A recent devotion reading says, "If you are going to be used by God, He will take you through a number of experiences that are not meant for you personally at all. They are designed to make you useful in His hands, and to enable you to understand what takes place in the lives of others. Because of this process, you will never be surprised by what comes your way.". How interest this reading was.. and I do wonder whether is this what I am going through currently.. with no job coming along, lots of uncertainties looming ahead.. Hmm.. it is a rather nice way of putting things, don't you think so? This season of waiting is another block of experience to prepare me for what is ahead? I guess I would only know with hindsights in the days to come when I look back at this season of waiting.. awww.. that'd be really fascinating for the days to come.. However, currently, I can honestly say that I have a mix feelings of things.. coz I am still weak.. so, there are times, I feel rather lousy.. but thank God for His strength that sustains me where most times, I feel excited about what is happening currently.. It is really the matter of perspective.. and what I choose to see..
And the devotion reading continues with these questions and reflections, "Are we partakers of Christ’s sufferings? Are we prepared for God to stamp out our personal ambitions? Are we prepared for God to destroy our individual decisions by supernaturally transforming them? It will mean not knowing why God is taking us that way, because knowing would make us spiritually proud. We never realize at the time what God is putting us through— we go through it more or less without understanding. Then suddenly we come to a place of enlightenment, and realize— "God has strengthened me and I didn’t even know it!"" I am longing for that place of enlightenment... and yet realise the need to be in the present and to be available "mindfully"... I could have gotten carried away with my own situation/ circumstance and be completely useless.... I thank God that He remind me all the time about being intentional and being overcomer of my own situation.. and to look at Jesus.. focusing on Him..
Just as 1 Peter 4:12-13 says, "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed." To choose to rejoice... and then be overjoyed when His glory is revealed in my current situation... His Word holds true.. even if I couldn't see what is ahead.. Like 2 Corinthians 1:5 says "For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.", He always comfort me... He never fails to do that which is just amazing and very assuring.. Though I can't see what is ahead of me or even be certain of what I am going to do or where I am going to go, His Word is what I am holding on to and not let go. and you know, that is where being headstrong (stubborn in another word) comes in very handy indeed!.. God has His reasons for me to be who I am.. not justifying myself but just merely putting things into perspectives... *wink*
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