Explosion of colours..

This is going on in my mind this morning.. My dream home would be filled with colours.. loads of cushions and colours.. Lord, please prepare this home as I scribble on.. You know the location of this home that I dream of.. Please guide me step by step.. and when the day comes, I would know which house and where it is.. I also pray for the surrounding.. the neighbours that I am going to have.. Lord, You know the details that needs to be covered.. I pray that this home will be a home of peace where people would want to come for refuge and time with You in the midst of the hustle and bustle of life.. 

I have thought of a name for my new home.. 

仁愛喜乐和平的家

(the home of love, joy & peace)

Lord, I commit this to You.. and trust that You know the best for me..  whether how big it would be, my neighbours, the location that is safe, the financial side of things and everything else..

Thank You Lord Jesus.. *beam*

He continues to amaze me..

I just want to scribble that Heavenly Daddy is continuing to amaze me in many ways.. His eye for details in my life is just super amazing and cool. What else could I say other than I am super blessed and loved by Him.

Regardless of what people in the world may say of me, I am worthy before Him for I am His. He made me as who I am.. the unusual & extraordinary Vivien Keu Lian Sze!.. Every move I am taking, I pray that He will guide me.. even the words that I am going to speak, He will guide me.. More so especially, I have gone through death (in a different kind) and was resurrected by him. If this life is no longer mine to keep, why would it bother me what people say of me and of my actions and words? It shouldn't bother me, really.. Interesting thoughts..

I have this big suspicion that dear Daddy has something big up His sleeves.. I am feeling excited even the thought of it.. it is like a child skipping within me... and the beautiful thing is He wants me to dream BIG!

I think I should list down stuff in my sketch book... and see things unfold before my eyes by Him.. O Lord.. after the disappointment, I am actually surprised that the hope came leaping back so quickly! It is like, You have given me a fresh new HOPE to dream... Lord, Thank You.. Only You could do that in me.. No one else.. *beam*

You're Beautiful...

"You're Beautiful"

I see Your face in every sunrise

The colors of the morning are inside Your eyes

The world awakens in the light of the day

I look up to the sky and say

You're beautiful

I see Your power in the moonlit night

Where planets are in motion and galaxies are bright

We are amazed in the light of the stars

It's all proclaiming who You are

You're beautiful

I see You there hanging on a tree

You bled and then you died and then you rose again for me

Now You are sitting on Your heavenly throne

Soon we will be coming home

You're beautiful

When we arrive at eternity's shore

Where death is just a memory and tears are no more

We'll enter in as the wedding bells ring

Your bride will come together and we'll sing

You're beautiful

I see Your face, I see Your face

I see Your face, You're beautiful

You're beautiful

You're beautiful

Light shining through..

Interesting image with the quote of Corrie Ten Boom.. :)

what am I doing here?

At this juncture of my life; being back in my homeland.. asking myself this question and asking God the question too..

What am I doing here?

This question popped up as I am reading this book titled "Joni&Ken - An Untold Love story". Ken Tada asked that question when he was in Romania on Joni's speaking engagement trip to experience for himself what it would be like. God spoke to him there and then.. and one phrase that caught my eye was "It is NOT about you".

I kinda knew that for a good number of years now.. that, it is Not about me. It is about Him and His purpose for me. However, this time as I reflect, somehow, there is a different light to it.

Even as I scribble on, I remember a recent chat that I had. This girl asked me, "why have you decided to come back?".. with the tone seemingly indicating that it is a wrong move to come back.  Am I being too sensitive about it or was I right to catch the tone? Hmm.. it was a very interesting chat. I knew it is time to be back.. and so far, that is all I know but how do you share that with another person?.. I know in the days to come, looking back with hindsight, I would understand a little bit more of the why.

God works in mysterious ways and He always succeeds in surprising me out of my boots! I am waiting in anticipation and hope for He knows my heart's desires deep down.. while being contented where I am now.. enjoying being home.. reading.. spending time with mom.. seeing friends.. *smile*

(took this picture via google images)

Trusting Him as I journey on with Him and with the many friends He has blessed me with. :)

I am a child of God... :)

Reading from My Utmost for His Highest.... :)

Christ-Awareness

08

20

2013

. . . and I will give you rest —Matthew 11:28

Whenever anything begins to disintegrate your life with Jesus Christ, turn to Him at once, asking Him to re-establish your rest. Never allow anything to remain in your life that is causing the unrest. Think of every detail of your life that is causing the disintegration as something to fight against, not as something you should allow to remain. Ask the Lord to put awareness of Himself in you, and your self-awareness will disappear. Then He will be your all in all. Beware of allowing your self-awareness to continue, because slowly but surely it will awaken self-pity, and self-pity is satanic. Don’t allow yourself to say, “Well, they have just misunderstood me, and this is something over which they should be apologizing to me; I’m sure I must have this cleared up with them already.” Learn to leave others alone regarding this. Simply ask the Lord to give you Christ-awareness, and He will steady you until your completeness in Him is absolute.

