where I am.. and I am happy and thankful!

It is just that simple! or is it? I think it is when we become used to choosing to be thankful in spite of conditions or situations.. Loving life as it is.. loving people as they are.. *wink*