Studying time!

I got news that I have been granted a place to do the Christian Counselling course at CWR. Yay! I am really excited about it and looking forward to what I would be learning this coming academic year.

A Snapshot!

and this is the link.. 

http://mystory.jesus.net/story/vivien-keu/ 

My Testimony

I wrote my testimony today using a different tool, a rather cool tool...

Here it is...
http://mystory.jesus.net/story/vivien-keu/

Enjoy and be encouraged! :-)  I am scribbling from Tallinn, Estonia! :-)

Wearing a mask..

It must have been hard to be wearing mask everyday.. but yet, that is what everyone is doing.. wearing mask as they face people.. sometimes or even, alot of times, many layers of masks.. Yet, arguably, people claim that they can't lie & they are good, etc and hence, that means they are not wearing masks? Is that true? I think, the mask can come in many forms.. or they are created due to many reasons.. Some are being put on by ourselves.. Yet, many aren't. They are put on because of our upbringing and our experiences in lives.

Father, this country really does need your touch in the lives of the people.. The agony.. the pain.. so many things taking place behind every door of household.. broken households.. In fact, dear Lord, the whole world need You.. I really just dare not read what are there in the news.. the things and situations.. I feel really burdened and weary.. Father, what is it that You would want me to do with all these feelings and thoughts? All I know is to pray and intercede.. They are overwhelming feelings, Lord..

Dear dear Lord.. Please show me how to pray.. how to pray into situations.. how to walk in Your Spirit and speak forth Your Truth.. Lord, use me please.. and even for Estonia.. while I am there, please send the people that You want me to meet and be friends with.. where we could share of your Good News. Lord, please grant me Your boldness and courage to do what I am called to do. And, Lord, could you send me one or two new people who can speak depth into my life too and vice versa.. That would be a real treat for me.. *grin* Thank You Lord..

The deep peaceful inner strength from You is what I long to have at all times.. no matter how bad the storms are; when I have that peace from You, Lord, I could pray and I could overcome. And it is with this, Father, I am able to see through the masks of the people and see where they are at.. Father, it is a scary business yet if this is what You want me to do and pray, please grant me the supernatural energy and creativity to do so.. And Lord, please deal with whatever masks that I could be wearing too.. thank You! :)

expectations & disappointments

I wonder.. maybe I shouldn't even expect.. but yet, I did.. and when I did, disappointment comes when the expectation wasn't met. How sad this is. I am saddened. Maybe I shouldn't care anymore. But yet, I couldn't. What an irony knot I am in!

Can I just....

?

That nagging feeling just lingers..

Lord, can I just let go?

will it come back to haunt me later for letting go?

I have so many questions, Lord. As usual, I guess.

At this spur moment, this phrase came to mind.

"God loves us because He is good and not because we are good"

Father, I haven't been good, have I? all look messed up! like this..

but You can untangle the mess.. :)

Thank You.

That's me at this hour!

this is a nicer way to say "Please go away!"...

Should I print this and put it outside my room door?

And I wonder, why no news from CWR.. sigh.. in God's timing, eh.. 

shall wait patiently then.. 

beautiful!

I love stationery! Maybe my next job would be to work in a stationery shop.. :)

God Loves me! :)

at the turn of moment.. I read this daily devotion.. and so comforted by Him who loves me so much!.. :)

In Good Hands
    By Holy Land Moments

“He said, ‘Can I not do with you, Israel, as this potter does?’ declares the Lord. ‘Like clay in the hand of the potter, so are you in my hand, Israel’.” Jeremiah 18:6

Many of the messages given to Jeremiah came in the form of metaphors. For example, in the beginning of chapter 18, God tells Jeremiah to go to a potter’s home. There, Jeremiah watches how the potter works with the clay at his wheel. As the potter is forming a pot, he notices that the pot is not looking like he wants it to. So he destroys the one he is working with and creates a new pot.

As they say, a picture is worth a thousand words, and with this imagery fresh in his mind, Jeremiah is able to understand what God means when He says, “Like clay in the hand of the potter, so are you in my hand, Israel.”

The imagery of clay in the hands of a potter is so powerful that it has become part of the liturgy of Yom Kippur – the Day of Atonement – along with similar metaphors, such as silver in the hands of a silver smith and glass in the hands of the glass blower. In all of the imagery, we see a substance, malleable and fragile, in the hands of its maker.