A complete life is the life of a child. When I am fully conscious of my awareness of Christ, there is something wrong. It is the sick person who really knows what health is. A child of God is not aware of the will of God because he is the will of God. When we have deviated even slightly from the will of God, we begin to ask, “Lord, what is your will?” A child of God never prays to be made aware of the fact that God answers prayer, because he is so restfully certain that God always answers prayer.

If we try to overcome our self-awareness through any of our own commonsense methods, we will only serve to strengthen our self-awareness tremendously. Jesus says, “Come to Me . . . and I will give you rest,” that is, Christ-awareness will take the place of self-awareness. Wherever Jesus comes He establishes rest— the rest of the completion of activity in our lives that is never aware of itself.

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Then, the reading from the Vine today talks about the similar things.. so cool...

Wednesday, August 21st

Here's Today's Devotional from The Vine...

Make Me Clean

Jesus called a little child to himself, and set him in the midst of them. -Matthew 18:2

The child preached the sermon. It said to those ambitious disciples, “Shame on all you quarreling about prominence and high places. Look at me. I am much higher up in the kingdom of heaven than you. You must get clear of all your proud thoughts and become humble and simple-minded and childlike, or in the new kingdom you will have no place at all, much less a high place.” Little children are all preaching sermons to us, if only we have ears to hear. In their innocence, simplicity, and nature, children exert an influence upon other lives which no words can describe. They are at once the greatest preachers and themselves the most eloquent sermons.

This picture of Jesus with the little one in His arms is very beautiful. In all the Bible there is scarcely another which so well represents the attitude both of the soul and of the Savior in salvation and in all Christian life. Jesus takes the child in His arms: there is love, tenderness, protection. Close to Jesus we find the place of warmth, affection, intimacy, and confidence. The encircling arms imply safety, support, shelter. He lifted up the child and held it in His arms; so He carries His people through this world. He does not merely tell them how to go, but He takes them on His shoulders, carrying not only their burdens, but themselves. In this way He bears them on through life and through death.

Look at the picture another way - the child in the Savior's arms. Its attitude speaks of trust, confidence, repose, peace, love, and joy -- just the feelings which belong to the true Christian. What safety we find when we're close to Christ in danger, storm, sorrow, and even death! We need to learn to nestle in our Savior's arms in all the experiences of life!

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God is so good to me!.. reminding me about trusting Him like a child trusts her father.. *beam* and recently, a dear friend sent me a picture of a father playing with his daughter which reminds me of how Heavenly Daddy playing with me! wheeeeee!.. :)

Downloaded the picture below from the week website..

Sweet... :)

God moves in a mysterious way..

God moves in a mysterious way

His wonders to perform;

He plants His footsteps in the sea

And rides upon the storm.

Deep in unfathomable mines

Of never failing skill

He treasures up His bright designs

And works His sovereign will.

Ye fearful saints, fresh courage take;

The clouds ye so much dread

Are big with mercy and shall break

In blessings on your head.

Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,

But trust Him for His grace;

Behind a frowning providence

He hides a smiling face.

His purposes will ripen fast,

Unfolding every hour;

The bud may have a bitter taste,

But sweet will be the flower.

Blind unbelief is sure to err

And scan His work in vain;

God is His own interpreter,

And He will make it plain.

by William Cowper

The first verse of this hymn was given to me during the prayer time at Cgroup on 31st July 2013 by Adrian. I could identify with it very much.. in fact, with the whole of the hymn.. The Lord is good, isn't He? :)

Awesome gift of God..

yes, Peace.. His Peace is such an awesome gift from Him. I love the above image I googled; explaining PEACE.. in the way how I felt on 8th August 2013 afternoon when that face to face moment happened.

Even as I scribble here, I couldn't believe that it happened. God did tell me that it would take place; an upfront face to face moment in a shopping mall. Lo and behold, it actually did! exactly the way how He told me it would be. However, He gave me more surprises; He arranged in such a way that I was with a very dear friend (who felt led to meet me that day! and told me from the moment we met that she didn't understand why but God told her to meet me!) and the peace that I have from Him was so amazing.. It happened rather quickly where greetings were exchanged and few words were spoken. I will always remember that moment of time when we walked away, I was filled with much peace and grace welling up within me; enveloping me; walking away with my head lifted high.

That reminds me of the Glorious Ruins song by Hillsong. :)

During the past 6 years, sometimes, I did wonder what would it be like to have that face to face moment with this person whom I do not wish to see face to face; yet I do know in my heart that God would want me to face the moment when the right time comes. Well, what else could I say other than God knows.. and He prepares.. He blesses.. It's way beyond awesome, the way how He orchestrated it. *beaming*

A finale that was prepared by Him immeasurably more than I have ever expected, really. Thank You Dear Heavenly Daddy.

Mystery Will of God..

He calls me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find Him in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon His Name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in His Embrace
For I am His and He is mine

His Grace abounds in deepest waters
His Sovereign Hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
He has never failed and He won't start now

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever He would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Saviour

(Oceans - where feet may fail by Hillsong United) Revised version of words from 'You' to 'He'..