By one-self..

the joy of being by myself.. reflecting and thinking.. I guess it is times like this I am "inward" looking.. Just want to have lots of me-time on my own.. Not having to talk to anyone physically.. except God Himself.. 

and not having to sense anything or carry any for anyone; trusting that God is taking care of all those needs for now.. Just being free to rest in Him.. physically, emotionally and spiritually.. Not that I do this very often.. perhaps it is overdue now.. maybe that is why the abrupt need to do so.. 

I just love that the good Lord is giving me place to go to when I need to.. the freedom of doing so.. 

Next stop!

Yup!.. my next stop.. I am heading to Ostuni coming week.. near Brindisi on the map; literally at the heel of the Italian boot.. Think this would be a very cool trip.. I am praying as I prepare myself to go to Italy.. I pray for deepening of friendship.. and meeting of new friends too! Who knows, learn a few new words.. I am thankful to Him who blesses me with friends.. new friends.. and new stuff to be part of.. fresh ideas to learn..

In the meantime, finishing off the work that I need to do..  and I am off on the plane in a week's time.. yay!.. :)

Flying..

Time for the growing bird to fly on her own... and it also means, time for the concentrated nurturing to lessen even more so that the growing one could feed more on the solid food from the source.. and hence, the right timing of Him for the leaving to somewhere else for a while in between.. This is very exciting! Let see what the good Lord will be doing.. 

The Lord knows my heart desire.. and He sees the move.. the shift.. and He graciously shows them to me.. Time to be off!.. 

Serenity...

This picture just gave me the sense of peace.. I wonder, as I apply, would I be accepted to do the counselling course at this place? I am praying.. friends praying... the people at CWR are praying.. I am excited to see what the Lord has installed for me. :) Is it this place? Is it this course?

Normality..

I have this sense of normality back in my life.. I just have this sense of it recently. I think I am possibly not on cloud nine anymore and back to ground level. Wow! I was on cloud nine since May last year till recently? That was a long stretch of time, I would think.

It is good to feel that I am back on ground level.. and reality has sunk in. I could see myself doing much more stuffs that are on my list. And, I think the turning point was at the Easter Staff conference recently. I still remembered that I shared at the end of the conference that I have learnt lots.. especially in the area of how I was taught during my education years and comparing to how others were being taught; the interactions and all. Also, I shared about being in cloud nine with thoughts that I just couldn't believe that I am where I am now. Amazing that after I shared that, things started to gather in the right places as it were.. and now, scribbling here.. I am able to come to a place where I could scribble so much clearer about it.

Indeed, I could feel that I am able to breathe normally again and it is nice to have that. Please don't get me wrong, it was super cool to be on cloud nine.. that whole sense of feelings of the Lord's wonders and provisions.. I think I would very much like both parts together; intervening .. Seeing the hands of God moving is just amazing! and awesome! 

Yes! I am off to do the things I am called to do.. and in the midst of it all, with that constant hope of seeing His Glory shining on/in each day of my life.. seeing and experiencing His Love in every aspects that life brings; just because He loves me! *wink*

Why UK?

The question that I have today is "Why UK?" I think I have asked this question before. And, yet, I am prompted with it again, today. The Lord has something to say to me, I personally believe as I reflect and think further. I know there is something that He would like me to grasp.. and looking at how things developing slowly in time, I am amazed by how connected they are. I am still unable to paint a whole picture of what I am trying to say, yet, there is this sense of excitement welling within me. How interesting that is!

As I wait.. as I pray.. as I try different things.. as I look and seek Him... I know, in His time, everything will be beautiful! I am waiting and while I wait, I am enjoying His provisions for now.. enjoying the friendships that He has blessed me with.. learning to love people.. learning even to challenge people when need to.. when to hold my tongue.. and when not to.. 

Last night was beautiful.. the sense of it all was just beautiful! I think it was far more than just beautiful! Father Lord does have His ways of getting His hands into things.. and voila, another great piece of art! *grin*

So, why UK? UK has always been in my heart for a long time.. I always envision myself to be here when I was younger. Did God put that in my heart, I wonder? I guess I will press on, pray, wait and see as He unveils more in the days to come.. Please pray with me and for me if you read this.. Thank you! :)

Choices..

Spending time at home.. just reflecting on things.. having the time to think about many things.. Even thinking about the choices I have made.. Choices about how I respond towards people.. friends and various ones.. and even choices I have made with regards to all sorts.

Interestingly, the Lord reminds me again about the heart of humility.. the heart of loving others.. especially and even more the ones that I think I couldn't love.. Hmm.. It is hard.. It would have been much easier to decide not to be involve.. I definitely have much to learn.. and I think it is a lifelong learning.. I will make mistakes.. I have made mistakes.. and even mistakes that I couldn't go back to fix them.. Yet, that is what I have to learn.. and the good Lord teaches me His grace.. He shows me His Grace.. and that is hope, I believe.

Who am I to know what is to come.. ? I remember something I have learnt last few days.. I am known by God.. He knows me through and through.. and He is teaching me... He knows what brings me much joy and even what brings much pain.. Yet, these are the experiences that would shape and mould me.. The Lord wants me to trust Him.. and I want to trust Him.. 

Obviously, there are stuff that I have to face.. that I have to learn from God to surrender to Him.. would I come to that place of full surrendering to Him? definitely a life-long journey.. I am asking Him to have mercy upon me.. coz there are stuff that I still don't understand and there are struggles that I am still facing.. pride stored various places that require time and effort to let go.. gosh!.. lots of work.. and yet, it is the Lord's touch of my heart to stir what is within me.. His mercy and grace is all that I need.. Thank You Abba Father..