On the one hand, it is terrifying to realize how vulnerable we really are. Our Creator can build us up, or destroy us. Anything can change on a dime. But on the other hand, it is comforting to know that if we are at the mercy of someone’s hands, it is none other than the hands of God.

Sometimes the potter does have to destroy his pot. But he only does so in order to make it new again — and better. Through this object lesson, God is telling Jeremiah that although the Jewish people are about to go into a horrible exile, and even though many will be slaughtered and the Temple destroyed, it’s all for the purpose of rebuilding!

Jeremiah needed to know and understand that the destruction he was predicting was not the end of the story. It is the beginning of a new one. With that understanding, Jeremiah would be able to rebuke the people, but also comfort them once his dire predictions came true.

There are times in our lives when we feel nothing less than shattered, like a broken piece of pottery. Where is our Maker? How will we become whole again? We must remember the image of the potter from the book of Jeremiah. Sometimes, the Almighty will bring us down. But never forget, friends, that it is only in order to build us up once more – better, wiser, and definitely stronger.

No matter what shape we are at the moment, we are always in good hands!

the good Lord is so good, isn't He? *grin* 
So, maybe destruction needs to take place so that He could make me whole again.. 
better, wiser and stronger!
Such hope it is to know that I am in His good hands! :)

Going downhill?

The feeling is such but yet, somewhere deep inside is saying "NO!".. oh! but I definitely am in the stage where I am pulling my hair!!! am I carrying all these feelings for other people? the feelings are rather overwhelming.. very different from before.. very new, in fact.. maybe that is why I feel much more uncomfortable about them.. I need wisdom from the Lord to discern this..

Oh! I need to get away from people! Not that I hate them or anything.. (I could have been misunderstood by lots.. I think coz of the "anti-social" attitude I have at the moment) I feel I need to do that so that I can be clear that these feelings are not from me! and if it is from me, I would be able to discern what is going on..

Can I hide in a cave, like now, Lord? Please help! 0.o and Lord, please touch my brother's heart.. especially during this time of pain in his body.. Father, You know him.. and You can turn things around for Your good! I am claiming Romans 8:28 for my brother and his household.. Thank You Lord.

Father, You said You are taking care of my family while I am here in the UK.. I am holding You to Your words, Lord. :)

Major Procrastinator!

That's me!

when comes to things which I do not wish to do! 

bleh! :(

probably, this is something which I have to learn from Jesus.. 

to learn how to respond rightly.. and not procrastinate..

Please help me, Lord Jesus. Thank You. :)

Cosmic Justice! :)

how timely the below daily devotion came today.. when I was pondering about some things in life.. the Lord knows and He provides.. aww.. I am so touched and strengthened! He is Awesome! *grin*


July 13, 2012


The Venue of Cosmic Justice
          By Greg Laurie


For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever.2 Corinthians 4:17–18

We all know that life isn’t fair, that it is filled with inequities and injustices. Sure, there are times when good is rewarded and bad is punished. But far too often, it is the very opposite of that. We see good people suffer and see evil people succeed.

But while it is true that life is not fair, it is also true that God is good. He is righteous and holy, and He loves all of us. And one day in eternity, God will right all wrongs. All of those unanswered questions will be dealt with. The unfair things in life will be solved. Pain will be replaced by comfort. Tears will be replaced by joy and laughter. Heaven is where losses are more than compensated for.

Knowing this gives us a better perspective on the struggles of life. We are reminded by the apostle Paul, “For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever” (2 Corinthians 4:17–18).

God has other times and places where our dreams and our hopes can be realized. We see things in a certain way here on earth. But that can change overnight. That can change in a nanosecond when we enter into eternity.

As Dinesh D’Souza said, “Heaven is the venue of cosmic justice. This is where the faithful servants of the Lord who came in last receive their due prize and reward.”

It is all going to be sorted out on the other side.

Summary sentence: Justice will prevail on the other side!

Job 34:12

It is unthinkable that God would do wrong, that the Almighty would pervert justice.

Deuteronomy 32:4

He is the Rock, his works are perfect, and all his ways are just.
A faithful God who does no wrong, upright and just is he.

No Regrets..

As I saw some pictures this morning on Facebook, they brought back memories to me about the many guy friends I have known.. some closer than others.. and some with interesting stories about them. I just felt excited that what I sensed many years ago was true and it is affirming. The Lord has His ways of showing me things about people and the potentials in them. I thank God for them and am really excited to be getting glimpses of these in His mercy.

Father, You know what runs through my mind as I close my eyes.. You know and I know that it is in Your ways, You will bring things to past.. for Your Glory and extension of Your Kingdom. Thank You Father.. Thank You dear Lord for Your sweet revelations and affirmations.

And I am really glad.. I am not sure why I scribbled that; but I am truly glad at this moment of time that I am where I am.. with no regrets of the past but with much hope in Jesus of the future. 

On a separate note, I am excited to hear of a wedding coming up in November!.. I am praying for both of them.. I am not sure how near the bride-to-be is to know Lord Jesus but I have been praying that she will make that choice in her life because she wants to. Maybe she has made that choice. The Lord knows! :)

Saw the Queen of United Kingdom!

the excitement of the day!.. I saw the Queen today!

She looks really good! Amazing! 

Two graduates.. :)

yes.. two have graduated yesterday! Another one this evening.. :)

Praying that as they enter the "working world", they will continue to walk closely with the Lord in all that they do!.. Exciting journey!.. and I am excited for them! :)

Memoir...

Not sure why but today is just one of those days that I think about all those sweet memories that I have the past few years.. of the girls and boys that I met in Birmingham.. especially the ones that I have gotten to know really well.. seeing them grow.. laughing and crying with them.. and seeing them graduated.. saying goodbyes at the airport.. Oh my!.. 

Yet, they are special.. and will always be in my heart. The joy of being part of their lives.. of experiencing life in lives..

Father, as I think of them, You know who they are and where they are at this hour.. especially in their walk with You.. Father, please continue to work in their lives.. be with them especially if they are facing difficult times.. Touch their hearts.. in ways that only You know how, Lord.. 

I do long for many moments and opportunities in the days to come where I could hear news about them.. of what the Lord has been doing in their lives.. Thank You Father.. 

that time of the year..

yup!.. another round of graduations.. how interesting that I am involved in this; especially I thought I won't be.. the good Lord is humorous in that sense!

And this time round, I am actually attending the ceremony! Upgraded! LOL

Nevertheless, it is my blessings to be able to witness and be part of this.. as it is very important for the individuals who are graduating.. It is a big day!.. I think it kinda comes next after the wedding day..

*wink*

Always waiting..

Waiting is just something that I have to live with, I think. Anyway, I have come to terms that it is and make the best out of the waiting time.. 

Another waiting process to hear from CWR on whether I would be accepted to do this course that I have been praying about.. But, it is a short wait.. a two-weeks wait.. or could be lesser. :)

On the train...

I am actually scribbling on the train... Going to London for two days... Looking forward to explore what God may have installed for me... whether is this what He desires me to do for the coming one year... I shall soon know...

Also, I am asking this question that God asked me.. "what do I really want?"... Thinking about it.. Reflecting... Trying to look at it from up.. down.. side way.. left... right... all sorts..

What a journey this would be.. ! :-)

Joyful.. Joyful!

This will be the song that I am dancing to in Heartbeat Tallinn... Joined in the dance performance even though I can't dance!.. hehe.. just for the fun of it.. and also reminded of the words that were released to me more than a year back... about dancing to the Lord.. Let see what all this means!

The singer is Laura Hackett...

and what is Heartbeat Tallinn?

this is the website that explains it all.. http://www.2012.ee/

It would be my first trip to Estonia.. and this conference is a mega-conference where everyone in Europe who work in Agape come together.. to meet the Estonians and talk about Jesus! Exciting times! Please pray as you read this scribble of mine..

We will be there from 23rd till 30th July 2012

a good feeling!

It feels good to be able to do an unknown deed!

*grin*

when girl meets boy..

Interestingly, I find that when a girl meets a boy that she likes, there seems to be that kind of a fuss.. a fuss that is rather obvious, possibly... or is it just me noticing things? And, I think that goes the same to when a guy meets a girl that he likes.. 

I do find it rather amusing.. I wonder do people watch me that way too? hmm.. 

D&D

Dreams...

And

Decisions..

Think I could have made a decision! whether it is of God, I am not sure but think it is time to look beyond myself and look outwardly.. In a sense, the decision is very much linked to the needs.

Time to try something new and do things differently!